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Please...just one?

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May 12, 2010 - 3:43am — Baal
Cold.
Dark.
Empty...

For a moment...no..It is not to be. Never to be. But...

Almost.

Almost did I feel the call, so long has it left me, alone. Without purpose. But I think...

Maybe...maybe something? Just there, tantalizingly close I can feel it. Almost can I hear it...But doubt is filling me now, a cold knot of despair deep within, coiling tighter and tighter... I cannot BREATHE!

THERE! I hear it! So close!

That melody, so precious, so dear. Calling me....calling...

Oh I want to come back. I want to feel the cool wind through my fur, the crisp crunch of leaves beneath my hooves, breathe deep the sweet air. Air laden with the scents of friend and foe alike. I would treasure them all just to return. Even for a moment.

Just a moment. Won't you allow me a single moment of reprieve? A single step upon emerald grass? To see the jewel of my dreams in her most pristine brilliance of color? Just once?

Just once...

I want to see. I want to know what beauties I have missed walking in this land of bitter grey. I won't stay long. I can't. They won't have me. But just this once, please, just let me have one precious moment. One small gift.

Allow me one single wish before you take it all away. I don't want to lose it...them. If they all must go, please, just one small memory to hold close, to guard and cherish. This is all I ask. Just one?

Please?

Just one...?
May 12, 2010 - 3:56am — Kaoori
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It'll have been a year soon..

It'll have been a year soon.. won't it?
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May 12, 2010 - 4:15am — Baal
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June 4th. Seems only weeks

June 4th. Seems only weeks ago doesn't it?
May 12, 2010 - 4:17am — Kaoori
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the summer of epicness. At

the summer of epicness. At least.. to me.
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May 12, 2010 - 4:18am — Terabetha

Still some of my favorite

Still some of my favorite times in TEF memory, it was fun while it lasted C:
May 12, 2010 - 4:20am — Baal
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Me to Kaoori. :3 lol, true

Me to Kaoori. :3

lol, true that Tera. :3 Glad you look back on those crazy days and think good thoughts. XD I do sometimes myself.
May 12, 2010 - 4:28am — Terabetha

How could I not look back and

How could I not look back and smile, that plot cemented almost all of Queze's long-time friendships! Besides, meeting people is the best possible thing that can come from TEF (at least that I've found ;D).
May 12, 2010 - 4:41am — Baal
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lol! You know, I never really

lol! You know, I never really thought of that, but Queze certainly did have a lot of friends involved didn't he? I fail at being observant. XD And yes, that is one of the true great things about TEF, getting to meet all of the most amazing folks. :3
May 12, 2010 - 8:27am — Verycrazygirl
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<3

I love your writing style...
It's great to be able to read it again. Smiling
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May 12, 2010 - 8:34am — Siellby

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<3333
May 12, 2010 - 3:24pm — Apparanza
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Kkslhdflksfhlslf Baal I've

Kkslhdflksfhlslf Baal I've been wondering where you'd gone ;A;<333
This is just epic. Win. Love. Amazingfulltatedness...
I came to TEF a day or two after the fawn's death, so the plot was still fairly new..?
It was my first TEF memory, and I'm still so glad it was.
I miss those days /shot
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May 12, 2010 - 8:10pm — Baal
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Thanks VCG. Paz,

Thanks VCG.

Paz, <3 :3

Apparanza, I left for a while there. Completely lost all interest in TEF. Felt kind of disliked for the most part really. XD Coming here had started to make me feel depressed. But yanno, I've decided I don't care about opinions, known or imagined anymore. XD I miss my friends and my characters. :3 And thank you! I'm glad I made TEF a fun beginning for you. XD I know I enjoyed the story and do dearly miss it. Smiling
May 12, 2010 - 8:25pm — Seed
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I think it was pretty cool.

I think it was pretty cool. Plotted action for the win...it's when things get massively out of hand and we forget that characters are characters and people are people that drives me nuts. I respect some attempts at bold things like that.
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May 12, 2010 - 8:31pm — Baal
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Thank you Seed. And the mass

Thank you Seed. And the mass mobbing on people that happens when one fault or insult, imagined or otherwise, occurs. I've had more than enough of all of that. Sometimes I just think we need an e-chill pill to hand out. XD
May 12, 2010 - 8:41pm — Seed
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Indeed. I think Tera and I

Indeed. I think Tera and I have tried coming up with some preventive tips/chill-pills, but they're not very useful. But the effort counts, yes.
Maybe if we find a suitably adorable picture of a puppy or something and start posting it on fight threads...*mumbles* I dunno. As someone who only on rare occaison takes things personally, and then primarily tends to blame one's self before other people...I just don't get the whole thing. I only get worked up when the in-community fighting and ranting makes me want to pull out my hair.
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May 12, 2010 - 8:54pm — Kaoori
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Baal and Seed: agreed.

Baal and Seed: agreed.
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May 12, 2010 - 9:01pm — Baal
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Sadly, as much effort as the

Sadly, as much effort as the two of you put into it, and I know the both of you do, it's always up to others to try and actually apply those tips. >.< Which generally fails, especially in such a heavily female filled community. XD It may be my gender, but I know how crazy we can be in groups with no rules or guidelines to control us. XD

heh, maybe post some soothing Youtube vids or something? I wish I could help you come up with the perfect fight stopper, but people will be people and if they feel they have something that should be heard, they'll say it, even when it would be best unsaid. -sigh-

And yanno, I'm with you there. I don't get most of the things taken so personally here. I really don't. Even if I know characters and RP were not the ideal of M n A, it's what has happened and it amazes me how quite a few just cannot separate character and creator. I just do not know Seed. Guess we'll both be bald by the end of it all. XD

Edit: Kaoori, :3 <3

And dear lord did I just post a page there. XD
May 12, 2010 - 9:10pm — Seed
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Are you saying this is a job

Are you saying this is a job for calming, safe, kid-friendly relax-o-vision?
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May 12, 2010 - 9:12pm — Baal
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I do believe I am! You are a

I do believe I am! Shocked You are a talented summarizer! XD