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This rp is for Hexane & Kasmir
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Kasmir
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Me
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Content may be subject to mature material so be advised. 
"Wait.What.No its quite the
Had he really made her feel like he didn't enjoy her company?
Looking at the small doe the stag let out a sudden but brief sigh as his ears lowered.
It was obvious they both worried how one another viewed them.
Neither wanting to come off as weird. But the truth was he had in fact been weird.
He wasn't like the others, he didn't think like the others & he sure as hell didn't look like the others.
As the doe came closer he raised his ears back to a normal position not wanting to alert her to his sudden downfall.
He was happy she decided to place herself against him. Her warm fur against his rekindled warm memories he had long forgotten.
"Water cold & slimy? he chuckled "And i guess frogs are warm and fuzzy eh?
Looking up at the sky he nodded in agreeance. It had been a wonderful night.
Hearing the does next statement confirmed his suspicion.
"Kasmir..." he crannied his neck about to nuzzle her. Ready to giving her the reassurance he desperately wanted to give. He forced himself to stop midway.
"I don't think your weird." resting his head back down on his forearm he gazed up at the stars.
How was it possible that he was feeling as if he had known this doe for years but in all reality it had only been for a few days.
How was it possible that she happened to be near the pond at the exact same time as him?
Regardless of the answer he was content & happy for now.
Turning his head to catch her gaze he spoke just loud enough for her to hear"... Do you think I'm weird?"
As he spoke the words seemed to crumple up in his throat. There was no taking it back. He had finally asked the question that had been tearing away at him from the beginning.
"R-Really...?" Her voice was
Her voice was a timid squeak. It was trued that the stag had been on her mind since she first met him.
It worried her; she thought that maybe he didn't like her. Most deer didn't. She had been told she was annoying and stupid and childish, always acting just like a fawn.
This was important to her; this moment right now.
Sixx made her really happy. She wished she could stay in this mometn right now. Just stay there and sit with Sixx, his warm body pressed up beside hers', the moon not quite full. The candles on his antlers, barley lit, just enough light to see by. And the frogs with their evening song.
It was all perfect.
She knew feeling like this was ridiculous, but she felt like... She'd know this stag since she first woke up all that time ago. When Jax and Misang first greeted her, He was there, too.
Smiling a nice warm smile and welcoming her, as well.
She shifted her left front hoof when she felt a few treas creep into her violet eyes.
She held them back, and Sixx was joking again.
"Why, yes. That particular one was. He had a heart of gold, he did."
She said, joking as well, with her tone all high and up, like she was offened he could think any diffrently.
Then he was reassuring her, his neck cranned around to nuzzle her.
She blushed, and the tears really did pour out a bit, falling to Sixx's back.
"O-oh... I'm sorry... I'm not... Upset... Or anything..."
Her voice was a whisper again, squeezing out the words.
He really was honest. Saying he didn't think she was weird. It made her happy.
His next words, they seemed just about as whispered as hers.
She scooted closer to him, her head lifting off his back so she could look him in the eye.
"Of course not... I think... Your... Awesome, Sixx..."
She blushed again, her head lowering down to be covered by her hooves.
She peeked one eye out, slightly worried about what he would say next.
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"Well of course Kasmir. How could anyone think otherwise?"
Did the others not think she was as wonderful as he did? Surely something must be wrong with them.
They must have been looking through a clouded lookingglass... or maybe they're just out right insane.
The feeling one got when she was around was enough to knock sanity into any soiled mind.
Joking back he looked appalled & began to talk in a mellow dramatic tone "Well I'm sorry i offended your friend miss... he took a dramatic pause
its just that Ive never been lucky enough to meet a frog with a heart of gold. Heck, id imagine a frog with a golden heart would go for a lot on the black market."
After leaning over to attempt to comfort the doe he soon felt warm drizzles slowly falling on his pelt. Worried he turned & looked at her gentle eyes that now harbored tears.
"Hey Kas... I didn't mean to... well upset you." The stag couldn't help but feel like it was somehow his fault. He didn't understand why tears were falling from her face.
He sat listening & staring into her glistening eyes as if he seen something in her that no other deer could ever hope to see.
As she spoke the words seemed to wash whatever traces of doubt he had about himself away.
Unable to reply he turned his head away from her, looking into nothingness. This was what he had been waiting for. To finally be accepted by someone, someone he could be himself around & not care what anyone else thought.
Closing his eyes for a brief moment he thanked the gods for finally giving him a sign that he belonged in the forest.
Feeling the warmth of the doe seemingly drew him out of his trance. He swung his head back around & gently placed it on her forearms.
"Thank you Kasmir. You don't know how much that means to me."
By this time his voice was a little wobbly & unstable. He feared to shed a tear & fought it back vigorously.
