26/10/18
LMAO ITS ALMOST BEEN A WHOLE YE A R since I've updated or been active here. Sorry but not sorry? I guess. I kid you not, I'm almost out every day of the week because of uni and my social life, I can't remember a single day when I've been able to sit down at my desk and been relaxed enough to play TEF lol.
I still think of you guys a lot though, I hope you haven't forgotten how dumb I am. <3
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19/11/17
I'm surprised I can actually make animations albeit bs'd;
14/11/17
im alive
10/10/17
I just... have to survive uni... until the 31st
and then I'll be able to live a little
16/09/17
wheezing
wheeze
wheeee-
look how cute these all
are
23/08/17
Wow, I have been really inactive everywhere online. I often come to TEFc to lurk briefly, but even then it's not to the same level of attachment I had a few years ago. I'm not active on skype anymore either - I've moved to Discord!
Pretty much every night since uni's started I've always gotten home pretty damn late compared to when I was in high school - I think it averages 6-9pm, so I barely have time to think about my online life when I need to attend to so many things outside of it. I hope that didn't come over sounding like an excuse.
I've talked with a few people about this but I've been feeling really, really detached from most things, mostly because I think university work doesn't allow much space for much else. Because of that though, my art production and inspiration has dropped to an all time low, haha. Even if I carry my sketchbook with me everywhere I go, I barely touch it and I doubt I've drawn digitally for a few months, save for a stale WIP. It's a little frightening, seeing that art has always been a constant passion of mine, despite everything else that's happened around me.
Erm. So I think that was a convoluted way of me saying that I've become distant to this community and its seriously genuine, awesome people the same way I've become distant with my art. I'm not sure whether I'll feel like picking up an art tool even if I have free time, and it's the same for talking and making friends. Thank you to the people who understand and continue to support me thoughout this, though. I'm surprised my lack of communication for weeks on end still doesn't discourage your heartwarming welcomes but I'm very grateful for them.
18/06/17
I haven't drawn digitally for what feels like so long, university is keeping me tight by its side like a noose. By Friday though I'll have finished all my assignments and handed them in, so perhaps you'll see more from me around that time.
But until then, I hope you are all staying healthy, keeping well, drinking lots of water and again, staying healthy. Take care of yourselves!
19/02/17
Guys guys, this is important I want a character which is super fluffy and puffy and also is half onion like if you hurt them you'll cry whether you want to or not
09/02/17
boy oh boy I've done it now guys.
FOr some unknown reason my tablet has stopped working. I.e, will not light up, won't respond. Legit I've tried every solution I've come across - changing usb ports, changing cables, uninstall and reinstall drivers, restart PC, waitING, even
Doesn't work. This is the pits, since art has always been a strong obsession of mine, hands down. Fair enough, I can work traditionally and if I'm desperate I'll use the mouse but the agony of not being able to create and experiment is starting to gnaw at me already.
Heck.
24/12/16
Hey guys, sorry for my almost 0 presence anywhere. I didn't realise moving house would be this exhausting, phew. We still don't have a fridge, pots and pans or eating utensils so right now we're limited to eating out or bringing back bread and stuff.
My PC isn't set up yet either so TEF activity is kept at a constant 0. Hopefully that'll change soon though!
16/12/16
sOoOOoOOO
GUYSS my atar came out today! (the atar, for those who are not australian is the rank that determines whether you can enter your applied university courses)
I got 92.35, which means I'm in the top 7.65% of the students in my state which is.. ok?? My preferred course 'Visual communications' has a cut off mark of 93 though. GOOD NEWS, if you get top marks in a subject relevant to the course you can gain bonus 5 points, which is what I did with visual art.
SO HOPEFULLY THIS MEANS
I got accepted into my preferred course/??? (fingers crossed I don't jinx anything)
15/12/16
So my final examinations results came out today!! I actually forgot they were sending them out today via text so when I woke up in the morning and looked at my phone I was casually like, oh sweet, somebody texted me I feel wanted, but it was not to be. Didn't do badly, didn't do well. Most of my subjects save Chemistry and Visual Art were in the high 80's. Chemistry was my worst at 81 and Art was my best at 95!
