April 1st, 2020
Has spent the last few months trying his hardest to make a change, in himself, for the better. Solely motivated by the birth of his daughter. Finds this to be incredibly difficult and has not entirely given up his old ways, merely taken it back a notch. Even those few activities he engages in are being hidden away, not something he cares to gloat about. Enduring a lot of internal struggle, as usual.
In a way to ease 'the itch' as it were, he sought out the forest and began to lurk near Umay. Not close enough that he felt it a 'real intrustion', but close enough to have her and her acquaintances within his sights. This, alone, seemed to ease the bubbling chaos he felt in his gut. Found himself able to rest entirely when approached and for what followed; felt he could prove his worth as a changed man through the actions of others.
Even when things don't quite go as he planned lately, seems uncharacteristically unfazed by the outcomes - as long as he can spin it in a way that shines light on his improvements in the face of his daughter and Na'el.
September 10th, 2019
Witnessed the birth of his child by means he considers to be wildly unconventional and 'totally inappropriate'. Nevertheless, wasn't about to go back on what he'd told Na'el and knew, deep down.. somewhere, that it'd be better he didn't show his face in the forest during such a tender time. Could do little to convey his annoyance when his half-brother showed up, unable to do as longed to do 'less he risk a scene.
Something about him seems to be changing, though he can't pinpoint what it is. Agonizing over everything and unable to grasp his emotions enough to.. sort.. whatever it is going on inside of his head. Drawn toward the idea of being an asshole, it being the one thing he knows he excels at; something feels different this time. Can't get himself to completely dedicate - yet - to the idea of destruction uninhibited.
With his body physically well once more, has returned to purging his mind of the purgatory beasts that plague him; still certain this is his only solution.
September 1st, 2019
where are you, na'el.
but also- spent most of his day regretting his night-long rampage which led to the destruction of every purgatory-pulled monstrosity he'd locked away in his castle; worked away at recreating them in fear that he would, at any moment, be sucked into an episode - and although he doubted na'el would be coming back, didn't want to give him (na'el) anymore reason to want to leave.
And on that, trying to do some.. introspective retrospect? Retrospective introspection? he's thinking critically - or trying to - of the last days events.
All of this.. largely through Aztorath. and for explanation as best I can,
Aztorath =/= Haakon
Haakon COULD = Aztorath
Purgatory itself =/= Aztorath
but Haakon & Aztorath = Purgatory
Haakon alone =/= Purgatory
Aztorath alone COULD = Purgatory
now that we've cleared that up hahaha. so haakon was as aztorath in what was/is currently a purely dark magic form that distorts and pulsates, as haakon's actual body is currently in the process of rebuilding... again, and slower this time. so lacking any ability to do necromancy or sanguimancy (blood magic) at this time. not that it matters much - was solely using the dark arts (heh.....) to pull from purgatory and create the start of the purg!monsters and to clean up around the castle (thank you again umay xoxo)
waiting to see if na'el will actually show up like na'el said but again fully expecting to be let down and proven an Absolute Fool.
- jk as I finished this na'el arrives. but i like this content it is staying for now. later.. updates. maybe. who knows. :/
August 31st, 2019
Upon realizing that Solas could not get Na'el back 'home' as intended, felt he had no choice but to enter the forest himself. Wanted only to talk it out at first, intending to manipulate through words, with Na'el. This did not work and it quickly turned into a brawl in which Haakon would zap away Na'el to their 'home' and Haakon would die, again. Upon death a sort of 'soft sonic boom' coming from his body, one which does no harm but could be felt by those nearby.
Immediately began to reconstruct as he does. A series of events within the home, however, led Haakon to letting Na'el go on the promise that Na'el would, willingly, return the next night. Haakon has no hope of this coming to fruition and upon Na'el's leave, left by himself in what is mostly a state of magic and being Aztorath (it's... complicated! I'll explain someday ok), promptly began destroying every monster he had created from purgatory as a means of venting.
August 30th, 2019
Only hours after his death, while deep in the reassembly of his body, found a stranger in his presence - one that squeezed past Aztorath's magic barrier in order to talk to him (Haakon). Not sure what to make of the conversation that followed. It didn't end in any way he'd perceive as negative, though neither did he find himself particularly happy to know someone - anyone - could break through the barrier he had in place. Decided, to himself, to call this stranger 'Lethe'. She left him with the chip he had put in Na'el, leading to the realization that Na'el.. likely wasn't where he was meant to be. Waited until his visitor was gone before sending Solas off to find Na'el.
Now, six days on from his death, adequately constructed - lively enough to move around, albeit with caution. Has made note of the mess left behind by Umay and of a particular book's notes that are missing. Exhausted that he now must go through the process of recreating his notes; glad that he has the book to do so. All in all impressed by the chaos his sister left behind in his home - again, too tired to be angry over all of it; would also likely be more leaning mad if the interaction with 'Lethe' had gone poorly?
Noted the time it's taken Solas to get Na'el back to him; and again, too exhausted to be angry yet about that. Uncertain if he'll put the chip back in Na'el or if he'll find a new means of calling his 'lover' home on demand.