The stag closed his eyes exhausted from the roller-coaster of emotion he had been experiencing sense he arrived in the forest.
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"Well... A lot of deer... Dislike me... Because of my... Personality."
She squeaked, blushing and shuffling her hooves. He hoped he wouldn't shun her now that he knew how other deer felt.
They look on Sixx's face suggested otherwise.
He seemed... To really honestly like her. She hoped... It was in the same way as she liked him.
She blushed and flattened her ears to her skull.
Hex was more than awesome... He was amazing. And wonderful.
Her blush grew more scarlet.
She wanted to be as close to him as she could.
She made a little whimpering noise with her embarrassment at her own thoughts. She thanked the gods that deer couldn't read minds. She didn't know what Hex would think of her if she knew her emotions toward him.
"Well, I never! My friend would no-- DID YOU SAY THE BLACK MARKET?"
Her eyes were wide and round with fascination. Who was Sixx, really?
It didn't really matter, she decided. Her eyes sparkled. How she loved sitting here with him.
"Oh, you didn't... I'm just... Really happy, Hex..."
If she could blush anymore... She shook her head.
She could tell... He was happy with how she thought of her. It made her heart flutter a bit.
Here she was, squished up to a stag she barley knew, but had somehow known forever, blushing and feeling quite ridiculous.
She didn't care about who was out, or who was watching them, or what time it was, what day.
She just wanted to live in this moment forever. Be here, next to Hex forever.
She slapped herself for the thought. She was being utterly ridiculous. Hex would hate her. She sighed.
When he rested his head now, closed his eyes, she smiled.
Dipping her head down, she nosed her way under his front leg, so it was resting around her neck.
"I think I do, Hex, I think I do."
Her eyes shifted to the stars again. Back down to Hex.
she closed her eyes as well, leaning down to rest more and more against him.
She beagan to hum a little tune. A little tune about strawberries and the moon.
And she hoped Hex wouldn't think this was weird either.
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Limping a little the stag
Watching them for a moment he turned & started to walk off, only to be stopped by one of the fawns.
"Don't worry young one. Your safe here, make sure you guys stay out of trouble."
He slowly continued on past the young fawn & headed towards the safety of the willow trees.
Circling it a few times he lowered himself to the forest floor and began to lick his wound.
"I shouldn't have gotten in between that doe & the fawns. She didn't understand that they didn't know any better.That was no way to fix the problem!"
Anger flushed through him as he began to lick the wound harder ignoring the pain.
Noticing even more blood gushing from the cut he stopped licking for a moment.
He didn't stop because the sight of blood frightened him. He stopped because he heard something rustling behind him.
Cocking his head towards the sound he saw a small doe appear from behind it.
"Kasmir"
He swung his head back around in self pity. Although he was delighted to see her he didn't want her to see him like this.
He knew she'd think he was a fool for trying to defend fawns that weren't even his own.
With a low subtle voice the stag greeted her. "Hello Kasmir."
Kasmir could smell Hex and
Hex and blood.
That's not right... She thought as she galloped off, following the his smell.
When she found him, she stopped in her tracks and gazed at his shoulder.
"H-hex?"
Her eyes grew side a filled with tears. She half ran-half slid over to him.
She fell into a sitting posistion right in front of his shoulder.
"Wh-What happened, Sixx? Are you alright?"
She looked at it for another second before leaning in to lick at. She did it gently, not wanting to hurt him. After all, she did care.
She stopped a second to nuzzle him, trying to make him feel better.
"Who did this? Wh-what can I do to help?"
Her eyes filled with the deepest concern she'd probably ever felt. And that was saying a lot. She went back to carefully licking at it, trying to clear it up.
"This... Is going to need some seaweed."
Popping up, she ran to the edge of the lake, wading in farther than she would ever dare before to get the plant.
She galloped back, dropping to sit again, licking the wound until it was clear enoguh to see the severity.
When he noticed the doe
" Kas, I'm ok. Honestly I am."
As she pressed against him licking at the wound the nerves in his shoulder near the gash rippled.
It pained him even more seeing her worry so much.
"Please Kasmir..."
Before he could finish the doe bounded off towards the opposite end of the pond. Watching the small doe go deeper into the water the stags eyes widened & he burst up attempting to catch his footing but collapsed back to the ground. Knees buckling under the weight.
To his relief the doe appeared back at his side with seaweed hanging from her mouth.
He gave a sniff & shook as the smell wrapped around his nostrils.
"I'm ok Kasmir, you don't have to help me you know. I got myself into this mess."
Looking into her eyes he could see she was worried. He leaned over & nuzzled her. As he did so he winced when the wound was forced shut from the leaning.
"No, no. Hex. Let me help. I
She shook her head imagining it, eyes never leaving the wound, staring at it, trying to judge how intense it was.