So far, a lot of things have been pointing me to continuing my artistic career so I've put as my first choice for university offers a course called 'visual communications'. It's kind of like graphic design but for a client/purpose. Things I'll learn over the three years include typography, web design and I think basic animations, so there's that. Hopefully I can find some ways to show you my future assignments and projects as well!!
I've also found a really close friend who wants to move out of her house very soon, and while I'm still pretty apprehensive about living so independently we've plans to earn enough money to buy a small apartment closer to the city where our universities within the next few years. Wish me luck, guys, I love you all!
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Base code by Shey, header art up the top by Draak! Thanks you guys! ♥
Moar Niri
yespls.
Also, this page is mine. Bwahaha.
hehe, really considering it,
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I don't mind.
Of course I don't. 8[
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
psst niri email me
rofl you make me laugh when
You take care of you, too.
Eh Nipi its me who tells you
Glad to read about your life. Youre never this specific in skype. Update more when you can, I like the way you write.
ADORE YOU SO MUCH, Niri.
^^ precious cinnamon roll
precious cinnamon roll
hAH kimi, probably I'm never
My life isn't that interesting, tuo, that's why
But thank you poop, and it's the holidays niri can sleep later, yo
BRIT you ;;
-turbo waddles to echo- love me
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Youre most welcome.
Yes. I've spent so much time
I've spent so much time under trees just looking and delighting in it all. Leaves swaying, sunlight reaching through them. And how the moon lights up clouds at night as they slowly drift across the sky. Realising the beauty or details of things makes me so emotional.
I feel.
-reaches out
-touches face-
-whispers-
you, me, we understand each other
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Halloween is pretty big here
Both holidays are big here, at least where i am- lots of houses decorate big time for both holidays and people of all ages dress up for Halloween and celebrate it. Same with Christmas, minus the dressing up.
I just think commercialism (is that a word? rofl) has ruined both holidays.
Fff, I would love to know
Yesterday a total of four kids came trick-or-treating at our door, and you can forget to see any houses decorated in this neighborhood, rofl. Also I was supposed to attempt to carve my first pumpkin ever this year, but being sick I didn't even had the energy to try. ;; Saddest Halloween ever, lol.
Christmas on the other hand is a huge thing around here, they're already selling Christmas stuff around and I've bought my first bottles of Christmas soda. \o/
snow what even is Christmas
What Snow said applies in
@kimi Oh my goodness I'm so
Oh my goodness I'm so sorry for not having replied earlier - I didn't think there'd be a reply, so I took a short hiatus from the community to focus on my school homework, so I apologise deeply for having made you wait.
LMFAO THOUGH a radio station just for Christmas music? Holy hell it sounds terrifying, the reason being christmas songs seem to get stuck in my head really, really easily. I'll find myself humming some dodgy tune in july and thinking, it sounds familiar... AND THEN niri realises it's a christmas carol and cue some serious facepalming.
Yeah! I do admit, Christmas doesn't have that sparkle to it anymore compared to when I was 10. Kind of puts me off from celebrating it.
Commercialism is a word, yes, and you got it spot on. I couldn't really have worded it better?
@Snow
Oh! You live in Norway? That sounds superawesome!!
Haha, did you have candy to give to the kids? I remember the one time anybody can over for trick or treating was this one kid, and we weren't prepared so we gave them a nut bar instead?
Anyways. EEYY totally should show me next year though, if you do carve that pumpkin. Though, if you're sick next year as well I'll just have to try and carve one to show you instead. Either way, we're both gonna see a carved pumpkin!
Echoing Kimi though, what even is Christmas soda??
Tuo??? What is it? Is it like 'eggnog'? I have no idea what that is either.
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Yess, I do. c: And yes,
And yes, that's the really sad part, we had bought a lot of candy because usually there is some kids out trick-or-treating, so we had candy for weeks afterwards, rofl. At least those four kids who came by got something. Haha, oh well, a nut bar is better than nothing, I suppose. x'b
Will definitely try again next year, and hopefully I'm not sick 8| But yesss, that sounds like a good plan to me, though I think you should carve a pumpkin and show me either way. \o/
Fff, I never saw your comment kimi I'm sorry ;; But as Tuo said, it's brilliant. This is christmas soda, at least the norwegian version of it. :')
"but our school took one off
Screams softly. Leave their hands alone niri oh my god. im tired shh.
