"... my goodness!"

I'm back at home for the week, on an older computer that's having a bit of a hard time running TEF. So out of necessity I'll have to keep my deer kind of antisocial this week. I tried to run around and play and cast spells but it really slows things down...sorry to that deer who wanted me to help them with their set!
So most of the time I'm around this week, I'll have to just park my deer in a pretty, isolated place. I don't mean to look like I'm ignoring you, but half the time my game's too slow to show anyone else emoting. You're welcome to sit with me though. I'll fill the time doing art or editing screenshots, probably. If you've got any nice screenies you want me to mess with, I'll see what I can do - I can't really take any myself right now.

Maybe, in some distant place, everything is already, quietly, lost. Or at least there exists a silent place where everything can disappear, melting together in a single, overlapping figure. And as we live our lives we discover - drawing toward us the thin threads attached to each - what has been lost. I closed my eyes and tried to bring to mind as many beautiful lost things as I could. Drawing them closer, holding on to them. Knowing all the while that their lives are fleeting.

~~ H. Murakami



Apparently my deer wrote a journal entry a couple days ago on All Souls' Day. An unusual and wondrous meeting. Given the nature of the holiday and her being an old lady sometimes, she got a little overly sentimental. Don't mind her, she doesn't realize I've gotten a hold of her personal diary.











She could not see her, of course, but in some way 21 knew herself to be in special company that afternoon.

Came into the forest tonight and it seemed like every deer wants nothing to do with me, just runs away without hardly an acknowledgement- or worse, tries to fight me off. If it's not too much to ask, could you perhaps humble yourselves to allow my company? I think I deserve a bit more respect from ya.

So I guess I missed a lot of whatever happened today. =o I still haven't had time to read everything but I've kinda got the gist of it. Anyway, I wanted to clear this up before I head into the forest because I'm not sure what I will find there! What is the consensus on no antlers? Is it safe for me to bring my old bald-headed deer in or do I risk being harassed?

Maybe some of you were expecting some kind of a rant from me... instead I've made a storybook for you. Here is some silly thing about how I view my role in the Baal plot.
(oh yeah- and click for big)


















The conflict is nothing more than a performance, and outside of it my character is unchanged. Will my critics advise me? I am listening

I don't want your pity, I only made this so that I would remember what happened!
Baal pretty much just beat her up. She got a concussion, so fortunately most of her disorientation is because of that rather than some major injury. Now she is tired and has a terrible headache and can't remember the fight or much afterward.










































































































Sorry this is so ridiculously disjointed, I can't concentrate at all.