Terminal Apotheosis - this bio has moved!

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06/03/2016 - BAM

Like the title says, this bio is now on my new account ;v; Crucio insists on me playing him again, so it's that time. It can be found here for those wishing to retrack. If not, that's okay too!

This node won't be used again in the future, but I might keep it for old time's sake. There's a lot of history here - good and bad, and I think it's worth holding onto.
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I'm stealing my next page to

I'm stealing my next page to make me feel better.. ;;
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Hah, good job. But yeah,

Hah, good job.

But yeah, Forsake would make it really nice and peaceful..
And I'm sorry for all the drama today, I know Tan being killed is being seen as a big deal, but I didn't expect so much to happen because of it. /:
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

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Xemi's picture

One way or another, it won't

One way or another, it won't last forever.
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What I would say has been

What I would say has been said already, so there's no need to repeat it, but I just want to clarify that Honey had no knowledge of Cru's intentions of goodwill last night..she just woke up at the wrong time, and assumed the worst out of it, not thinking it through. I just..kinda wish I didn't have to go afk when I did, so she would've been awake the whole time...but if it was something you both planned, then there was no way she could've stopped it/I wouldn't have wanted to interfere with a planned event.
I also want to point out, that I still love Cru-butt ;3; He's been a big part of my time here; he's basically been a close friend of HF's ever since I joined the community, and a favorite character of mine. To see him go, would be...heartwrenching. But, again, it's your character, your decision. I hope everything works out for you in the end <33

Edit: Have a good break; you'll be welcomed back with open arms <3
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I refreshed to get it so I



I refreshed to get it so I kind of cheated, but I couldn't resist when I saw how close it was. ._.

Heh. I remember that picture.

Heh. I remember that picture. :')
I wish you and your boy the best...

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Have a good break =) Also

Have a good break =)
Also I'll miss Cru I hope you sort things out and everything

Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
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Honey: I'm glad, HF's been

Honey: I'm glad, HF's been very important to him too. So losing her also was a big contributing factor as to why his quality of life is just.. ruined. /:

Ocean: LOL. Goodjob. 8D <3

Rozzy: <3 Yeessss yourdoodles~ theysopretty <3 It made me happy so I put it up. ;u;

BD: Yeah, thanks. ;u; He's gonna miss everyone too..


All: After thinking about it today and last night, I think I've decided what I wanna do. No, I'm not going to kill him off; I love him too much to do that. But, at the same time, he's got a lot of horrible memories and broken ties that I don't think, being how he is, that he'll ever be able to forget or work past. So I think he desperately needs a clean slate to work with.

I want him to voluntarily be reborn into the forest and go from there. I want the forest, and his interactions, to shape him as he grows up into an adult again. He'll be keeping some of his old personality traits, but he'll be losing all of his bonds, all his memories, everything. He may retain slight "flickers" of significant memories when he's reborn, however.

I'm almost certain this is the path I want him to take.

I'm sure that if I were to even change his personality, he's just.. "lost" at this point. I really want to give him another chance. I'm about 80% sure that, if I changed him, he'd end up in the same scenario all over again in a matter of weeks or months and I'd have wished I just started over with him. Before this happens, He might try to talk to his closest relatives, if they'll allow me/him to because he still wants them in his life, even if he won't remember them.

It's gonna be a bumpy road but I think it'll be worth it.


^

^ <33

Don't let nothin' break your stride, Han. B)
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^ LOL. Slight change; over

^ LOL.
Slight change; over the course of his second month of life (I'm going to age him at a heightened rate, and condense it into two irl months for him to fully, physically mature and cap off his aging and development) he'll be gradually regaining his memory.

I'm hoping that this time, he'll have grown in a way that will be more beneficial to him, and will allow him to handle - and face - his problems better.

Anyone who currently has a relationship with him of any sort is welcome to strike it up again with him when he's reborn, which is either gonna be later today, or tomorrow.. depends on how much my boss pisses me off tonight. -slapped-
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/dieslaughing

/dieslaughing
[right]

Breaks are good~ Can't wait

Breaks are good~ Smiling
Can't wait to see the new Cru >w<
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He won't be SUPER different..

He won't be SUPER different.. xD
black ball of fuzz with legs.. /slapped
thelittleraven's picture

I'm glad to hear this. Good

I'm glad to hear this. Good luck. <3
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<3

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Only exploding gifs can truly express for how I feel.
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OH SWEET JESUS CAN I CUDDLE

OH SWEET JESUS CAN I CUDDLE IT?


and does this mean his children are older than him? 8'D
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Bambi: LMFAO Ooky: .. YEP 8]

Bambi: LMFAO

Ooky: .. YEP 8] -shot-
Physically older anyway.. LOL.
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He makes a freaking adorable

He makes a freaking adorable fawn. 8|

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Ourania's picture

*CUDDLES x infinity*

*CUDDLES x infinity* ;_______;
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..afjghdhjk LOL you guys ;;

..afjghdhjk LOL you guys ;; I'm so flattered. <333 thankyou~
BouncyDeer1's picture

He looks so cute as a

He looks so cute as a fawn!
Dat floof
Dem eyes
Shocked
*dies from too much adorableness*

Thank you Kaoori for this drawing!Natali looks beautiful =D
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LOL ^^ No dyiiing D:

LOL ^^ No dyiiing D: <3
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Why. Why am I not tracking

Why.
Why am I not tracking this?
I shall remedy this.
*trackstamp*
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-love-

-love- <3

FUCK /MELTS

FUCK
/MELTS
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As promised~ I hope you like

As promised~ I hope you like it. <3

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LOL OMG IT LOOKS SO SOFT

LOL OMG IT LOOKS SO SOFT <3
Ohjeez I wanna stroke it~ that's not me being creepy at all ;;
Tyty Six :'D <33
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You're welcome~ 8D I'm glad I

You're welcome~ 8D I'm glad I succeeded. ^_^

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*waves*

*waves*

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Hi. 8D

Hi. 8D

Well helloooo~

Well helloooo~

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Tracking. (:

Tracking. (:
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Ty

Ty <3
Sorry for his behaviour ;___; he's been sleeping all day so he's pretty hyper now, rofl. ~
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LOL. Tuelle's like, MYJORO.

