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Physical: 80% Jumpy and tired. / Mental: 80% Feeling a bit weak. / Emotional: 70% Distraught.
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    6/22/13

    I do not want to fight. I do not want to be a bother. I just want to rest.
    ...
    I was in the human world for so long...


    (Derin is quiet and a little distressed at the moment, so please don't take offence if he doesn't respond to your deer's actions right away or seemingly ignores you. He's just feeling a little off mentally right now.)

    Last: Found his haunt. Comforted, he lay next to it for a time. Observed various deer and socialized a little. Feels a bit better. Wandered. Slept near Clarence, taking comfort in another's presence.




Biography
Name: ???
Given Alias: Deathmatch (never wants to be called this)
Preferred Alias: Derin (pronounced "DARE-in")
Gender:Male/stag
Age: Young adult
Species:TEF (human-faced) Deer
Status: Single; not really looking
Speech: #57667C; Isaac Slade (except higher and less coarse), singing
Size: Around #21
Diet: Herbivore
Scent: Ocean and acorns
Set: Magpie pelt with real deer mask and purple flowers.
Pictogram: The victor in the stadium.
Haunt: The crooked birch tree upon the hill.

Personality Cautious, nervous, slow to trust, pacifist, scarred, sweet, paranoid, prefers fleeing over fighting, stubborn, loyal, courageous, more self-confident than he once was, gets embarrassed easily, curious, polite

- Fond of and protective of fawns; is very kind and patient with them; will watch over them silently when fawn(s) are alone
- Can get self-conscious about his scars if they're mentioned, but will not take offense
- Not easily swayed from his opinions
- Deep thinker, thinks often; may stand still staring into the distance when thinking
- Dislikes making enemies, but hates those who are cruel to others even more
- Gets nervous around crowds and usually runs away (or pretends to sleep if he wakes up among a crowd)
- Uses more polite speech when talking with others except when around those he greatly trusts, who he will speak less formally to
- Would like to get used to physical contact but is still unfortunately uncertain about it; may step backwards or flinch away when surprisehugged and on edge
- Has trouble meeting others' gazes and tends to look away from their eyes when they meet his own
- Is capable of making noises louder than his regular speech but chooses not to (this includes yelling as well as 'mooing' in the forest)
- Adores the beautiful sounds of the forest around him


Appearance
Covered in scars; pelt is gray-blue with light speckles and underside; pure white mop of hair on head. Youthful but life-worn face, usually with a serious expression. Wears a mask in the likeness of a deer most of the time.



Relations
Niji: Curious of, feels sympathy for the canine's apparent loneliness.
Aiko: Fond of, considers her a friend, wants to get to know her better. Enjoys her company.
Lilianna: Curious of.
Clarence: Curious of, would like to get to know better.

Hated
No one yet.



Other Information
Coming from a place where you fight for your lives in a pit, Derin isn't the most trusting stag in the forest. He's been through a lot for one so young, and has the scars to prove it. Become friends with him and you'll never meet a more loyal, grateful deer out there. Break his trust and it will be near impossible to get it back.


Derin has since left the forest and come back a changed deer. He refuses to be referred to as his old fighting alias, "Deathmatch" now, having abandoned his scarred past completely. Derin has gained some confidence since he left to parts unknown, and is now able to stand up for himself and others more easily. He still prefers to avoid conflict, but he's no longer a coward. He'll defend himself and his friends with tenacity if the need arises. And be warned, he's not in any way an inexperienced fighter.


Ages after leaving the forest for a second time, Derin now completely refuses to fight. He will not hurt anyone unless he truly needs to for defense of himself or another. He's less calm than before and can be a little jumpy when tired or distraught.

Actions


INTERACTION:
Bow + head tilt: Curious hello

FIGHTING:
Derin doesn't fight anymore.

Derin will not fight unless he has to.