Holy she we never had a common room like that! sounds so awesome ;v;
Man it only got up to 35 C here and I was dead. How'd you survive that wtf I: Though in relation to snow - absolutely same. Pretty much all online friends know that if I see snow I'll flip my lid, so a few take care to make sure I see it a lot. IT'S SO WEIRD??? jfc.
That art project sounds awesome, too, hh.
Anyway, just wanna say best of luck really. It'll be tough at the time but it'll all be over and it won't feel like it was actually that long anymore (nostalgia is such a liar like that).
i would very much like me
stores have been playing christmas music since november 1st here, pretty much. and i don't know if black friday is a thing anywhere else besides the us, but it's the day after our thanksgiving and omfg it's frightening.
Woah a common room with a
It's cold here, but no snow
I'm not a fan of snow so I'm hoping that we won't get any this year, or at least not a lot. Last year we had so much we had nowhere to put it and my dog was running out of places to go to the bathroom.
Its very beautiful when the
@Snow D'awww. Speaking of
D'awww. Speaking of heaps of candy being around, you totally should have just poured the stuff into their little cans and be like, oK YOU'RE SET 4 LYFE GO HOME
I'm pretty sure I have uneaten candy from that one time I went trick or treating when I was eight or something that I dare not give anybody to eat, but it seems like such a waste to throw out. So, it's still there. Life decisions.
LIFE DECISIONS is also grabbing a pumpkin from a supermarket and hacking away at it madly in hopes it looks like something. You're on - it's written down in my 2016 diary.
The soda looks hella nice - any soda looks nice, let's be real but one I haven't tried before? B ) awyeaah.
@Ammy
-hand touches- Or not hands. Depends?
iD ONT KNOW HOW I SURVIVED I think what I did was think that I was in a cool place and kind of stOPPED BREATHING and lowered my temperature by dying?
Haha, joking aside, snow is always to be taken seriously. Snow is great, I love it, I would roll in it day in day out if I could.
THank you for the words of encouragement, ammy-bae. ♥
@Kimi
What's black friday?? What? How is it terrifying? D :
but lmfao the christmas carols will get stuck in your head and appear in your sleep
ALSO
THAT STORY ABOUT YOUR DOG rofl aHAH, never thought about that problem. (But snow. It's white and poofy and when you step on it it makes a crunchy noise and you're just like EEEEEEEEE)
@Tigerart
yES
ITS AWESOME
FANTABULOUS
AHah, poor you. D,: Your school should appreciate the year 12s more! Give them a kitchen! A bed! A hotel!!
@Tuo
YEAH! All the christmas cards have snow and reindeer and stuff on them but it's sweltering in Australia? Kind of ironic.
Ohhey, so it's like having the sun under your feet! Except it's cold? That's what I thought when you said when it helped with the brightness, at least. But two hours only?! I'd be tempted to sleep in all day.
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
snow gets really dirty when
Black Friday is this day of national sales and stuff shops and corporations put on. There's some good deals, I'll admit but people like.. lose their shit and humanity over buying a cheap TV. People have been trampled and seriously injured.
Because no gift says "I LOVE YOU" like one having to beat someone away from it. djaslkj
I'll find some videos for you later.
Agree with you on everything!
CHOKES LOUDLY KIMI YOU'RE TOO
Thank you for always replying to my strange and often weird posts. Ahah, true, true. We should probably do something about ourselves before criticizing small children.
A toast to that! (not that I can drink wine or anything)
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
merry Christmas you
bae ♥!!
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
wow, what an interesting
I think you would! I don't
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Eyes on the future Nipi. I
Hang in there, Niri. Your
Uni is really amazing and I bet someone like you will thrive in it, too.
We're always here too, should you need someone, but I do understand the need to have someone -there-.
@Tuo Hnn, I am looking
Hnn, I am looking forwards so much to that day. Wouldn't say amazing people skills haha, mostly I weird people out. Cool thing though, some people accept me for it so weird people to weird people
I'm looking at you mipi
@Kimi
i HOPE SO
so much
that it will be awesome like everybody tells me. I mean it's also hard and all but pretty awesome too. It's nice to have such understanding people looking out for me urk - I'm flattered. Thanks, Kimi. ♥
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Anger and rage are easy
Sorry to hear of some of the
Always been quick to tears personally, from what I've heard from others it's usually considered better than the alternative; being unable to. Exhausting in its own right, though.
