August 28, 2008 - 12:15am — Blackhoof
In my lack of concern for my trials
and errors it seems I've fallen more into that black hole?
I stare at the clouds and all I see are the tainted black skys...
that was how I saw them and how I see them now.
In a strange and unforgiving manor, the deeds I have done in harming others mistakenly
without a wiff of care has cost me a greater fault. The twin gods had saw
me as a strange and annoying creature that should be put back in his place.
So, if I did not care to sense there feelings, then I would not care to see them either.
Yes...my eyes have vanished. As temporary punishment. In any case, my hearing
and sensing has improved and provided me with great knowledge. But, there
is one I can still see clear as the moon.
It is a doe. And as ever her beauty has astonished me. But, as usual,
does are complex trinkets that the twin gods have made to teach us more
about our selves.
I know I love her, but in a way I feel as if I can not be with her. I am a deer who desrves
what he has, and that is nothing. Being with her will only cause more pain to her.
I still can feel that sudden spark that I felt some time ago...
and still it beckons me and I do my best to fallow it with no eyes and
sense all around.