These Strange Feelings (Amary) | The Endless Forest

I haven't seen Bastilion in a while. I really wish he was around more often.
My feelings still confuse me. I have friends I've known longer, and some that I haven't seen in an even longer length of time... But I think about him the most.

When I woke up today, Steele was beside me. I greeted him. I haven't seen him in a while, either. But when I sensed Bastilion, I nearly forgot about Steele. I ran to greet Bastilion. He was by the ruins, with Darkweaver. Seeing Bastilion, I felt really happy. I wanted jump, to leap. But why? Why do I feel differently around him than I do with my other friends?

I was shocked when Darkweaver suddenly turned into a fawn. He seemed frightened. So I stood by him. But, Rev was there, too, and I still felt like I wanted to watch over him. I did, a little bit, but I was glad when Saosin arrived to be with him, allowing me to go back to Bast and Darkweaver without feeling guilty.

The crowd near the ruins got to be a bit too much. It seemed to bother Dark, even myself a little bit. I guess I'm still not quite over the melancholy I had been feeling before, as normally I enjoy being with large groups. So, I asked the others to follow me, deciding to go somewhere less crowded. I headed to the birch forest, as there usually aren't a lot of deer there.

We sat for a while. I felt compelled to move closer to Bastilion. I leaned against him. He felt so soft, and warm, and there was something...almost soothing...about the feeling of his side rising and falling with his breath.

Then, Darkweaver returned to his usual size and left. I was confused, but soon Bast lay down again and I went back to laying against him. I...I felt like I could stay there forever... There is just something...reassuring...about his presence. And...safe. And more than that... I just feel...happier. It was if everything that had happened recently simply dissolved away.

I'm not sure when I fell asleep. But I was woken by the bellow of a nameless...Bast was asleep, but he woke soon after I did. The nameless ran off. How odd...

Then I was left alone with Bastilion, trying to figure out what to do. I just started trotting circles around him, unable to think of anything else. He watched me, seeming confused. I giggled. There's something amusing about the way he seems confused sometimes when I try to get him to play a little, and the way he just seems so serious a lot of the time. But it's endearing, too. "Come on!" I said to him, giggling some more. "You need to loosen up more!"

That was when I sensed it...him...Wesker. I didn't know him, really, but I've seen him. I may have even actually met him once, though briefly if I did. He wasn't supposed to be alive... After all the grief everyone gave Darkweaver... I went to investigate, to see if it was, indeed, really him. When I saw him, there was no doubt. I felt frightened... He can't be alive...So it must be a ghost!

Bastilion noticed him, too, and we went closer. We found Virgil, and the three of us stood together, watching. I stayed close to Bastilion, behind him, not wanting to get any closer to the ghost, even as curious as I was. I was relieved when the ghost was out of sight.

I remained with Virgil and Bastilion for a while, until Bast had to leave. As we said our goodbyes, I nuzzled him twice. And that didn't feel like enough. He began to trot off, heading, I presumed, to a preferred sleeping spot. After some hesitation, I followed him, wanting to stay with him as long as possible. He laid down in a patch of purple flowers near the ruins, and I nuzzled him continuously until he disappeared. I hope this time it won't be as long until I see him again.

I still don't know why I felt that way around him, or why I acted the way I did. I'm not sure why I felt the need to be so close to him. Or why he makes me feel differently than I do with my other friends, even those that I have known longer and see more often. I don't know...maybe if I could talk to someone...but who would be the best to talk to?

~Amary~

September 13, 2009 - 8:42am — Pegasicorn

I think maybe I really

I think maybe I really should create that other deer now. He'd be good to talk to. 8] (And technically all I have to do is grab another pelt, so it's simple. Then write the blog for him..)

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September 13, 2009 - 9:19am — Siellby

I think she'd rather talk to

I think she'd rather talk to someone she knows, though. ^^;

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera, Andras

September 14, 2009 - 2:23am — Zergarikiaka

X'D odd as it sounds you can

X'D odd as it sounds you can talk to Darkweaver. He does know about love/romance and that stuff. (and it helps that he's an OLD GEISER. XD Old men have plenty of wisdom to share when someone wants to listen. XD)

edit: Or Laghodessa. |'D If Amary can catch her.

September 14, 2009 - 4:36am — Siellby

He was actually one of the

He was actually one of the ones she/I was thinking of. It also helps that he's a friend of Bastilion. I know Amary and Bast have a few other friends in common, but Darkweaver is the only one she's actually seen with him. (that I can remember)

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera, Andras