The murky waters surround me,
in an endless wave of loss...
depression...
sadness.
Sometimes I think the waves are good,
Sometimes I even welcome them in
They mask me from real life,
from love, happiness, joy...
But I dont struggle.
I take acceptance that now its too late
And I cant change what has happened
So I sit still.
Listening. Feeling. Hoping.
But I cant listen, because the dark waters have filled my ears.
And I cant feel, for the icy waves have frozen my heart numb.
And hoping is something
I forgot how to do
A long time ago.
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I miss you already terribly.
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Sorry to spam you with my bad poetry. I just needed to get this off my chest.