Poor Tsuki doesn't have many friends, so sometimes he'll smell some of the flowers in the forest. Secretly hoping someone will come and say hello. He knows he seems intimidating and can be either clutsy or just awkward. So despite his friendly nature, he's quite shy. Maybe someday he'll meet a nice deer he can protect. Someday...

I really never wanted to post anything like this on this site, but I feel like I don't have many people to talk to. Not because they don't care, but because it's all a burden. No one has to read this, if you are then I am grateful, its mostly so that I feel like I've talked to someone about what I feel.

I feel lonely I guess. I've been dating a guy for about 11 months now, he's my first real boyfriend. And I spend more time on here than I see him in a week. I sort of feel like he doesn't want to try for this relationship. But then I stop and think to myself; 22 years, and someone finally gave a monster like you a chance. No one else will ever try to love you. To understand that I guess you'd have to know a little about me. I'm not fishing for pity or anything like that, I'll admit, I have some emotional problems. Mainly from how I was treated for most of my life. When I was younger I hated everyone. Humans in general were a waste and were nothing but cruel. For a long time I was filled with that rage and hate; which is why I call myself a monster. I go to church, and I know that it's not my place but I feel that I cannot redeem myself for all the hatred I felt growing up. I wanted them to all disappear, save for my grandparents

Sorry, I started to ramble there. And I probably will here too.

Emotions like love are almost heartbreaking for me sometimes. I get too attached and expect too much. I wait for people for more than an hour on a regular basis, I've been backstabbed I don't know how many times, but I keep trying. There are times where I wish I had never been born. Many times, I haven't affected anyone so much as that I will be sorely missed. I think in those times, I'm tired of fighting. Not necessarily in a physical state, but an emotional and mental one. My youth consisted of verbal and emotional abuse, I've had to fight for what little respect I have. Then I feel that most just throw it in my face and mock me.

Here's the link to his picto if you're ever curious =]

http://tale-of-tales.com/TheEndlessForest/register/pictogram.php?usernam...

A little developing of Tsuki the deer:

Tsuki (my deer) I feel comes off as a big stag that just wants to butt into everything. But really, he's just an oaf who has little to no social skills. He likes to make friends with everyone he can and will defend those close to him with the utmost ferocity. So please, if you see Tsuki in the forest, forgive him if he seems a little....dense.

Sincerely,
Chi Akai

Ola =] My friend is a great artist and after talking with her she is willing to have 10 slots open for commissions. =D

Here's a link to her DeviantArt account so that you can see some of her works:

http://evelyncadeyrn.deviantart.com/

For a full body line art it would be $10 for one character, for two characters it would be $15 (full body)

For full body color it would cost $18.

Check her out and if you have any questions feel free to ask on here or email her at lalalilian@live.com
She will only be accepting PayPal, and requests that you please send a screenshot of the character you would like to have drawn. =]

I was awesome the other day and logged out without re-loading my deer appearance =[ If someone would be awesome and help me get my face back that would be AWESOME. I'll be by the big tree for a little while =]

Wouldn't be awesome if TEF was an app?!? =]

I'm not the greatest at it, mostly cuz I'm new to the internet roleplaying scene, and I wouldn't be able to be on for a buuuunch of hours everyday, especially on weekends. But I usually try to go on at least once a day, and play around in the forest. I guess if anyone needs a filler or would like to give me a try just let me know. =3 Have fun in the forest ^.^

I was wondering if I have an outdated version or something. I've run around and played with a lot of different deer and always seem to get the same masks, I would like to get the skull looking mask (it's neat =]) I'm using version 3.41. Maybe it just takes a while? Any advice will be greatly appreciated =D

I uninstalled and re installed TEF and for some reason it won't let me connect to even get to the login screen. I was wondering if the server was down or something like that? Or if I'm the only one having problems? Any help or suggestions will be greatly appreciated.