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I awoke with the thoughts of yesterday still sharp in my thoughts...
Poor Hania... Why had I acted so horribly? He had only been playing with an innocent fawn...
Why did I want so much attention?...
I felt horrible. Wicked. Cruel, black-hearted...
Shaking meandering worries aside, I rose to my feet and listened. Alas... No familiar scents were about. Involuntarily, tears welled in my eyes. I felt them roll silently down my cheeks, cold and shocking, and my mind reeled from a sudden buckle of loneliness. I staggered, side grazing a birch tree as I stumbled...
I saw deer in the distance... They were casting spells. Laughing. Laughing...
A wave of desolation crashed through and sent me scrambling for air and footing. I ran...
All alone...
Images flew through my eyes; blood, bright on the ground. So red. Bright in the fur of raging stags... does...
...
Fawns...
Sobs broke free form my throat as I sought for anything other than those images. Paavo. Hania. Warm moments, touches, voices... All the faces I loved...
Fading faces. Shyla, so far away.
I sobbed again. It was too much. I ran for the only place I could think of where I could perhaps rest my mind... The Hill. Yes, the Hill...
There was another deer there. I crumpled to the ground, but staggered on...
I recognized a scent; Seed. A good friend. I ran for him. Perhaps he... he...
He was with another...
Afraid to move closer, I shivered by a tree. What was happening to me?...
Seed saw me. He came closer, bowed. He seemed to notice how distraught I was. He came closer, and I - alas - drew back... I let my tears fall even as I shrank away from him and cowered. His shoulders slumped, but he simply went back to his friend...
I shivered, cried.
Coward.
My vision blurred. I fled...
What was wrong with me?... Why did I seek company - yet then shy away... cower... flee...
Coward. Coward. Coward.
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...Ohdear. O:
Awwwww.. I want to give her
I want to give her a hug. ;_;
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Nueva Paz (new-AY-va Pahz)
Spanish - "new peace"
Just call me Paz.
deer: Amary
;___; <3 Bawww, Clavier
-- Dannii <3
Awwww It always makes Seed
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Nelle Rovine
aww.. *huggles clavier*
Thanks, everyone... She'll
Aww.. Kaoori sees her, but
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I'm a little wolf inside a girl.
Lightbringer-apprentice to Yorres
Ahh Dear, I-I am here for