Strength: ||||||||||
Agility: ||||||||||
Intellect: ||||||||||
Speed: ||||||||||
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Lower antlers + rear: Raking with antlers
Paw ground + rear: Kicking
Rear: Powerful kicking
Lower antlers: I'm not backing down/I will fight you if I have to



Art


Fakeout
(All of Derin's actions are in-character and do not reflect my own. If you have any issues with him please let me know in the comments! Comment roleplay is welcomed as well. C:)
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Ooo, he seems like someone

Ooo, he seems like someone fun to meet. Tracking ♥
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Thank you! I'm personally

Thank you! I'm personally looking forward to playing him with his new character traits.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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oh so this is the stranger.

oh so this is the stranger. heh hello there.
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Yes. xD Hello! I hope Niji

Yes. xD Hello! I hope Niji doesn't mind Derin's presence. Derin thought he looked lonesome.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Ooo he sounds like a very

Ooo he sounds like a very nice stag Laughing out loud I can role play with him if you like Smiling


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Thank you! And I'd love to

Thank you! And I'd love to roleplay. Laughing out loud Do you want to start it off or shall I?
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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I can start Lilianna was

I can start Smiling

Lilianna was walking through the forest to her lily patch late in the after noon after eating some blueberries from the Blue Bowl. She walked up to the edge of the patch and stopped. She took in a deep breath and smelled the lilies fragrance around her nose. She loved the smell of them and of course the smell was all over her. She laid herself down in her regular resting spot and looked around for any other deer. She smiled, there were no deer around making noises and all she could hear was running water. 'Ah, this is what I like to hear. A nice quiet afternoon.' she thought to herself. She flicked her ears up to listen and noticed hoof beats that were close by.


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Derin inhaled slowly, feeling

Derin inhaled slowly, feeling the forest move around him. He felt the wind move through his fur as he closed his eyes in contentment. He heard the voices of the birds sing softly in the trees, cheerful and bright. Days like this were one of the many reasons he loved the forest.
The stag opened his eyes with a start as a strange fragrance drifted into his nose. He sniffed the air to identify the strange new scent. Lilies, he thought as he recognized the fragrance. How strange. I've never noticed any lilies in the forest before... Then again I am still learning my way around.
Derin decided to follow the fragrant scent. He hadn't seen any lilies in a long time and was also gripped with curiosity. After trotting along the trail of the lilies' smell, he stumbled upon where the scent had originated: a lovely patch of lilies. Derin then spotted a doe resting among the flowers. He immediately felt embarrassed and sputtered out, "I-I'm sorry, miss. I didn't mean to disturb you..."
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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After Lilanna put her head

After Lilanna put her head down to rest, she heard a voice, "I-I'm sorry, miss.i didn't mean to disturb you..." She quickly lifted up her head to a white stag with piercing blue eyes staring at her. "Oh-Oh no it's ok-k r-eally." She started to stutter as she looked at his eyes. She was getting lost in them because of how beautiful they were. "Are you new to the forest? I have never seen you around before." She gave him a smiled and watched a butterfly make its way towards her antlers which had lilies on them.


Awesome bio ~tracking C:

Awesome bio
~tracking C:
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Derin relaxed at the doe's

Derin relaxed at the doe's words. He hated it when he bothered others, even by accident. He then noticed that her eyes had locked onto his, and he met her gaze for a handful of seconds before quickly looking down at the ground. He hadn't entirely meant to look away, but he still wasn't used to the more social aspect of the forest and sometimes jumped back into his older, more shy habits. He shifted his view from the lilies beneath him to the doe's face after he heard her question. "Oh. Well, I am new to the forest, in a way." He struggled to find the right words to describe what had happened to him during the past year. "I... left the forest once long ago by accident and returned only recently."

(I want to warn you beforehand that my replies might not be at consistent times every day. D: Sorry!)

@caselab - Thank you!
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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(Don't worry it's ok!

(Don't worry it's ok! Smiling)

Lilianna slightly blushed when the stag looked down from her gaze at him. She giggled and smiled, "Well, welcome back to the forest, are you going to be staying here this time?" she got up and walked over to him. "I'm kind of new here also. Me, my mother, and my twin sister Dahlia came to this forest ever since the incident at our other forest that we were living in..." She looked down then looked over to the side with a frown on her face, thinking about her father and brother dying in the forest fire.



