March 5, 2009 - 7:58am — Draak
Since Dannii did something like this and the Avani did, I thought since I'm involved in this too, Cirrus should write something |D. Please note that I'm not directing this at people, it's just Cirrus reacting to their characters. She's just reflecting on things. Dont kill me D:
A lot has happened in the past few days, I'm not sure how to start. How about with what happened at the lake. It certainly took my by surprise, I didnt know Silvery was also...cursed I think it is. But of course I dont want to write about that. I really didn't know about Cal. I never knew she also seemed to have interest in Lorak, it seemed like only now did she speak up about it. Lorak never seemed to mention her alot. It only seemed to be Silvery. But from what she said she has had interest in him for some time. I'm not even sure if Lorak does have interest in her at all. I was saddened to see her pressure him with those questions, the poor man doesnt need to be pressured into love and make snap desicions on the spot. I'm certainly not bombarding him to reveal any deep feelings he has for me, I believe he does but I'm certainly not going to demand him to become my mate/boyfriend/whatever.
Lorak...there's no doubt I do love and care for you. I love seeing you smile, I love it when you're happy. I dont like seeing you this confused and upset. Everyone seems to be demanding your love lately. However, I dont think you should give up on it, you can't live without it, I dont think love is something you can avoid...and it just happens. Love is blind they say.
I dont know why it doesnt bother me that you've had feelings for others at the same time...I guess it was because we havent acted upon our own? I'm not sure...it does confuse me somewhat, I admit though...I did have some jealosy but I just pushed it aside because you werent mine and weren't being unfaithful. And it was childish to be jealous over something like that. Lorak, you seemed to have a lot of feelings for others, but never acted upon them, the only time I can recall was with Silvery a while ago...I dont know why people are upset, he loves or loved others but never acted upon it, yes he had these feelings, but it wasnt like he was having two girlfriends at once. He was just...confused. He's a handsome man, he seems to attract a lot of people. Not just women/does I heard. I cant imagine how that'd feel, attracting one of the same gender if you didnt swing that way.
Do what you feel is right, I'm not going to abandon you, I dont think I could bear to do something like that. I know I've said it countless times, but I will stand by you regardless. You have a right to make your own decisions.
I just want to let you know, you make me happy. Sure my friends make me happy too of course. But this...this is a different happiness I cant explain. And when you're down, I just try my best to try and get you to smile that familiar smile.
~Cirrus
There we go, I'm not sure how much this covers but...eh I guess if you want to ask her stuff you can.
I spent wayyyyyyyyyyyy too long typing this XD.
*kicks the Magpie chick
(don't feel offended if she says anything... not so nice XD)
Cirrus, I admire your courage and love to stand up for Lorak like that. But there are a few things that I would like to point out. I didn't know if you were speaking about me when you said that 'everyone seemed to be demanding his love'. Well, I have never demanded his love in my entire life. I have only confessed to him once, at a time I was pretty sure I was the only one left... I have always given him time to think. Maybe it's because you haven't been in love with him as long as I have, but I couldn't take it anymore. I was following Lorak like a little stray dog, everywhere and always, but waiting for him almost made me eat myself. You know what I mean?
And the pain you feel when you thought he made a descision and suddenly another doe turns up again! Wouldn't that hurt you? Wouldn't that make you sick after a while? Think about it Cirrus.
Lorak isn't completely innocent in this... But probably that's hard for you to see, since you're blinded by love. Believe it or not, but I can't blame you at all, I just wished you were more rational like me. I actually feel slightly sorry for you, hoping you won't end up the same way I do.
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
(xD I wont and likewise XD
Silvery...and no I wasnt referring to you about the 'demanding love' it was Cal who I was talking about. The way she just...appeared and began talking. You're right I havent been in love with Lorak for as long as you so I cant really, properly speak from experience...But I do know about the waiting...I can associate with that. I've waited patiently for a while, and once again probably not as long as you
That would hurt, I just...I dont know...I apologise Silvery.
...But he's...he can't help his feelings I'm sure if and when he settles down he'll be fine and come out of this rut. I cant say if I will or won't end up in your shoes...I just hope not. I just have to wait and see what the future holds.
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DraakxMitra C:
xD Aww
yesLorakisnotcompletelyinnocentLOL...dude.
-doesntknowwhattoreplywithlul-
-- Dannii <3
Sententia - Where Fantasy And Reality Merge
I've loved Lorak since
(LOL RAZ Cal is meeean I'm sorry XD <33 ;lkfsdlfs)
Dannii: xDDD So I've heard
xDDD
So I've heard but, I dunno what he's done aside from the recent stuff xD. I think...I only really know what's been going on with him since the end of the Xylia relationship. Cirrus is just clueless.
Sarie:
(XDDDD it's ok lol it's the character and not you that's mad XD. Narky Cirrus is Narky o8. I'm sorry back |DDD)
You have? well that's a coincidence. (I'm not kidding with that O_o xDDD) I have no where barged in and demanded Lorak to love me, sure I've admitted my feelings and that was only recently. He..no one knew I had feelings for him for months. I even told him I'd be patient, thus never barging in anywhere.
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DraakxMitra C:
'Cal, I also have loved
(MEOOOOOOWWWW X"D)
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
(XDDD Cat fight!) I never
I never said I felt special because I've also had those feelings since then. She just...*sigh* Never mind, I'll leave it alone. I didnt say that I've had my heart broken and want sympathy from all. (I dont think she did, I've lost track |D)
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DraakxMitra C: