May 21, 2009 - 7:18am — Aegle
The forest is empty. It has been since you left. I'm lost. I am a lost soul and you are my resting place. Everything you said was right. I'm sorry Shyla I know I was never perfect, but you were like a mother to me. And I consider you my mother. You taught me all I know. You made me who I am. At least the good parts of me. You were the first one to love me for who I was. And the first time I saw you, I-I felt like I have always known you. I keep trying to move on. I keep telling myself that for once I need to leave you alone, I need to let you be. I never let you go off, you always watched me. And though I know you would not want me to blame myself I do. Shyla I want to go with you. Any where you go. I'll follow. Whether the dark or the light, death or on journeys to far off lands I want to be with you. Because without you, I am nothing but a scared doe. I am becoming myself again. Bitter. Depressed. Angery. That is me Shyla, but you changed me. You brought me up when I was down, you took every blow I threw at you. But you never threw back. You took my pain, my scars. I hurt you. I can never forgive myself. Shyla, I only have one thing to say. Thank you. For being my friend. I will be here waiting, waiting to hear your stories of the places you have visited. And for once I will sit and listen and take your pain....like you have done for me....
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Yeah. I miss you Shi.
