LT: For those who saw me today, I apologize. ;___; My computer is spazzing out like wtf. So if I don't respond, or suddenly disappear, or say I've got to go but don't lay down or disappear for like 5 minutes, blame my computer. D|

My framerate is also around 4 fps (with spazmoments of around 11 fps xD), today. So um yeah. xD I kind of have trouble keeping up with running deer. <3

It's kind of funny, because everything will be all choppy for a while, and then my computer will catch up and the deer will move in super-fast-forward for a second. xDDD

Sorry! DD:

- LT

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He nuzzled me.

It took a while for me to get close enough, but eventually, I did. I just gathered up all of my courage, and walked right up to him. I gently reached out and gave him a little nuzzle, trying to tell him that it was alright. And then, he nuzzled me back. Of course, he only did it for a split second, and then he was galloping off again, leaving me all alone in his trail of dust.

But I didn't mind. I was too stunned to care; and for quite a while, I just stood there, mesmerized by what I'd just experienced. Then I laid down, letting my mind wander.

The sound of little hooves roused me from my half-slumber, and I realized that there was a little fawn dancing around in front of me. I shrunk back a little, startled at the fawn's sudden appearance. And all of the sudden, the stag was there. He came galloping up, rearing and bucking, and placed himself right in between the other fawn and myself. He lowered his antlers at the fawn, scratching the ground and rearing in anger. I watched in awe, slightly worried that he would harm the little fawn. At the same time, I couldn't help but wonder... why was he protecting me?



I found myself drowning in lots of different emotions. On one hand, I felt so safe and proud, hiding behind the stag's large body as he defended me. On the other hand, I felt bad for the little fawn. It probably hadn't meant any harm... Why did the stag feel that he was a threat? Had he seen the way I shrunk back, when I noticed the fawn there? I don't have very good eyesight, and it is really quite easy to startle me. Perhaps he took my little jump to mean that I was in trouble.

At first, the fawn tried to fight back. He lowered his nonexistent 'antlers' at the stag, and reared up. Eventually, though, he seemed to get the message. The stag wasn't messing around. The fawn ran off a small distance away, and laid down; the stag turned and galloped off, having secured my safety. I was torn between following the little fawn, to comfort him -- and following the strange stag, to thank him. Eventually, I decided to follow the stag. I found him laying beside a tree, and I laid down beside him.

"Thank you," I said quietly.



I don't know what happened next, but I do know that I must have fallen asleep somewhere along the way; because the next thing I remember is waking up, alone.

I waited there a minute; and sure enough, the stag came galloping back, full speed. He bumped into a little fawn, and backed away from it. The fawn attempted to introduce herself, and I found myself feeling a rather strange concoction of emotions. I love meeting new deer, making new friends. But for some reason, watching that fawn try to approach the stag made me angry. I put myself between the stag and the fawn, feeling an odd sense of deja-vu, and shook my head at the fawn. While I didn't want to hurt the fawn's feelings, I did want it to get the message.

I don't know why I did it; it's not like me. I mean, it's like me to be protective of the ones I love; but do I love this stag? I love my friends, Vala, Seed, Calanthe! But I don't even know this peculiar fellow. And why shoo a little fawn, who's just looking to make friends? This isn't like me, at all. What has gotten into me?

The fawn, luckily, got the idea. Or, so I assumed, as it cheerfully trotted off in another direction. Unfortunately, so did the stag -- and my little toothpick legs aren't exactly fit to match his gigantic strides. I watched him gallop off, feeling quite lonely, once again.

Oh, I nearly forgot. I saw Calanthe today, too! And Vala! Vala was playing on the bridge with some other mini-red deer. A gave her a hello-nuzzle and watched their antics for a while, but it wasn't long before I grew restless, again. When I saw Calanthe, I gave her a nuzzle, too -- quite a few, actually! She's such a nice doe; I bet if my mom was alive, she would be a lot like Calanthe. Unfortunately, Cal couldn't stick around long, and after we said our goodbyes, she went to sleep near the pond.



With so many kind and wonderful deer in my life, one of whom is constantly there to watch my back, why do I still feel so lonely?

Love,
Lemon

* By the way, I thought I'd add. This little snippet: "but do I love this stag? I love my friends, blah blah..." doesn't refer to romantic love. |D I just realized it could be taken that way. She's too young for that; she's talking about love among friends. <3