Cry for sanity (Violence)

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It's been a long time since I have spoken freely. Much has happened since my last reminiscing, and there are many details I shall keep to myself. In the past weeks, I have become a sort of guardian for The Fawn, witnessed deer in unnatural pelts and lacking antlers completely, achieved a sort of alliance with The Priest, and battled one named Wesker, more than once. Never have I lost, even to this moment. I've joined a collection of others in 'honoring' the twin de-... statues, and once again encountered the giant stags who accompany their activities.

I must remember not to call them demons... At least until I see what the winter brings. I admit I don't have much hope that I will make it that long, but I should keep those ideas out of mind.

I have been working on not letting madness take over in combat... at least when it comes to defending her grave. When Wesker, that fool, tries to uproot it, I cannot afford to let the insanity take hold anymore. I cannot say for sure yet, if it is better or worse to fall into a 'seeing red' state in a fight or not. I have sparred with Virgil recently. I believe this friendly match of ours had helped in keeping a cool head for more serious battles.

Hnn... But on to more recent matters.

The other day, I had joined Spangled Plushblue, Lantern, and another in 'manning up' one of the biggest chicken-deer I've ever witnessed. I aimed to drive him to the fury needed to lower antlers, but all he could do was cower. Hnn... I could have eaten him, but I chose to let him live. I recall silent watching, and a battle occurring during the attack.

Yesterday afternoon, I finally introduced myself properly to the black and white doe who frequently lingers at the ruins. At first she had been more or less stalking me at the lake, while other does had gathered around me. The same stag I helped attack was among them. I did not attack a second time. No, I'd let him recover first. There is no fun in attacking a wounded stag.

But I also did not apologize.

Why would I?

Eventually I had returned to the ruins, collected poppies and left them at her grave. I could not help but feel somewhat at peace. There were no enemies or noted rivals in the forest. Melinoe, the black and white doe, joined me at the ruins, and I more or less introduced her to Laghodessa. It was not overly difficult to speak with the doe... she respected the buried and could communicate with the spirits. We had a common ground. I let her know that I could see, not just one, but all the spirits around these ruins... and around the forest.

Kaoori soon arrived at the ruins, and began morning at one of the graves. Others came and went, but Kaoori remained for a long while.

Eventually, after Melinoe had left, I wandered away from the ruins, and met with The Priest, Polt, Saosin, and others. A few fawns had joined us at some point, and one had pulled The Priest into dancing with him. Initially, I only stood there with a flat stare, but eventually I joined in. Another fawn had appeared, wearing a secretary pelt. It never stood, but moved along the ground like some odd serpent. I wasn't sure if Priest saw it, but I couldn't ignore it.

Eventually, I took a walk with Priest to the twin statues. We stopped and sat at the foot of their hill, looking on at the ivory titans. There were others at the top of the hill, including devout pelted fawns. I could sense the 'blessings' on them... like searing electricity, but I made no mentioning of it. The priest soon drifted to sleep, and I wandered off to the lake.

Looking back, I wished he had remained awake. It wasn't much after The Priest drifted off, that... HE... appeared before me.

Wesker...

He wasn't quite awake yet... so I hoped I could get back to the ruins before he would realize I was awake.

No such luck. I tripped over one of my chains on the way past Wesker, and by the time I was back on my hooves, he was well awake, inches away from me.

I would not be the first to shed blood, so I attacked immediately. He was ready, and soon our antlers were locked. Hooves dug through fur and flesh. Does and a few stags were around at the time, and began to call at us. I'm certain they were begging us to stop... but their roars pushed me on to fight harder. Wesker soon made a break for the ruins. I knew instantly that he would attack Laghodessa's gravesite again.

The word began to fall into crimson. I charged after him, chasing him down the entire way to the ruins. He beat me to Lagho's grave, and instantly began to tear at it. I slammed into him, and began to attack with teeth and hooves. His antlers formed a cage around me, digging profusely into my skin as I pushed to force him off her grave. Roars of pain and rage echoed out threw the red forest. A crowd had begun to gather, of ghosts and living does.

"TOUCH HER GRAVE AGAIN! I DARE YOU!" I screamed. Skin was being ripped clean off, leaving open patches of exposed muscle and free flowing blood on the both of us. He seemed to have been laughing. He was mocking her. Mocking my devotion to her...

The tendrils of madness began to creep toward me.

I was screaming in rage, but I clearly felt the pain from his antlers. Oh, if only they would snap off.
Hnn...
I struck his skull mask with my hooves, and knocked it off his face. Closer the tendrils came.

"No... not this time." I hissed, not at Wesker, but at the madness. "Come no closer."

I don't care if I was the only one to see them. I couldn't loose my head this time.

I could tell I was growing weary. My muscles were shuddering, and every breath stung my lungs. My blows were growing weaker. I was growing feint, and knew it. Finally, Wesker collapsed. The does and ghosts started crying over him. I looked at them with a tired sadness, and shuddered. I admit, I feared they would attack now. I didn't care...

I passed out, beside her grave.

Sweet does, kill me in my sleep if you must... but I had to protect her...


(I'll touch this up more in a bit)
ocean's picture

The Priest looks over at the

The Priest looks over at the demon with a great sadness.
"Is it not terrible...that it must come to this? That violence...must be the answer?" He looks away quickly.

