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2/29/24

I gave 10 years of my life to this game when I had nothing else ~ as pathetic as it sounds.. In saying that, however, I have things in my life now that take priority over TEF. A healthy and active relationship, a multitude of pets that take up most of my time if I'm not in the city with my wife or we're not gaming together on her off time. Rarely do I get to sit and pour myself fully into TEF like I did 4 years ago (and for the 10 previously), and as much as it saddens me, I'm glad it's happened while the game is slowly dying by the creators and how small the community has become. I find myself writing lore and stories of my own characters, meeting each other and adventuring with each other. I don't rely on anyone else or expect it from anyone else anymore. I think most players are comfortable in their circles and don't feel a need to expand it or open it up fully, and that's ok (truthfully branching out and trying to expand has barely ever worked for me). Everyone is owed comfort and security. I think my place within TEF has slowly been leaking out and eventually I feel like my time completely will come to an end. I enjoy writing for my characters, but I dont need TEF for that if I feel like I am doing it all within my own head. I've always loved writing, even as a young teenager.

YUCK ANYWAY that was a tldr; tef is slowly dying no matter how much we'd like to believe it isnt and im glad it's happening now when I have things to live for outside of it and am not 'prisoned'



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would love to see pics of the

would love to see pics of the new nugget at some point q>q and so glad to see you around ♥

thank you everyone for your

thank you everyone for your words just after Roxi passed.. was really supportive and appreciated ♥ ;;

siGH silv ok :c and thank you ♥

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The way you talk about Roxi

The way you talk about Roxi makes me tear up a little, haha. Definitely agree with there being lots of dachshund in him. How did they think aus shep?? anyway.
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i'm so glad you got her ashes

i'm so glad you got her ashes and everything, the throw blanket sounds precious?? but so glad you got so much support 3: x2 entirely confused how they couldn't see the dachshund.. he's a little noodle and his eyes are beautiful ): ♥

Oh my god, he's such a

Oh my god, he's such a beautiful and adorable baby. And there's nothing wrong with getting another dog so quickly. People move at different paces, and I'm glad this little guy found himself a good home. <3

He's definitely got dachshund in him too. Gorgeous eyes.

Puppies and rats? I am so

Puppies and rats?

I am so there for that.

TY everyone for all the sweet

TY everyone for all the sweet comments ♥

lunaa i'd take more pictures of my ratties if they cooperated with photo taking :c they're worse than hershey

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Retracking.

Retracking.

He's so freaking adorable.

He's so freaking adorable. <3

What a precious face omgosh

What a precious face omgosh

Hope your ratling will be

Hope your ratling will be okay. <3

thank you! His toes aren't

thank you! His toes aren't swollen like they were, and his ankle doesnt seem as 'angry' so im sure he's at least feeling a lot better

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Hope its nothing major for

Hope its nothing major for your rat baby!!! Sending good thoughts your and the rats way <3

How...in the hell did Peanut

How...in the hell did Peanut lose the bone in his feet? Is it bone cancer? That's so odd. Fascinating, but really odd. I'm glad he's doing better, hope he keeps it up!

I know that feeling...if I could, I'd feed Kiara a raw meat diet, but she's my sister's dog, not mine, so I don't have any real say in what she can eat and whatnot...it doesn't help that even the "cleanest" kibble food still has things in it such as meal that doesn't do anything for dogs (or cats, for that matter). If I ever get the chance to own my own dog, they're getting a raw meat diet, and that's that. They're meant to eat almost exclusively meat, and do best on such a diet. Don't let anyone bother you over it, Hershey is so much better off with what you're giving him, and that's what matters.

We have no idea! for a while

We have no idea! for a while in the early days we thought it might have been an old injury (he's so accident prone.. when he was smaller he got his front toe (finger?) caught in the bars of his cage and it ended up getting ripped off ;; ) the vet is even a little puzzled by it too, because she mentioned it (bone cancer) normally doesn't (or she's never seen it?) go clean through the bone in that way, but that's the diagnosis she's pretty sure it is, so at this point its just keeping him comfortable. I'm glad too! He was so miserable the day we took him to the vet and he's made such a turn around.

It's always the most frustrating wanting to do for someone elses pets ;; theres people in my family that,, are one of the most neglectful pet owners ive ever known and it just completely blows my mind because they're so well off and none of it goes into giving the dogs a better life in any capacity sigh. I've only ever had positive experiences with raw diet as well as everyone i knew who had their pets on it too, i honestly would never want to change it.

(e) thank you, Ori ♥

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&hearts; !

♥ !

adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
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ommg she is so precious ;;

ommg she is so precious ;;
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SHE IS SO FRIGGIN CUTE I'M

SHE IS SO FRIGGIN CUTE I'M CRI

I'm so in love with her.

I'm so in love with her. Precious ratling. <3
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*whispers* would you mind at

*whispers* would you mind at all if I added you on discord? I keep meaning to ask ;u;/

omgosh not at all! pls do

omgosh not at all! pls do ♥

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aaa awesome~ sent

aaa awesome~ sent <3

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Your animal children are so

Your animal children are so precious.
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plop

plop

&hearts; !!

♥ !!

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My wisdom teeth surgery

My wisdom teeth surgery recovery was an absolute nightmare BUT it's definitely not the norm. Just make sure to limit your sodium intake for a week beforehand. I don't think I did and that fucked me over because school lunches are like 98% sodium. My other two surgical recoveries went swimmingly. And your gag reflex sounds like the worst thing in the fucking world idk what I'd do without some of my pills Dx
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My wisdom teeth are like so

My wisdom teeth are like so weird its like hEEYY do you WANNA come out or not or what's happening this week?? I swallow at least 4 pills per day and at least 3 of those are half the size of my pinky... u_u
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Its most likely you will have

Its most likely you will have 2 at max or just one tooth removed at the time.
But otherwise it won't hurt a bit. -you feel it- but it doesen't hurt. Imagine poking your gum with your finger. Imagine a stranger doing that. Don't imagine that they're doing it with a sharp tool that looks like it's used in stone carving.
However i think the most icky thing will be the shot they give to the top of your mouth. If your gag reflex is hella bad, that part gonna be just ... shudders.

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TY GUYS for the comments

TY GUYS for the comments ♥!

it definitely wont be something that's in the very very near future i have to get done, but i like to unnecessarily worry in advance smh.. the big concern im worried about is if i have to have all out and they only want to do local anesthetic. I got a back molar out years ago and idk what the deal was but the local wasn't working (long story short i basically got it pulled without any numbing agent because i could physically feel the pain of it, not just the movements, so that was a fun time but my dentist said grown men couldn't have been able to handle that so :nail-care: ) BUT because it didn't work the dentist kept trying and overdosing with local to the point afterwards i couldnt swallow and was freaking out lowkey because it was difficult to breath >> so to think id have to have 4!!`! shots in the corner of my mouth if they insist on taking them all and not doing general freaks me out v.v im planning to get the referral next time and then call and ask some Q's hopefully knocking my arse out is an option

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Hoping getting knocked out is

Hoping getting knocked out is for you too! I hated when i got my tops out (awake) but when i got my bottom ones out they put me out and man is it the best. So FINGERS CROSSED FOR YOU!
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Oh yeah they definitely put

Oh yeah they definitely put me under for my surgery. I got all four out and they were all impacted.

Are you sensitive to

Are you sensitive to anesthesia? I don't see why they have to be so hesitant about it if you aren't, especially if they want to take all the teeth out at once.

Regarding taking pills, I used to have that problem a lot, though it's not as bad anymore. If I'm having difficulty taking a pill, I move myself around and remember various dance songs that I listen to. I find that that helps me to take my mind off of what my gag reflex is doing, and I can swallow the pill pretty easily. Maybe try something like that and see if it helps?

Looks like a King Plakat.

Looks like a King Plakat. He's quite a looker too.

Thank you again for all the

Thank you again for all the comments! i was initially worried about the local not working since it didn't last time, and was going to rather be put under completely (when i do get around to the wisdoms) but when i got a back molar out just 2 days ago it worked so i guess i just had a bad infection in the other that hindered the local working??

I dont think im sensitive to anesthesia, though the only time i was ever put under (i think??) was when i had a bad 'car accident' and needed a skin graft but i was like 5 years old and idk if i was under for that or not. THE taking pills thing is really impossible for me ;; i never could even take the smallest of birth control when i was a mid teen and any pain i had to endure sigh, but now i crush up pain pills if i absolutely have to but even then i usually just take kids liquid because it tends to do the trick for me

I love bettas but haven't done any research about different kinds (except finagle), and only learned there were 'giant' bettas a couple weeks ago. He caught my eye straight away (i always go and look at them whenever we visit) and i just couldn't not take him home he was such a stunner, but im also v partial to the majority whites when it comes to their colouring, and i loved how stocky he looked.

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That really sucks, but it's

That really sucks, but it's understandable. At least the kid meds are working for you.

Yeah, the giant/king bettas are very stocky, and the plakat morphs in general are actually pretty close to what bettas look like in the wild. He's definitely very beautiful. I'm personally partial to butterfly colour morphs, where their body is mostly a darker colour (such as blue or red), but the edges of their fins are white. Certain solid colours really catch my attention too.