It distubed her, the thought of Hex hurt. Then the thought of infection dawned on her, and she began to frantically work, worried about him.
She saw him get up and fall.
"Do-Don't try to move..."
She said, rushing back as fast as she could. she licked more and more, still careful, and she cleaned the wound.
It was eventually clear enough for her to see how much of the seaweed she would need to cover it.
She slowy picked up the stips, one by one and placed them over the wound, tieing them gently around his arm, her nose bumping his slightly as she did.
She dismissed it and contiuned her task.
"I do Hex, I really do. If you got an infection with a cut this big, it could... Make you sick. It could kill you. You can't die Hex. You can't."
She didn'y quite realize the situation wasn't as bad as she made it out to be, but as soon as she saw that wound on him, her mind fell to bad thoughts.
She didn't want him to be hurt.
Or sick.
Or... Dead.
Looking down at the large
By the time he stopped talking the doe had already begun to tie strips of seaweed to his arm.
The smell made his nose scrunch up but he knew it would make her feel better about the chances he had to fully heal. Throughout all the pain he managed a smile. She was his nurse & he was her patient. It brought great joy to his face to see someone caring about how he felt. It was a new feeling he had never felt before.
Hearing her next statement he placed his eyes gently upon hers.
"I find myself thanking you time & time again. You've really been the only one there to help me through this & i thank you for that."
Putting his head down on his forearm he shut his eyes.
"I don't know what id do without you." he said almost whispering.
"H-Hex... I couldn't loose
A few more tears drizzled out of her large pools of violet. Her voice was only slightly above a whisper. The thoguht of Hex being... Gone, was a bit sickening.
He smiled and it made her feel better, that e could find the will to smile through the pain. Though her ridiculousness.
She still had a bit of fear that Hex might eventually shun her, but it was a lot less now. Seeing him like this, hearing what he was saying.
It warmed her heart.
"Wh-What do you mean? Thanking me? The only one here for you?"
These words made her furrow her brow. It confused her. What had she done for him that no other deer would? Maybe it was that... Hex meant something to her?
She knew that was it.
She... Loved him.
Moving to the other side of him, so she wouldn't accidenlty hurt him when she sat, she layed down, as close as she could.
The words he whispered made her happy. They made her heart thump in her chest and they warmed her. She layed her head on his neck, so that her nose was behing his ear.
"Honestly Hex... I don't think I could ever go on the same if you weren't here... You really are amazing, you know that?"
These words were whsipered.
"... loose me? Kas... I'm not
For the second time he watched as her eyes filled with tears. He knew he was the cause of it.
Careful not to disturb his wound he leaned over & licked her cheek clearing away the tears.
He didn't like to see her crying, especially over him.
"Yes I'm thanking you Kasmir, i told you you wouldn't understand. But you will someday. You are the only one that has been here for me.... but I'm ok with that."
Licking her once more he returned his head to its resting position.
"Don't say such silly things. You would be just fine..."
He knew she would eventually find her way with or without him. But the fact that she felt so strongly about him was a comforting feeling. He had enjoyed her company, her laugh, her scent. He liked everything about this doe. As he began to realize how much he had actually cared about her one thought slipped into his mind. "What if shes taken from me... I-I don't know if i could take it"
Closing his eyes shut trying to hide the though he felt a rush of warmth & realized she was by his side. Right then and there. Thats all that mattered.
"You... Better not." All her
All her tears were happy ones. Happy that she was there was Sixx, happy that he seemed to enjoy her company. Happy that she could help him. Happy that she could be in this moment. Sitting here with him, over the moon because she was truly here in this moment.
She realized that... Maybe... This would be her future. Sitting with Hex. Being overjoyed. Feeling the warmth of his body next to hers.
"You have no reason to thank me... All I did was care."
More whispered words.
He was licking her, then. She smiled and sat and looked at him and giggled. Licking his snout back, she said,
"I... Wouldn't. I couldn't live without you..."
She snuggled back down next to him, nosed her way under his good arm.
Whispered again.
"I... Love you, Hex."
These words were softer than the last, and those before that. She still hoped he heard them, so he knew. Knew how much she cared. It felt like it had been an eternity sitting there, and she wished that it would go on forever.
Forever there with Hex.
All he could do was sit there
She genuinely cared for him. She felt the same way he did.
He could feel it in every breath she took, every word she spoke.
Everything was finally falling into place, for once in his life.
Burying his face in her fur he inhaled the sweet scent. As he listened to her heart beating against his he thought he heard her whispering but quickly dismissed it as his own feelings speaking over his thoughts. He felt as though he finally belonged. He felt as though his place was with her & if it wasn't with her then he would cease to exist.
He desperately wanted to tell her how he felt but he didn't want to scare her away. He had made so many mistakes in his past & he didn't want his expression of love for her to be one of them.