((Quite a battle. o.o
"...'manning up' one of the biggest chicken-deer I've ever witnessed."
>>
...Is it sad that I find that funny?))

Zergarikiaka's picture

Darkweaver looks up, only

Darkweaver looks up, only having one eye open at the moment. "It is terrible... But thus far I can not find another way to deal with him... Hnn... What other ways are there, with one who is unlikely to consider simply talking..." he weezes.

(lol nah, that was supposed to be funny)
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"I know not. Perhaps...No.

"I know not. Perhaps...No. This...creature is unlikely too listen to reason." He sighs. "Nonetheless, I shall seek more answers." A strange look of worry crosses his features.

((Okay. xD))
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oh no.. I knew Kaoori was

oh no.. I knew Kaoori was missing something from the fight. Sad now she feels bad for both of them.

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I'm a little wolf inside a girl.

Lightbringer-apprentice to Yorres
Zergarikiaka's picture

o.o I was actually kind of

o.o I was actually kind of worried about Kaoori myself. Who was she grieving? and why was she suddenly in a zombie pelt/ injured?

and just so it's known, I know there was more that happened than I described... (since I switched Laghodessa in, but I left her parts out. She was among those who sat around the KO'ed wesker.) I just couldn't write about a lot since I was keeping this in one perspective. XD

No need to feel bad, they'll be back on their hooves soon. ^^

Kaoori's picture

I didn't know how else to

I didn't know how else to show Kaoori's grieving badly besides perhaps putting on the zombie pelt.. I've seen people do that when their deer are in mental anguish. :3 Kaoori lost a friend yesterday.. Terrant died and she was shocked because she never saw it coming. Having her lay by a gravestone was my way of trying to show the loss along with the pelt. She wasn't injured herself physically. :3
After the fight I was having game/computer problems, I tried sneezing something off and the computer crashed and I can't remember what else happened. I saw Laghodessa before the fight.. she was a comfort to Kaoori.

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I'm a little wolf inside a girl.

Lightbringer-apprentice to Yorres

I missed this when you

I missed this when you posted it. x.x

I wish I had been there to see the fight. Oh well.
Just why does Wesker want to attack Lagho's grave, anyway?

I forgot about the part by the pond where you said Melinoe was "stalking" him. X3 She didn't really mean to. She went over there when she sensed him, because she had seen him before and was interested in him. But when she saw there were a bunch of deer there, she didn't want to get too close. She didn't want to approach Darkweaver as long as all those deer were around, so she just kinda tried to watch him from behind some trees, hoping that no one would see her and approach her. |3

That fool of a stag deserves such a punishment for defiling the spirit's resting place. If only I had been there to defend it myself. If I ever catch him at it, he will taste the sting of my hooves...

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera
Scythe's picture

Wesker: Go ahead and try,

Wesker: Go ahead and try, Melinoe. You mark me a monster, yet here you affiliate with a demon yourself. Should you ever strike me, I will not strike back. I will simply acknowledge your mistake. You see, some deer never grow out of the tawny spots of their fawnhood, apparently even those whose pelt is as divided as night and day.

I meant to comment on this earlier, but I have been horribly distracted as of late. XD I enjoyed reading this, though. ^^ Dark is an intriguing character, and it's always interesting to hear things from his point of view.

I did not mark you a

I did not mark you a monster, I marked you as a fool. If you refuse to fight back, than you are even more foolish than I thought. Demon or no, at least he has respect for the buried, which shows that he at least has some sense.

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera
Scythe's picture

Wesker: A fool for refusing

Wesker: A fool for refusing to fight back? I would only be wasting my time in challenging you, my friend. Alas, I suggest that you think twice before accusing me of disrespecting the dead...you do not know what I lost...Perhaps you ought to open your ears and hold your tongue more often, instead of relying upon the words of one that you do not even fully understand.

You call defiling a grave

You call defiling a grave respect? *snorts* There is no excuse for such a thing.

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera
Scythe's picture

Wesker: Hnn...I have nothing

Wesker: Hnn...I have nothing to prove to you. Your mindset is as monotonous as your pelt. You may speak with me again when you come to discover the shades of gray in this world. Until then, though, I will only suggest that you do not blindly follow in the words of this Darkweaver. You will only be mislead.

Hrmph... Follow him? I

Hrmph... Follow him? I think not. I follow no one. You told me not to speak of things I know nothing of. Perhaps you should heed your own words.

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera
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(By the way, sorry for

(By the way, sorry for starting this. ^^; I've just been itching to get him to speak up and it would appear as if he has been starting trouble in a number of entries tonight. I hope that you don't mind. They can continue this if you'd like, though. Just give me the go ahead. XD )

(I don't mind. XD But maybe

(I don't mind. XD But maybe this should be taken to Mel's bio so we don't keep spamming Zerg's blog X3)

~Paz
deer: Amary, Melinoe, Oisín, Maera
Scythe's picture

(Good idea. ^^; I have a

(Good idea. ^^; I have a tendency to take over Zerg's blogs as of late. *is shot* )
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<3 I love you people. XD

<3 I love you people. XD