Regarding the fan, have you had anyone look at it? It's possible that there's a buildup of dust on the inside and that can clog the fan and make it work harder. There are pressure sprays that can help push it out, but they can be a bit risky. Is it a laptop or a desktop?

i've fallen in love with the

i've fallen in love with the stocky betta's, and am so glad i learned they're a thing. Any betta that has white on them catches my eye and attention idk why. Even solid whites im drawn to

it's a desktop, and haven't had anyone look at it, we're living v poorly right now so cant afford anything and there's no one computer savvy in the fam so we're outta luck ;; it actually isn't spinning at all now so that happened sooner than i thought it would siGH. I keep it relatively clean! I actually just cleaned it a couple days ago (inside and out)

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your computer troubles and

your computer troubles and resolution just reminds me how fortunate I was to replace my graphics card before cryptocurrency absolutely destroyed the market by artificially blowing up prices on computer parts :skull:

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We already have Christmas

We already have Christmas items for sale at work, and I am not okay with this.

i wish i was exaggerating

i wish i was exaggerating when i say i saw christmas stuff in stores back in august? early september? i swear it's getting earlier and earlier every year

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MeRRY ChRYSLER

MeRRY ChRYSLER

is chrismun

is chrismun

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MERRY CRISIS

MERRY CRISIS
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OH MY GOD WHAT A PRETTY GIRL

OH MY GOD WHAT A PRETTY GIRL Q>Q black rats are my favourite too but ironically i've never cOnnEcTeD with one. and i've always had boys because my fear of mammary tumors popping up sigh..
already got enough other kinds of tumors FOR THE BOYS
alsoi'minlovewiththeboysbeingsobigandsquishyandlazyandthoseGIANTHEADS

100% of my rats have been gotten from snake-feed tubs. and i've had so many people preach that 'supporting the industry!!' thing to me and finger wagging BUT TBH. 98% of the rats bred to be snake food.. ARE GONNA BE SNAKE FOOD. everyone could stop buying them as pets and they'd still be mass bred to feed reptiles so.. sigh

THE ONLY THING SUFFERING IS MY WALLET AS I SPEND HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS ON MEDICAL TREATMENT FOR THE SICKLY GROSS LITTLE THINGS!!! all worth it for though

that store clerk sounds so sweet too. 3: i've never seen anyone in a pet shop pick a rat up properly

ka i'm a crazy rat lady

ka i'm a crazy rat lady :pensive:

i havent had a black standard ear since 'Asia' and she passed away really young (well before she was 1) either brain tumor or stroke from what i googled with her symptoms after she passed away (pet store rat too).. ive been really unlucky when it comes to mammary tumors sigh it's such an awful cancer, it grows and grows and the rat remains fine despite this large mass on it and it's just awful, and my girls get it when they're older and surgery is a bigger risk than would be normally

i always hear about how in the rat community everyone loves boys the most but all the ones ive had have been sort of lowkey skittish and nervous when handled/etc.. GRANTED ive only had boys when i had like fucking 7 girls too so my attention was sparingly divided between so many. I DO WANT TO one day experience just having 2 (hahahahaha) boys and get to hopefully see what everyone else talks about :sob:

i think the closest i got to having a boy that was similar to what everyone talks about with males was 'dad', he was a big fat lazy sweet as hell boy but he didn't care to be held and he was a little skittish out of his cage but inside he'd fall asleep while you scratched his head ;; and then my girl 'mei' (my first) who liked living alone, sweet and snuggly as hell and such low energy.. she reminded me of what i hear people describe the boys to be like

sigh didnt mean to ramble i could talk about rats all day :'(

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GOOD. AS YOU SHOULD BE. i

GOOD. AS YOU SHOULD BE. i swore off gettin more rats a few years ago because IT'S TOO HEARTBREAKING THEY DON'T LIVE LONG ENOUGH. but then.. it happened again.. and here i am with two dumb boys, wanting a third. which i might have to get because peep wants to live alone with his temper from hell (and me apparently), and po could do with a quiet friend who doesn't kick his ass and try to murder him via pushing him off of ledges

GUH, i've had pituitary tumors and spinal tumors and stomach tumors in my boys. none i could do anything about other than bring them in to the vet to say goodbye. :{ SO I DON'T NEED 12 MORE SPOTS FOR TUMORS TO POP UP GDI. i've raised mice too and any females that lived over a 6 months ended up developing tumors, save for ONE. SO NO TY!! NO TYSM! especially because like you said, they pop up when older and BLECCH. they really don't even seem to notice the mammary tumors though, for a long long time. it's the worst part about it LIKE THEY'RE. NOT SICK, just 3: .. lumpy

I'M SURPRISED YOUR BOYS HAVE BEEN SPAZZY. i've had a few squirmy boys, but it has a lllOT to do with their genetics.
i got my two current boys from different stores with different stock breeders and while they're both super sweet, there's definitely a huge difference in behavior that i don't think is environmental. and po was maybe 4?! months when i got him, and under socialized but he still melts like putty when you pick him up

some girls can be super snuggly i hear 3: apparently dumbos in particular? also they don't constantly PEE ON YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU LOVE UNLESS YOU REMOVE THEIR BALLS. Smiling SOOOO THAT'S NICE.

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