Letting out a gentle sigh he decided he would tell her sooner or later. Unable to think of anything else to say he layed his head gently against the doe resting under his arm.
"I love you. I love you. I love you." repeated in his head over and over again before it became a swirl of words racing through his mind.
Kas thought... This moment
I love Hex. I love him. I'm in love. Love...
She thought, again and again.
Her heart raced, her eyes shut. She snuggled as close as possible to him, licking his fur a tad in affection.
The day, hour, time, moment, month, eternity. It's where she wanted to be. Forever. Stay with him like this forever.
Not quite speaking, not quite silent. Somewhere in-between. Where every little word was coated with heaviness and sincerity and honesty. She loved it.
She loved everything about it. It being right now.
The almost-time-for-sunset sky, Hex's warm body. His head leaning against her, his muzzle so close to her's. How much bigger he was than her. How amazing that made her feel.
She never wanted to leave this moment right now. This was her heaven. She just... Hoped it was his, too.
Ore else she would feel ridiculous. She wondered if she would ever know.
"You know, Hex? I love this... Sitting here with you like this."
She said, her eye closed, her nose buried in his chest fluff.
He smelled lightly of musk, And pine. It was wonderful. Absolutely wonderful.
Feeling her body gently
"... Kasmire... I-I... I love you." he paused " I couldn't think of anyone else id rather be sitting with than you. Through all the hell Ive been through you've been my silver lining.
I know it seems ridiculous, but i can't help myself. You really do make me happy. I like the way i feel when I'm around you. I-I've never felt this way befor... I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life like this."
He couldn't hold his emotions back any further. It all came rushing out before he could stop it.
At this point he didn't care who heard.
He had to tell her how he felt. He wanted her to feel the same way. He wanted to love her endlessly. More importantly he wanted her to love him back.
He pored his heart & soul into what he said & for once he spoke straight from his heart. He didn't know how she would react to him suddenly revealing his true feelings.
"This is it. I'm not running from my feelings any longer. I just hope she understands the way i feel."
She could almost feel her
Had Hex just said that? Or... Was she dreaming? She bit at her tongue.
Defiantly awake.
"Hex... I... I..."
She couldn't quite force her words out. This stunned her, left her speechless.
Unbelievably happy.
"Oh Gods, Hex... I love you, too. I love how warm you are... How deep and honest your eyes are... How amazing you are... I've... Loved you this whole time. I just... Hadn't realized it until I thought you might... Leave. I love you Hex... I love you so much.
Your whole being and... Gods I sound ridiculous, but, I just... Can't stop myself. I could also... Spend... Forever like this. With you."
She smiled, looking down at her feet, blushing a bit. Then looking back up at Hex. Straight into his eyes, smiling her goofy smile again.
Pushing her nose up against his, she giggled again. This was perfect. Absolutely perfect. She couldn't help but wonder, though, if... They would... Be... Together. Seriously together as... As couple.
It was a glorious thought... She wondered if he... Would want them to be?
He was relieved to hear her
This moment was great... the though of them together was great.
There was only one last question to be asked, & he knew it would be the most important.
It would make or break them.
As he opened his mouth he began to speak of the thought of them being together.
"But would you want to be with me? I mean really be with me... as in us together."
His heart skipped a beat as he thought that maybe he was taking things too fast.
He risked it all on that one little question but she needed to know he wanted her to be his, all his & only his. He couldn't stand the thought of them being only two friends that loved eachother. He wanted it to be more than that.
His words wiped away all her
Or if they would be together... It was enchanting. Hearing he loved her, hearing he wanted to be with her... Really be together with her.
As he moved her head to his neck, she closed her eyes and smiled.
His words... They made her giggle. She nuzzled him right where she was with her head in the crease of his neck.
"Of... Of course I would. I could spend the rest of my life like this, Hex."
She never stopped smiling the whole while she spoke.
Her voice was soft; contrary to her usual loudness.
Something about Hex... Had that effect on her. One that made her want to stop whatever she was doing just so she could be next to him; cuddle with him, whisper with him.
She was absolutely enchanted by him. She loved him to the very ends of the earth.
As the crickets played their
Pressing his body closer against hers he whispered a little tale of two lovers destined to be.
Only one could imagine what glorious things were being shared between the two.
They were trapped in their own sea of growing emotions, not to be disturbed by any living thing.
As the night went on they'd have a good laugh & eventually take a stroll before finding a place to rest. There one would spot the two huddle close together binded by their undying love for one another.
Gradually the night would pass on & the light would spawn another day.
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The young doe had woken the
It hadn't occurred to her getting up and prancing off might worry him.
She skipped around the blue bowl at dawn, watching the sun rise and listening to the morning song of the birds. She often didn't go to the birch, but summer mornings... Were different. It was glorious and bright and happy... Everything she stood for.
Her feet barley touched the ground before she was back in the air, prancing in large circles around the rim of the place.
She hummed along with the birds, a few following her melody, a few sticking to their own song.
Only one or two other deer were up at this time; as far as she knew. That's as many as she saw running over here from her place near the pond.
Eventually, more deer rose from sleeping, she watched and greeted them as they ran by, searching for familiar faces.
Then she saw Hex on the horizon.
"Hi Hex!"
She almost-yelled as she bounded over faster than before, smile broad on her face.
The stag awoke alone &
Standing he shook the worst of it off & trotted down to the ponds edge for a morning drink.
Lowering himself he quickly drank his fill & headed off deeper into the forest stopping every now & then to take in the crisp scent of the early morning.
He mad his way onto a beaten down trail where many hooves had scraped the earth bare.
The faint scent of many deer still lingered but a newer & fresher scent stood out among all the others.
"Kasmir"
As he neared the bend there she was, humming & prancing along happy as always.
Stopping he shook his head & let out a low chuckle as he watched her. " Fine morning, even finer doe."
Chuckling even more he trotted over towards her as she ran, meeting her half way.
Wrapping his neck around her he gave her a good nuzzle & a lick on the ckeek.
" & what are you doing out here on this fine morning madame?"
Kas smiled broadly and
"Weeeell. I was watching the sunrise! It's always so beautiful! And I can say hi to all the deer as they wake up! Isn't tht wonderful? You should come with me next time! I'll be sure to wake you up, 'K?"
A little laugh escaped her lips and she tilted her head to look at him sideways. The feathers behind her ear wiggled a bit during the motion.
Noticing Hex still had his hold around her neck, she leaned into him, snuggling close and burring her face in his fur.
"Why're you up so early, huh? I never took you as an early riser!"
She half joked, half seriously asked. It had struck her odd to see him at such an early hour. Usually she and only a handful of other deer were up at this time.
The smell of the birch trees waved around them as the wind threw a little breeze. She looked up at him, her wide violet eyes glinting in the morning sun.
"Oh? Is that so." he was
Rubbing his head on her nape he continued.
"I haven't ever seen much of a sunrise before but I'm sure ittle be much more enjoyable with you there. Just make sure to get me up.
As she buried her face in his fur he let out a low content grunt.
"No reason really, just wanted to see what you where up to. Yah, i surprised myself as well. I don't really care for mornings much anymore."
Noticing he still had her in his grasp he released his grip, a tad embarrassed in his clinginess.
"I'm sorry I'm just glad to see you. he said smiling at her.
"Of course! It's absolutely
Her eyes shined with happiness and wonder. Mornings amazed her. How so many smaller animals raised up from their sleep, hauled themselves out and begun the day. How the sun came to be in the sky, and the dew drops clearing off the grass. It was an amazing thing to see... She wanted to be apart of it every single day.
Hex rubbed her head on her nape, and she blushed. She knew it was normal since they were a couple, but she wasn't used to having someone wanting to be close to her like this.
"You... Haven't seen a sunrise?! Oh gods Hex! You have to come with me. I'll be sure to wake you up tomorrow. It'll be wonderful, you'll see!"
She said, bouncing back from her bashfulness quickly, rocketing into being appalled, then remembering how wonderful this all was and soared back into happiness, her face stretched with a smile, her eyes closed, but still able to show her extreme gladness.
"O-oh. Hex... Waitwaitwait, 'anymore'? What? Why? Did you used to? What made you stop? Is there anything I can do to make you like them again? They're so wonderful... It's a shame not to like them..."
Her bashfulness returned for about a heartbeat, then exploded as she rocketed into confusion, then into concern, moving on wanting to help, and ending with wistfulness for another morning, so she could witness it all again. This time with Hex.
He released his grip on her, and she frowned, a bit hesitant for a second before moving toward him and nuzzling, tucking her head under his chin.
"It's okay Hex... I... Love seeing you, too."
Her voice was a whisper in happiness, content with where she was. Inhaling his scent, she closed her eyes and burrowed her face deeper into his chest/neck fur.
"I don't believe so. Ill take
He was more excited than he put off. The thought of them both sitting together on the dew laced grass waiting for sunrise excited him. It would be the first sunrise he had seen sense arriving in the forest all those months ago. To spend it with the one he loved would make it even more enjoyable.
"...Well." he stopped & shuffled his hooves not wanting to speak of the true answer. Vivid pictures leaped in & out of his mind as if he was spinning in & out of consciousness.
Shaking his head as if he was trying to shake loose the memories he continued.
"Ive never really had a reason to wake up early i guess. "
Still a little wobbly from all the unhappy memories that suddenly came & left he let out a little groan. It wasn't even noon & he was already having his infamous flashbacks. Feeling the doe nuzzling him he looked down to see her head crammed under his chin.