August 24th, 2019
Felt up to a forest visit for no particular reason and without prompt, took Na'el along. Intended only to mind his business (for.. once) and chill near the pond. Nothing is ever chill with Haakon around though; brief encounter with Umay that turned into a fight which turned into Haakon teleporting them both to his castle's basement, where he felt he'd have the upper-hand; he did not. The fight ended in his death; a new body now materializing and strength will begin to slowly return to him over the next week.
August 17th, 2019
If the events of August 8th - with Umay - still cling to him, it is being well disguised as either indifference or an ability to have moved past it; a more troubling and pressing concern seemingly have taken its place: the deep and unnatural humming from his chest. It started two months back and until now has been of no concern. A ringing in Haakon's head, reminiscent of his time physically locked in purgatory, has begun; the hurricane now actively seeks a remedy for this, no matter the cost.
August 9th, 2019
Happy birthday, you unfiltered dumpster fire.
The events of yesterday still seem to haunt him, though not enough - by either his own apathy or Na'el's acts of placating the beast - to harm his companion, as he would normally for a means of venting whatever emotion he struggles with. Umay's words seem to have dug deep into Haakon and refuse to let go.
December 16th, 2018
He's been a busy boy outside the forest... MOSTLY UPDATIN' TO SHOW OFF BEAUTIFUL ARTS BY A FRIEND KAW... sob. ALSO LIL NOTICE I'll be away from my computer entirely from December 27th to Jan 2nd then Jan 14th to Feb 2nd, but I'll have my phone for any rpinteracts!
October 29th, 2018
Weak, still recovering and regenerating from his death the other night. Would usually stay clear of the forest so soon after, but anxious and impatient to see Na'el. Sent Solas with a letter to him, an explanation for his absence the other day when he'd promised to take Na'el back to the forest, then rested for most of the day 'till the itch to see his 'new friend' was overbearing.
Decided to risk a visit to the forest despite his considerably weaker state.
October 28th, 2018
Kept Na'el at his home forrrr a few days IthinkitwastwoIcan'tcount! getting clingy and having some thoughts about that. Perceives a deep emotional bond that's not.. really there. Created Na'el a familiar which, unbeknownst to Na'el, will allow Haakon to summon Na'el to him at any point ha ha ha!
The morning he promised to take Na'el back to the forest he vanished without telling Na'el where to, unsurprisingly breaking his promise ha ha ha! Went off to work on something relating to recent studies involving dark magic+biogenetics+forced ... 'mutations' we'll say.... much later in the evening, upon realizing Na'el had left, went to the forest. Didn't really get to finding Na'el there, enjoyed standing quiet in the fog of Velocity before wandering toward the pond.. a mindless zombie u might say.
Then approached and engaged in bATTLE with Roanen! Nice to see u my fine opponent. Tried to jab a few times in a.. half-heart way, little care for what damage he might inflict; Chitz's words from before ringing in the back of his head and his original purpose for coming to the forest even louder. Tried several times to run off and show disinterest in the fight; almost.. submissive. Almost. Then full submissive when, upon realizing this would end in exhaustion eitherrrr... way and didn't really want to FIGHT..., promptly dropped onto his side and allowed Roanen to kill him. 'Spirit' or equivalent of whatever Haakon has ha ha.. ha, released from the body.
Remains taken by several individuals in pieces, later the rest of him hauled off by Neath.
+ KISSARE INVOLVED SORRY i am in 5 places today...
Body immediately began to regenerate in his home, awake within hours.
October 22nd, 2018
p.s. sorry for all the bumps editing this dumb sluts relations ):
THIS GETS SUPER LAZY LIKE HALFWAY THRU my tooth pains decided to say hello. Pls read others updates I'm sure someone did it better... also if I forgot anything pls just tell me I didn't mean to do a bad. tysm.
Woke up in the forest unable to recall how he'd managed to slip into the world. Sat up and idled a bit before noting Chitz nearby with Roanen. Circled to be closer and make a point that he was keeping his word to her. Wandered from a distance when she left, trying to be as subtle as possible to anyone looking on. This went on foooooor.. a while 'till a fight between Roanen and a stranger (Ingólfr) grabbed his attention. Stood near to watch and 'lowkey' lol keep an eye on Chitz still; at one point approaching someone he'd seen her interact with before, Ashe, to silently investigate.
Continued to watch the fight from afar while Sebastian joined Chitz. DiD nOt LiKe ThAt. Also did nothing to stop it besides blatantly looking at them every few moments. EVENTUALLY the fight had moved on .. to elsewhere. And tried to close the gap between he and Chitz. Met with resistance from her friends?! And was very.. ;/ whatever and moved on. Did contemplate briefly attacking Ashe but reconsidered quickly, reasoning Roanen had already been fighting for some time and would be a much easier target.
