I f O n l y

"I'm not seeking it, but I wish it would find me..." -Xeoduz's thoughts on love...- (read more)

It's a silly thing... Love... It's much more than a word or a feeling... It's real. But I never knew it. Not in that way. I don't feel deserving. I don't have anyone. No one knows me. No one in the Forest speaks of... 'Xeoduz"...

I see many others, all with loving gazes and playful kin and loving mates. But they do not realize... How lucky they are. Love is an elusive thing. It makes one feel silly as a fawn with his nose stuck in a can. It can not be captured in the word 'love'. It is more... Much more. How do I know, I'm not sure.

Xeoduz...

Gallant, graceful, elegant, respectful, lovely, caring...

I f O n l y... I was important... to someone. I don't feel that my presence is missed when I'm not there. Nor do I feel welcomed when I am there. I am just there. And nothing more.

Loneliness is something that you feel. It can hurt, or can be a sanctuary. Or neither. I have felt it ever since I came to this forest.

But...

I won't stop.

I know love is out there.

I f O n l y... I knew where. Where he is. I would sprint nonstop if I must, but if my love is real, if he is real... I know I'll love him. And he'll love me. Just because we were meant to be together. I won't rush. But I do not want to waste my life in vain of lovelessness. That is what I fear... No one to care for, or care for me. That sorrow... It overflows deep within my heart, and stops at nothing to take over. It consumes you... The darkness...

I don't like it...

I wish he would find me...

Before I d r o w n...

I f O n l y...

edit:[By 'continuing' i meant, I'll write actual stories. I just feel like no one reads my stuff. ;-;]

The Endless Forest

Enough? How many people