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Derin felt a light tinge of

Derin felt a light tinge of pink rise to his cheeks at the doe's giggle. How embarrassing. He almost looked away in shame before noticing the smile on her face. A small smile appeared on his lips as well. Derin felt almost foolish for thinking the doe was laughing at him maliciously. He nodded in reply to her question. "I plan to stay here as long as I possibly can, yes." He tilted his head in curiosity at her next statement before seeing her face fall. His curious expression shifted into one of sympathy. "I'm very sorry," he muttered, guessing from her expression that the incident was a terrible one. Derin then realized that he had missed something very crucial. "By the way, I never did catch your name, miss."
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Lilianna looked at him,

Lilianna looked at him, "Lilianna." She said, tiliting her head to the side with a bright smile across her lips. "What is yours?" She smiled even brighter.


*plops here and gazes in

*plops here and gazes in wonder*
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@jookie202: "Derin," the stag

@jookie202: "Derin," the stag replied, smiling once more. Her smiles seemed almost contagious to him, they were so cheery. "It's nice to meet you, Lilianna." He shuffled from one foot to the next, debating whether to mention that his feet were rather sore from walking about the forest or not. He gathered his courage and decided to pose his question: "Is it all right if I lay down?"

@FishBiscuit: :0 /stares back
...I'm actually quite flattered, haha. I didn't know this little bio could cause gazes of wonder. xD
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Lilianna looked at him with

Lilianna looked at him with another smile, "Pff of course! If you've been wandering around the forest all this time you need to rest." She tilted her head to a spot beside her's. She laid down and waited for him to join her.


ha ha ha well I totally

ha ha ha well I totally haven't been stalking your art or anything like that nope ha ha ha

I'm hoping that someday one of my deer gets to bother him >u>
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@jookie202: (Asdf I'm sorry

@jookie202: (Asdf I'm sorry this reply is so late! orz;;; )
"Thank you," the stag replied with a small smile, walking over to the doe and carefully laying down in the spot she had pointed out. He let out a sigh of relief. "I've been exploring the forest today and found out that it's a rather large place," he admitted, looking slightly embarrassed since he originally thought that the forest was small. "Bigger than I remember, at least."

@FishBiscuit: Fidsahfoihfdio I feel so flattered. I'm glad my art is stalk-worthy! Cx <3

I'll have to keep an eye out for your deer and steer Derin in their direction to be bothered. xD
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Lilianna smiled at him, "Yes

Lilianna smiled at him, "Yes it is big, but once you head out-ah let's for say- that direction towards the playground, you will come back in the Ruins direction. It's endless." She smiled. She looked over towards a group of fawns running out from where Dahlia's sleeping spot would be. "Demon!Demon!"They said as they ran across the bridge. "I think they might have seen Dahlia." she giggled.


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"Oh," Derin said with wonder.

"Oh," Derin said with wonder. "I honestly didn't know that. I thought I just got a bit turned around every once and a while." He was used to areas having a beginning and an end. He did vaguely remember the forest being endless the first time he entered it, but he hadn't deeply thought about it.
The stag whipped his head around and pricked his hears at the sound of the fawns' voices. He then calmed down as Lilianna mentioned her twin. He turned back to look at the doe next to him. "Is your sister nearby?"
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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She nodded. "Yes she must be,

She nodded. "Yes she must be, if you see an antlered doe with red and black markings, that's her." She looked over to where the fawns had run out from. There, she seen a black doe walking in the tree's shadows. "Ah there she is!" She said excited.


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The stag tilted his ears

The stag tilted his ears forwards, listening intently as he looked in the direction Lilianna was. "I think I see her," he muttered, spotting a moving black shadow within the trees. He noticed the black shape had antlers. "I do see her, yes." Derin decided not to pry about why the fawns who ran by had called Lilianna's twin "demon". He figured that would be rude to ask about, curiosity or not. He kept quiet, wondering what the distant doe was up to.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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"Wait here." Lilianna said

"Wait here." Lilianna said running over towards Dahlia. She nuzzled her sister and brought her over towards Derin. "Derin, this is my twin sister Dahlia. Dahlia, this is my friend Derin." Dahlia gave Derin a greeting bow. "Nice to meet you Derin." she said with a polite smile. "We are totally opposites but we get along so well. I'm like the light, she's like the dark." Lilianna giggled, same with Dahlia.