Went to watch Roanen fight and itched to join. Interrupted by Elliot! Interrupted... not actually attacking but his thoughts were interrupted- his gazin.. small exchange of words between the elf elk and he. Disinterested in conversing any matter with Elliot, especially one he felt was unnecessary. During which however, Chitz had seemingly stopped the fight. Frustrated by this and it showed. ALL THE WHILE ALSO... keeping an eye on Roanen, Chitz, Damien, and Sebastian. Less annoyed with the situation when he realized Elliot's interruption could be of benefit to him. Quickly concluded their talk without giving him much of a chance to say otherwise, once he'd seen Chitz and her friends had gone and so had Roanen- in different directions. Though one small last jab toward Haakon paused him, confused with what it meant.
Found Roanen and circled him before going in for an attack, intending to cause as much harm as possible for no reason other than association to Chitz in a positive light, or so Haakon had perceived that much. Dragged this out even as Chitz returned with Damien and Sebastian to try and stop Haakon; relentless against Roanen, persistent with Damien and Seb, avoided Chitz entirely.
Ultimately landed a fatal blow to Roanen. Went wide, small scuffle with Seb, then dove in to land another hit before taking off. Pursued multiple times and made a point to mostly avoid hits.
LOT OF.. BACK AND FORTH. Haakon mostly running off and being a lil bitch. Sry.
At one point did actually exchange words with Chitz. Pumped up and gleeful, did a lil dance. Lil taptap of his paws. Fine with all 'till she said somETHING MEAN!! Not really mean but justified anyway, which got Haakon thinking and he doesn't like to do that. Realized his 'plans' may be for nothing and angered by this, at himself and at Chitz. Briefly felt the reveal of additional eyes on his face and the cold of something familiar falling from nose and mouth. Moved into the pond to calm down and reconsider his..... plans. And things.
ANDLATERFOUNDAFRIEND. +1 for haakon.
October 21st, 2018
Found himself longing for a bit of sunshine when he meandered into the forest and found it raining still. Or if not sunshine, the roll of a quiet fog overcoming everything and everyone. Rested near the top of the pond for a while, keeping all senses alert for Chitz to keep his.. 'promise' lmao.... 'till drawn in the direction of Ross, though not sure why for when he idled a few feet away found he had nothing to say. Found a place still near the pond to relax as best he could under the constant drizzle of the sky. Contemplated several things that had been going on in his 'home' life while 'pridefully'?? eyeing Solas.
Accompanied later by 'Rana. Felt he hadn't necessarily broken his word to Elliot in which he 'would not approach her'. Reasoned if Kurana approached him that it was all fine, and more than happy to welcome her company. Especially as they began to talk. Fascinated and amused by her situation with Kuwaka. Felt no usual tug to cause anymore chaos for his brother, though did briefly and very subtly suggest 'Rana might want to 'go further'. All the more captivated by her response and pondered what other unusual relationships might exist in the world. In some ways felt validated that any relationship he may have could have, as he perceives, poor foundations, and still be a wild success. Still processing the conversation however, so prone to reconsidering how he feels as a result of it. Left the forest to toy with a few ideas he had regarding his purgatory.
Rested among the ruins 'till approached by Elliot with his end of their deal - a 'golem' cat, made of stone with glowing white eyes. Told Karana was included in those Haakon was to stay clear of and made aware of the bond between she and Kuwaka. Found this an interesting update and told the elf he would not approach 'Rana. Stood still as Elliot bound the cat-golem to Haakon through light magic, which while not a direct attack on his system, painted him deeply. Felt a rush from the pain of the magical 'branding', something he wasn't terribly familiar with.
Elliot left and Haakon settled down, naming his new thing 'Solas'.
Stepped quietly into the forest, mind blank. Not of a particular mood and had no set goal in mind. Idled near Chitz and someone unfamiliar (Sebastian) to him. Felt violent toward this but didn't act on it, though nearly as they left toward the pond and he followed from a distance. Haakon's distant lurk fell apart as he became disinterested, a sort of.. blank mindlessness overcoming him, and an eerie calm. Meandered near the playground rocks till strangers - or.. if interacted before Haakon/I have no memory of i a m s o r r y (Roanen and Kissare) seemed upset by his presence. Briefly and by some miraculous way found himself amused in a.. 'flat'?? sort of way, not feeling to a fight. Took to toying with the situation, purposely bringing himself within what was clearly an uncomfortable proximity for the other; which later he would claim (and bring himself to believe) was provocation on his 'opponents' end, rather than his.
During the brief scuffle with Roanen, perceived Kissare as trying to stop the fight. Indifferent to this though took it as opportunity to t r y.... try hard to make Roanen seem like a loose cannon?? 'oh woe is i poor haakon trying to back down.......' basically, but in no words. When they came to a stand off, slowly inched his way on to the playground rocks, turned around, and shook his ass at Roanen; which kicked up their fight again. INEVITABLY.. as Haakon hasn't felt particularly vindictive or angry or violent today, let go and slipped away. Greatly amused and pleased to see another (Ezekiel) charge in after Roanen.
Confronted by Chitz and had a very short exchange. Angry about that for .5 seconds before was 'whatever i guess' about it all. Elliot's lingering hadn't gone unnoticed and made a point to stand close and look at him, which brought about an exchange which..... brought about a deal.
THEN I HAD TO GO TO A JOB INTERVIEW. but i am back now and so is he.
yesss
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Track
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