"Theres no need for you to be like this now. Your finally happy & look at her, shes everything you wanted & more. Don't run her away."
Closing his eyes with her nestled under his chin he exhaled deeply, brushing all the bad thoughts & memories away.
"I'm glad your ok with it. Id hate to be one of those guys thats hated by their other half." he let out a desperately needed chuckle that seemingly boosted his mood.
"I almost forgot the reason i came down here this morning. I needed to ask you if you had anything planned later." Smiling he licked the top of her head & waited to see if she would give him the answer he was wanting to hear.
"Ohoho~ So now you don't
Her eyebrows shot up as her mind raced on to mischief. She thought... She'd never really played with Hex before. She knew it was because her feelings for him had been immediate, bumping down all the rest. The rest being, her explosive attitude and constant happiness. He seemed to be lost in a world of his own happiness until he heard her string of questions.
Her brow pulled together in concern, her eyes portrayed those of caring, cautious lover. This state of almost comatose emotion crossed his face as it went blank. It worried her; seeing him like this.
"Hex... You... You can tell me anything, you know. I love you, and nothing is going to change that. You can't scare me off. No matter what you tell me from your pa... Past."
As soon as the word 'past' passed her lips, it was a trigger to her own. Memories flooded her, and her eyes grew wide. She usually did a pretty good job of keeping these memories in a box, stuffed in the back of her mind. She tried her best now to swallow the memories, stay there with Hex and not back with Fantasia.
She swallowed hard, rubbing her face all around his neck area, engulfing herself in his scent. Suddenly the birch seemed repulsive to her. She had to get out of here, the blue-bowl, the birch... Her own mind.
"Can we go somewhere else, Hex? Maybe? I mean... I-if you don't mind..."
She mumbled, her face pressed up against him.
Forcing out a giggle, though short lived and hard, she replied to his next statement.
"I could never hate you... I just hope you don't hate me."
Giggling again, she tucked her body under his, her back pressed up against his chest and stomach, her head leaning up to look at him.
"Eheh. When do I ever have anything planned, silly? Why're you asking?"
She smiled, her happiness and giddiness to be in this moment with him returned. She licked his chin.
He was utterly dismayed. She
"Kasi I was saying I don't believe I've ever seen a sunrise & i was taking your word for how nice it must look."
Had he not been in the downed mood he probably would have had a good laugh about it.
As he listened to her speaking he picked up on the heart pained variations between her words.
She too must have been hiding things about her past.
Thoughts that were etched in the center core of her soul only hidden by years of scar tissue & a bright smile.
Maybe this is why he had been so drawn to her in the first place.
They both had something to hide but no one to share it with until now.
Seeing her trembling over her words he swung his neck low enough to touch hers.
As he felt her rubbing against his neck he also felt the hurt & the pain she was holding inside.
It hurt him feeling this pain being harbored inside her.
"Kasmir, I love you too. I love you so much. I don't want to see you upset or hurting. Ill be fine, whatever happened then is in the past & i just need to look forward to a brighter future. So far its been easy with you by my side & i want to continue on that trail & not look back."
He ran his head over hers trying to reassure her that he was in it for the long run.
"Sure lets find another place. I'm glad to hear you don't hate me & you know id never hate you. After all you are my Kasi." he chuckled as she positioned herself underneath him, giving her a good lick between the ears.
"I just wanted to know whether i had you all to myself or if you had somewhere to be is all. It's good knowing you have a free schedule."
As he finished he nosed her telling her to lead the way.
"I was... Joking Hex." Her
Her face contorted in a funny screwed up fashion. She let out a huge laugh, wondering how Hex could be so dense. Well... He did love her after all.
Kasmir's past was something she did not want to remember. She pushed it as far back as she could and brought forth thoughts of her and her family, and Hex. How someday they would have a family. She was careful about pondering that, though. She was so small... Child birth could be dangerous. Shaking her head, she put it off in her mind, far in the future. Not now.
By the time Hex had swung his head down to meet hers', she was fine again, thinking of all the wonders of the day and the happiness. The birds and Hex and the dew drops fading and Hex and the trees swaying and Hex.
And he was pretty much invading her mind, every second she was next to him.
"So much Hex, so so much... I love you... And I sound insane after only knowing you for god-knows-how-long, and... I know we're together. And that's wonderful, because I love you so much, that... I can't even... Think about anything else when your around. And it hurts to see you suffer. And I don't ever want to see you frown, okay? We'll have a wonderful life, and a family, and we'll have our wonderful friends, and maybe even little fawns, and bright happy days. And we'll have it together, 'k?"
Maybe... This was her reassuring herself more than reassuring him. Her face never left his fur, though. She stayed bundled in it, loving this feeling of being engulfed by... Just... Hex.