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(So sorry for the late reply

(So sorry for the late reply again! orz;;; )

Derin rose to his feet to bow back at the doe politely. "It's nice to meet you too, Dahlia." He gave a small smile back at the black and red deer. He noticed her unusual eyes and guessed that the fawns had been frightened by her appearance. The stag decided not to pry or judge, though. That would be wrong of him. "Really?" he asked in reply to Lilianna's statement. "You both seem to be perfectly nice deer to me."
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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(No its ok!) Dahlia looked

(No its ok!)

Dahlia looked over at Liliana then back to Derin, "Yes well, I don't know about me. Liliana is pretty and I'm just your regular deer that other deer run away from." she laughed out loud to show she was ok with it but deep inside she was hurting. "Dahlia I know you are hurting inside. Come on, you do have that friend you hang around with a lot though." Liliana winked at Dahlia and Dahlia's cheeks turned a pink color.


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Derin gave Dahlia a curious

Derin gave Dahlia a curious look as she talked. When she finished, his expression turned serious, a spark of suppressed anger moving in his eyes. "Well, they're just shallow if they run like that, then," he said, suppressing the urge to huff in disgust. Those that judged by mere appearances where the kind of deer he disliked the most. His gaze softened at Lilianna's statement, then turned into one of confusion before realizing what the doe meant by her wink. Derin's own cheeks reddened slightly and he shifted from foot to foot, suddenly feeling very out of place.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Liliana giggled and looked at

Liliana giggled and looked at Derin, "She likes this stag named-" "Shush shush shush!" said Dahlia interrupting what Liliana was about to say. "Can't I just say his name?" Liliana put puppy dog eyes on but Dahlia didn't fall for it. "Uh no way!" she looked to the ground in embarrassment as her cheeks turned red again.


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Derin gave a little chuckle

Derin gave a little chuckle despite himself. He then cleared his throat, looking embarrassed for his sudden laugh. "S-sorry..." he sputtered, his blush growing brighter. "I just thought that it's nice you two get along so well as sisters." He had always found family members interacting with each other like they were almost heart-warming, since he had never had any family of his own.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Dahlia smiled politely, "It's

Dahlia smiled politely, "It's ok Derin, it was nice meeting you. I best be off. Liliana, I'll tell mom that your alright." Dahlia said, as she started to walk towards the forest. "Alright." Liliana smiled as she did a little good bye bow towards Dahlia. Dahlia walked into the shadows of the forest, and was out of sight. "Well, it's nice you met my sister." Liliana chuckled.


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"It was nice meeting you,

"It was nice meeting you, too," Derin called as he watched Dahlia disappear into the forest. He then turned to Liliana. "Yes," he agreed, giving her a smile. "She seemed quite nice to me. I really don't know why the fawns were so scared of her. They get more skittish every season, it seems..." The stag glanced back at the spot where Dahlia had vanished from view, staring at the forest thoughtfully. Fawns often approached him either slowly or all at once, but Derin couldn't recall them ever running from him.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb
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Liliana looked at the ground

Liliana looked at the ground in front of her then back up to Derin. "Well the fawns are still young yet, and they do get scared easily. Dahlia says that adult deer say to their fawns to stay away from strange looking deer. Dahlia is not one of them but the fawn's parents think that she looks strange." Liliana put a sympathetic look on her face thinking about Dahlia and what she goes through everyday.


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Tracking dis boy~ My action

Tracking dis boy~
My action buttons are being wonky, sorry C was a little unresponsive.
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Woo track. : D That's fine.

Woo track. : D That's fine. Mine where a being little crazy too. xD I haven't played TEF in a while.
Treat the earth well,
It was not given to you by your parents,
It was loaned to you by your children.
- Indian Proverb