Died of a Broken Heart...

March 31, 2011 - 4:29am — quadraptor

Many may say how they've been broken hearted,
But how many can say they've died of a broken heart?
I can say I have, for today my heart decided to die
And yet, I still live and linger on the Earth

Many truths reside in the world, though none sadder than these:
Dreams do not come true.
Miracles never happen.
Some stories don't have happy endings.

How do I, with my dead heart, continue in this life?
How can I mend my own pain and sorrow?
How can I live to see a better tomorrow?
How shall I dream of miracles if they never happen?

Oh how I wish to just surrender to the dark.
It beckons me endlessly, wanting to free me of my misery.
And yet I know better than to give in...
As no matter what, I always have at least a glimmer of light within.

I have died of a broken heart this day,
Yet here I remain, picking the pieces up, reconnecting them.
My heart is shattered and revolting in my eyes alone,
But it is with the love that remains that I will carry on.

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Vent writing, after being driven to a dark and terrible place today. I nearly lost myself, and still feel very weak and weary from the damage that was done.

It had to be written, the truths I am feeling as of this moment. I apologize if I scare any of you, but this day has been among the worst I have had to live through.

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March 31, 2011 - 4:46am — ocean

"Dreams do not come

"Dreams do not come true.
Miracles never happen."

You might be surprised. ♥

We love you, Quad. Quad loves you. You'll be surprised how strong you are.

March 31, 2011 - 4:57am — Skitties

What Ocean said. We're here

What Ocean said. We're here for you, Quad. ♥ ♥

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March 31, 2011 - 5:00am — trigger_mortis

How can you say that miracles

How can you say that miracles never happen when you are an example of one? Imagine the impossible odds for, out of six billion people on the planet, your two parents to come together, and out of the myriad of combinations that could have been formed, only you is what resulted.

I'm sorry you are in such a dark and lonely place Quad, but if you raise your eyes a little higher, I hope you can see that the darkness is small compared with the brightness that the bulk of the world consists of.

<3

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March 31, 2011 - 5:14am — ickydog

Hugs to you Quad. I won't

Hugs to you Quad. I won't make a smart-ass comment (my usual M.O.), as I don't really know you. But I'll keep you in my thoughts.

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March 31, 2011 - 7:19am — Zyzzy

hugs I hope you find your

*hugs* I hope you find your way out of the dark. You're certainly surrounded by people who will help and support. I'll launch my email addy at you if you want someone to talk to.

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~ Ronan ~

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March 31, 2011 - 7:30am — Snowsauria

You are an amazing person,

You are an amazing person, Chris. You will find a way out of the darkness, and we will help you in any way possible. *hugs*

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March 31, 2011 - 8:39am — eyestrain

I and a good friend are also

I and a good friend are also walking that dark path. But when she told me she wanted to give up, I realized my experience with the darkness has lent me a kind of toughness to it, and that toughness is this:
I know tomorrow will come, and it may be the best day of my life. The best things that have ever happened to me would not have happened if I gave up when the darkness took me over.

I may not keep moving forward, but if I take the time to rest, I will move again.

Our pain changes. Our pain heals. We can take the pain and keep living.

Death is a one way ticket. A permanent reaction to a temporary situation.

I told her this.
"I will never, ever forgive you if you take away my friend."

I feel that way for you, too, Quad.

It's ok to rest. It's ok to stop a little while. But tomorrow will come, and you will move again.
I hope you are talking to someone who knows you well and being honest with your feelings. Sometimes it's too much to bear alone, and it takes a helping hand.

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-faunet

March 31, 2011 - 11:34am — Flyleaf

I feel with you !! Sometimes

I feel with you !! Sometimes i have those emotions and thoughts aswell !!!
But you are a wonderful person . Stay strong and give hope a chance ! At least this is what i keep telling to myself .

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March 31, 2011 - 12:30pm — Beaumont13

nuzzles I don't like seeing

*nuzzles*
I don't like seeing people I class as my friends and family sad.
As eyestrain said, there is always tomorrow and though you feel bad now, you'll never know what tomorrow brings unless you are there to meet it.
<3 <3

Expect something from me sometime soon. I have a list of things to do for people and you're on it. ^^

March 31, 2011 - 2:52pm — gurgelin

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March 31, 2011 - 4:38pm — quadraptor

Listening to my iPod this

Listening to my iPod this morning before school, I happened to hear this song and it felt like it was speaking directly to me.

Things are better today. I'm trying not to worry too much about the future. There's a chance that the problem will be fixed, and I'm glad I took it to someone who is an authority. I just wish I wasn't in this situation, because I feel like because of it I've let everyone down, despite it really not being my fault.

I just had too much to deal with these months. I took on too much responsibility and because of it I struggled with everything.

My grandmother yesterday spoke the same words over and over, "There is always hope." I denied her words yesterday because I had nearly given up on myself, but this morning the words are starting to make sense to me. I don't know how to accept myself as a strong, kind, successful person, but I think it's a demon I am facing that is convincing me that I am a failure and an abomination. It is yet another struggle that I need to face and overcome rather than run from like I have been.

The daybreak will come for me one day. A beautiful morning will free me from these demons that I struggle with. And on that day, I will be truly proud of myself.

I love you all, and because of you, I will not give up so easily as I did yesterday.

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March 31, 2011 - 6:44pm — quadraptor

Spoke with one of my

Spoke with one of my professors who is someone who knew the exact people to talk to. He gave me the information I need - the problem is solved.

I will get to walk at graduation in May, which was what this was about. I thought I might have screwed up so badly that they would not let me walk.

Hope, relief, and light today. Nothing more.

So dreams really do come true, miracles really do happen, and although not all stories have happy endings, mine will.

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March 31, 2011 - 6:48pm — Kaoori

I'm going through a really

I'm going through a really rough time too quad. Maybe not as rough as some others, like you, but I pull strength from ones like you who are strong, and try to carry on too.
I'm so sorry you're so low. I know it's horrible. I know it is.
Please hang in there. We here love to see you smile, to see you laugh.

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