"I could never stop loving you. You are my Hex."
Her smile returned, her face happy again. He licked her between the ears, and she flicked them, brushing his nose a bit.
"You almost... Always have me to yourself. Unless Tandem or someone needs me."
She finally popped out from underneath him, and suddenly was nosed along. She began to move toward the birch, soon finding a mushroom circle laced with purple poppies.
"How's this?"
She said, smiling hugely and plopping down, flopping on her back and rolling around playfully.
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Kasmir sat leaned up by a
Shivering a bit, she heard hooves pounding on the ground, then stopping.
She did her best sniff out who it was.
"... Hex? Wha... Arre you doing here? I'm sic-k."
She rasped out, lifting her head a bit to look up at him.
With the heavy scent of musk
As he got closer he picked up on the scent of the doe & a newer smell that stopped him in his tracks.
"That smell... its an infection of some sort. Surely Kasmir isnt... i mean she couldnt... i only left for a while."
Worried & confused he stumbled forward, the smell still growing stronger with every step.
Curled together he noticed the small frail body of the doe as she began to speak lowly.
As she spoke he could tell something wasn't right.
He quickly lowered himself to the forest floor, wrapping his body around hers.
"Its me Kasmir, I came to check on you & thankfully I did or i wouldn't have even known you were in this state. Whats wrong with you? Your freezing." he replied in a worried but stern voice trying to keep calm & collective.
The fact that he had no knowledge of medicine or curing the ill made him worry.
He had to find someone to help her if he couldn't.
He curled himself around her
She had forgotten she hadn't told him of her illness spells. She tried to inch away from him; coughing a lot wasn't good for trying not to spread germs, especially if someone was so close to her.
"You don't have to check on me like I'm some child. I'm just sick. It's fine."
Her temper spiked at his first words. Whenever she was sick, her moods tended to swing.
She inched farther and farther away.
"Don't worry about me. I'll be fine in a week or so."
She calmed a little... Realized being mad at him wasn't going to do anything.
Stunned he watched as she
He didn't mean to come off as being overly protective or clingy but he felt it was his job to protect her, come hell or high water.
Even if he couldn't cure her himself he wasn't just going to turn tail & leave.
This was a new behavior he had never experienced from her before. Surely her sudden illness was messing with her train of thought & warping her words.
"It's not fine, look at you Kas. This isn't normal. Your sick & i need to be by your side. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if i left & something was to happen to you."
As she continued to inch away he got to his feet & walked to where he was standing over her.
Craning his neck his gaze met hers, anger never crossing his face.
"But what if your not? That what if is something i have to worry about & take into consideration. As long as I'm here i know that 'what if' doesn't have a chance to conspire & as long as I'm here i know your safe & not suffering alone. I may not be able to protect you from your illness but i sure as hell am not going to leave you here alone & vulnerable so some crazy nut job can come & take you away from me. I care about you far to much to ever let that happen."
The words he spoke were not angered ones but he said it with enough force to let her know he wasn't going to leave her side regardless of her protest.
He gently rubbed his face on hers & lifted his head back to a normal position, still standing over her.
It wasn't normal for her to
"Hexane. I'm fine. I'm sick. It happens all the time. I don't need you checking on me, though. I'm not some fawn. I'm not saying I want you to leave, but your making me feel defenseless. I know for a fact I wont die. Ask Misang. I'm fine."
Her attitude cut through the loving atmosphere Hex had sort of formed.
He stood and moved close to her. She sighed in exasperation.
"What sort of crazy nut job are you talking about? I know like half the forest! I have extended family for days! I know people that know people. I'm not going to be snatched away. I wander the forest alone all the time. I love you, Hex, really. But this is ridiculous. I'm not as vulnerable as you think."
Even as she said the words, she knew they weren't true. She was probably the weakest and smallest thing out there.
Hurt he lowered his ears &
All warmth was driven from her words.
Only cold & chilled once came flying out like daggers to his heart as she spoke.
The sweet words he use to crave were replaced with those that weren't her own.
They couldn't be her own. She promised him she would never stop loving him & he believed it.
The thought that maybe these where her true feelings finally being revealed shocked the stag.
"Then why didn't you tell me it gets this bad? Why not warn me before hand instead of just letting me fall flat on my face? You keep saying your not a fawn, I know your not but i don't see what that has to do with me just wanting to make sure your ok. I shouldn't have to ask Misang for answers Kas."
Shaking his head he went & sat by a tree just close enough for her to stay in sight & be able to be heard.
Frustrated he leaned up against the tree sending leaves fly.
"Just go ask Misang."
he snorts blowing off steam
"Why the hell would i go to Misang for answers, i don't even know her. I had a feeling something wasn't right, Kasmir should have just told me in the beginning. I'm not letting this illness come between us but she really should have warnned me. Instead I'm left like a fool in the dark."