Here if you want to vent or just talk about whatever.
Blow Raisin a little kiss from me, please? ♥
I cry a lot, too. I's not
I hope things look up for you soon. You know where I am if you need to talk.
@Evern God knows if I can,
God knows if I can, but I've been trying to make an effort to calm and ground myself a bit whenever I feel like blowing up. Thanks, Evern. <3
@Ammy
Haha, you could say exhausting again. I always feel like a tired mess afterwards. I will! I'm sure she'll feel a little perkier afterwards. Thanks for your thoughts, Ammy.
@Kimi
Haha, I figured, but suddenly trying to deal with this feeling of vulnerability is hard. I hope that they do too - I will keep your offer in mind when I need it next. ♥
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
♥ It hurts for a
It hurts for a while, I'm sure you know. It will hurt less, as most things do with time.
Remember the good, hm?
Wish I had more to say; I do but... hearing the same words over and over can become tiresome, or presumptuous. I really just wish you and your family all the best in this time, again here if you want to talk about anything - Raisin related or not (I'd love to hear about her, but I understand that you've cried a lot, so I won't push that).
I don't know if this is an
I cried at the drop of a hat for most of year 11 and 12. Mostly at home- I had this problem which sometimes still pops up now where, whenever I was in the car, my mum would ask me what was up and i'd just bawl my eyes out because that was the topic (which doesn't make much sense, thanks brain, but it meant it was very hard to talk about). I cried when I got home from school probably every day. I cried a few times AT school which was terrible and I only did it around my friends once, and was mortified. But, yeah, most days I would cry and it went on for two years and sort of began to phase off once I was out of school.
I can't say if I know anyone in my school who went through the same thing because i've always been walled up, and my friends keep that kind of thing vague, like the way people joke about how little they've studied like its a competition. But it did happen to me and maybe its similar to what's happening to you? I know some awful problems have arisen from the way the HSC is conducted.
I also became hideously angry at a certain person in my house, who never deserved it, but I was struggling so much emotionally and wanted someone to point it at- whenever they did something annoying, it gave me a reason to blast it out.
I actually made Casti mid-way year 11 almost like a project to distract myself. And it helped a little bit!
I'm very sorry about Raisin, and I hope all of this feels better eventually.
wow this is long sorry
@Ammy I b lew that kiss from
I b lew that kiss from you to her before she went. Thanks so much for understanding and being so supportive, Ammy. I think I'm going to have to take a bit of a time out from computing though to give her the thought and respect she deserves. You'll probably be hearing from me some time soon though bawling about things.
@Freyja
It's not long, and please don't feel like you're being impartial. It makes me feel better other people have gone through the same thing and come out just fine.
Haha, the word 'HSC' will probably give me horrible flashbacks in a few years time, if not in a few decades. I think I understand a little with how you might have been with your friends - though I seriously have no idea haha I know so little about you.
I'd hoped that trying to immerse myself in TEF as a breather kind of distraction would help with the problems that have been building up but I can't find the heart to barge in on such a tight knit community with all these problems and depressing monologues.
Thanks, Freyja. It means a lot to hear it - and thank you for taking the time to share a bit of your story.
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
I'm so so sorry, niri. If you
♥ here for anything
Sig: Aihnna
I missed your post about your
And Happy Birthday. I hope it's a good one, you deserve it. ♥
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Happy birthday Niri!
@Evern Sorry for being so
Sorry for being so rude as to not have replied lately, I don't think I realised anybody read these updates. It's ok, I have my asshole bird to pour my attention into so my thoughts don't wander too much. And, of course. It'd be a pleasure - plus, same here.
@Ems
Aahh, thank you so much Ems for your support. Even though I know I probably won't reach out as much as I'd hope to for support, it's always gratifying to know people are willing to offer their words and time.
@Kimi
It's ok, kimi. I've kind of gotten over it now, I think. Thanks, boo. <3
@Vee
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@chuchu
as long as I have u by my side
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Hey Niri! Long time! Was
Hey there! sure thing, go
sure thing, go ahead!!
Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!
Who thinks she is tiny?
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Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!