LOL. Tuelle's like, MYJORO. >8C
He's cute, ah. ♥
Xemi's picture

LOL.

LOL. <3
Cru's like nope oAo -chew-

<3

"Try not to bite too hard,

"Try not to bite too hard, darlin..Your mouth may end up being dyed blue."


(Oh, the joy of having blue blood. B|...)
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LOL. ohjoy.

LOL. ohjoy. <3
And of course he'll just say nothing and keep chewing. :')
His teeth aren't sharp enough to draw blood yet, thank goodness. xD

Trololol.~ I can really see

Trololol.~ I can really see him just gumming at her leg like it's a yummy bone, and her being like |:
Xemi's picture

-ded- Someone's gonna need to

-ded-
Someone's gonna need to teach him to hunt, and fast.
Or they're all going to become overgrown chew toys. xD
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Nat-Nat looked at the stag.

Nat-Nat looked at the stag. She saw him many times, but didn't speak with him yet. She politely bowed, as much as her wounds let her. Then, she said : • S-Sir Crucio... Thank you... For have pro-protecting Greitai... I... I wanted to, but... • She didn't add anything, because she was sure he understood what she meant. Her body was saying all the rest. By trying to protect Greitai, Nat-Nat received some more hits, added to her last ones. Of course, it was nothing, if you looked her first wounds. But if she hadn't stopped the fight - with the help of Djinn - during some moment, so her physical condition would be worst than now. Nat-Nat was tortured mentally to see Greitai alone, trying to fight around ten deer. So, when Crucio joined the fight, followed by many other deer, she felt better, and decided to fight again too. The fighting wasn't, at least, as unfair as before.

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The fawn gazed up curiously

The fawn gazed up curiously at the larger doe. She was so badly hurt.. that thick smell was around her too, like it was around Greitai now, and even himself. His head pounding; he looked tired, dizzy, and swayed slightly from where he sat on the ground. Crucio perked his ears up - large and wide like dishes - and listened to Nat-Nat. 'Sir'? Wasn't that what adults called each other? Did that make him like an adult? A small swell of confidence made him smile up at the doe.

"You.. y-you h..hurt," he struggled, having not learned well to pronounce things. But it came out okay this time. Nat-Nat was badly injured, and even more so after today. So he understood. He was learning how pain slowed someone down - how it slowed him down - and made everything more difficult to do. Pain was distracting, hindering, a fierce obstacle in one's path.

"All of the deers.. why were so mean to Greitai!?" He hadn't seen Greitai do anything wrong. So why had they all suddenly ganged up on her? It wasn't fair. Tears stung at the young reaper's eyes with a newfound emotion; frustration. He was upset, very upset, to see other deer harming each other so shamelessly.


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/ Sorry if she's acting with

/ Sorry if she's acting with him like she would do with an adult. She just only saw him as an adult, everytime, that's why. ♥ She's a bit confused. And I am too. May I ask you why is Crucio a fawn... ? /

Nat-Nat nodded slowly to the little, with a forced smile. Then, she answered : • I don't know... Really not... I just know that they came. Then, as Greitai is protective about me, she tried to chase them off. And the fight began... Time to time, when I was running away, they tried to hurt me too, but Greitai was always between me and them. • She looked back at Crucio. Didn't she see him as an adult, before... ? She didn't say anything about it. The forest was so strange... After all, wasn't she almost dead, there's a week ago ? Wasn't her soul out of her body, trying to communicate with her brother, Tandem and Greitai ? She nodded for herself. Yes, the forest was totally crazy. As these deer.

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[ Oh, yes. ^^ He went through

[ Oh, yes. ^^ He went through a rebirth recently.. a sort of reincarnation. His memory was lost, it will come back but it will take some time. So right now he's just like any other fawn. xD ]

The fawn lowered himself to the ground in exhaustion; his eyes slid half-shut as he gazed up at Nat-Nat sympathetically. What all these deer had done was exceptionally cruel and unusual. There was no reason for it. What had Greitai and Nat-Nat done to them? Nothing!
"Sorry for them.. for what hurt you." Those deer probably wouldn't say sorry to Nat-Nat, so Crucio would say it for them. He snuggled a little closer to the doe. Maybe it would help her feel like someone still cared for her, and for her friend. But they had many friends here to protect her and Greitai now.
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[Oh, okay !

[Oh, okay ! <3 And his physic is affected too, so ?]

The doe smiled, softly, feeling a bit better by the fawn's presence. • Thank you, Sir. • she said.

- I don't have inspiration, I'm sorry ;__; -

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[ Yes ^^ So his body is very

[ Yes ^^ So his body is very young now. It will grow up to look almost exactly the same as he used to look though, since his DNA is still the same.. his markings may be a little different though. That depends on how he develops. And that's okay, sometimes inspiration just leaves suddenly. xD It was very nice to rp with you though! ^^ Thank you very much. <3 Hehe, he's tired.. he would probably just fall asleep now. ]


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The other deer was Haru's

The other deer was Haru's Kusa. xD

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Kusa.. -derp- I should know

Kusa.. -derp- I should know that. ;;
Thank you Six <3
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You're welcome. |D Everyone

You're welcome. |D Everyone has those moments.

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o3o

o3o
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

Art by Anjali. ♥