Looking back over at the doe he let out a sigh.
She needed to get better & she needed to get better fast before she ended up saying more hurtful words that she didn't mean. Or worse, words she actually did mean.
"I'm sorry I'm making you feel that way. Right now i don't see any of your family or friends hanging around. If you happen to see one please point them out & ill happily escort myself somewhere else & let them take care of you sense I'm not fit for the job. You may know half the forest but your forgetting theres still another half to it. I don't know whats wrong with you but i intend on find out once your back to yourself."
He was upset that she would bring up the fact that her family & friends could protect her.
Did she not see him as family? Was he not worthy of protecting her? or was it just the fact that she didn't want him to be near her.
Frustrated he threw his head down on his forearm, his gaze never leaving her.
He was going to stay there even if she wouldn't admit that she needed or wanted him around. Thats all there was to it.
Sweat formed at her brow, her
She grew more and more unlike herself as her sickness grew.
Hex wasn't helping at the moment... But she hadn't lost sight that she loved him yet.
Yet.
"I never know how bad it will get! You're not some high and mighty power, Hex! YOUR NOT GOING TO CHANGE THINGS. IT IS THE WAY IT IS. And if you can't deal with it... By GOD. Then you have no real love for me. Just leave then, just leave."
She shot up on her feet to put emphasis to the parts where she yelled, tears brimming out of her eyes and her voice hoarse and raspy, but quickly fell to the ground, slicing her leg a bit on a rock.
Yelping a bit, she cried.
Some part of her... The real her, but that had been consumed by whatever illness over took her, the part that loved, was shouting for her to stop. For her to stop hurting Hex.
This infected her wondered if it even hurt him at all. The real her said that he did. The infected her doubted.
"Gods damn it Hex. They're here for me. Even if you can't see them. And the forest isn't like WHATEVER SCREWED UP WORLD YOU CAME FROM no one if going to run off with me. I'm fine."
His words... Aggravated her.
But... She remembered how bad... His past hurt him. How bad her past hurt her.
She began to sob more. Her fever broke.
"H-hex... I'm... So... Sorry... I didn't mean to..."
She cut herself off with sobs.
As she scolded him he sat
Absorbing every word she said as if he was a sponge in water.
He didn't want to waste his time talking to her when her illness would only overrun her own thoughts & morph it into something else.
Thats all she was now, an illness. An illness that couldn't be reasoned with.
He'd just have to sit & wait for it to break, releasing the true Kasmir he knew & loved.
Hearing her yelping mixing with crying he turned his head he longed to jump up & help her.
He wanted to go over to her & lick her wounds clean, however deep they might have been. But he knew it would have only been met with objection.
As her tears ceased she continued her assault.
Her words came out even colder than the last as she spoke of the place he had came from. He turned his head, clenching his teeth & eyes shut as if someone had landed a bone breaking kick to his rib cage.
She had no idea what he had to go through, what he had to do just to survive in that hell hole.
The things he saw were bad enough to drive any deer into their grave & for her to go around talking about it like it was a joyous summer walk in the forest angered him.
"What the hell do you know about where I came from! That place was thousands of times worse than the easy life these fucks here in this forest complain about having! If you only knew what I went through you would understand why I'm so protective over you. I too thought that everything was fine until I was stripped of everything! My dignity, status, friends... family. All gone! Because i thought everything was fine. So don't go telling me everything will be ok because it wont be. It just wont!"
He yearned to shout these thoughts to the whole forest & release his building rage but something deeper inside him said it would only make things harder for Kasmir.
He took a deep swallow & snorted as he opened his eyes, anger still lurking in his eyes.
It wasn't the anger of a heartless monster but the anger of a tortured soul trying to be heard.
Hearing the true side of her finally speaking out, he lifted his ears & head to catch the words.
They were brief & interrupted with sobs.
His anger soon turned to dread.
It wasn't her fault, he provoked her with his stubbornness.
Standing he walked a little closer to where she had been sitting but still kept a good enough distance between them, not wanting her to flair up again.
"I know, I know. Don't worry about it. I should have just let you be."[/i]
he replied in a low apologetic voice.
He sat down where he stood, still unsure on whether or not she would snap again. But he figured if she did he would just sit there & take it head on.
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Here's the post as prommised xD
The italicized words between the parentheses without color were things being said to himself but if you wanna rp it as if he said it directly to her be my guest :3
Dude. You are SO aloud to
Do you want me to reply to this post, or...? Start fawn planning? I need to fix Kasi's updates. Idk if you even check this anymore LOL
BUT UH. YEAH. >>;
*takes out Betty Crocker
Mark your calender! We've got some fawn planning to do... when you get on rofl xD