Don't be sad because I roam .:| ATIQ |:. It keeps me alive

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Haunted and Ignited
Take care
Or you too Shall Burn



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May include reference to themes of violence & strong language in the future.
Discord: PenumbraEx#2103
Feel free to approach/message anytime~ If I don't respond then I'm just temporarily afk | I crash often | I'm painfully anxious but I don't bite |D
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"I wish I knew what to do..."

6/17/20
Losing more and more sleep, with the newfound time filled up with too much thinking.

Things have started to feel a little better with Nawfar, but he still can't help but feel some of the wall that was built between them has a few bricks left in it. On his birthday she gave him a beautiful shell trinket. He's kept it close to his person ever since and treasures it greatly. Still wishes that she would talk to him more, there's so much he still doesn't know about her, and the more she grows the more he fears he'll never get the chance to be "papa" again.
In the same vein starting to feel some distance from Pagan, though he imagines it's just the farm work occupying her mind.
Starting to feel torn over whether the distance wouldn't be better for them in the end considering the thing haunting him, but desperately does not want to wind up alone and isolated once again.

Made to think about this dilemma once more after spending what started out as a pleasant evening with Grace, chatting and enjoying each other's company. Began to feel uneasy, fur prickling up his spine, feeling as if he was being watched. Later after the sphinx took her leave, Feige found him once more and settled in for some quiet company.
As the two sat by the Ruins idols, he heard their spirits' frantic whispers that someone unsavory had been messing with them. The thought only fueled the chill rising in his chest and resolved to tell Pagan of it later...




BASICS

?/Deer | 30s | MALE | ♉ MAY 6th
AH-teek ★ Ancient

Pinterest ★ Music ★ VoiceToy
Picto:
Size: 13
Scent: Sandalwood, Sandstone, Jasmine
Likes: Warmth, wandering, goofing around
Dislikes: Snow, cold
Reference:
Extra:
★ Mix between a Caspian Red Deer and a Fallow deer in build
★ Eyes are known to glow slightly in low light
★ Blood can burn when spilled







Essence


Passionate ★ Gentle ★ Patient ★ Selfless ★ Resilient ★ Charming ★ Fearless
Willful ★ Self-Destructive ★ Heated ★ Hesitant

★BODY★

He is stronger than he looks with a frame of lean muscle hidden under his fluff. This makes him extremely fast and agile, and while slow to anger he can hold his own just fine.

From time to time the scars on his shoulder bother him, mostly in damp or cold weather, making him sluggish, slow, and sore, Atiq is also frequently reckless and will aggravate the old injury by pushing himself too hard when it acts up. He doesn’t like to acknowledge his own weakness, needing to appear strong for others.

★MIND★

Even though Atiq leaves a first impression of being charmingly playful and exceedingly gentle and caring, in his own company he carries a bit of sadness about him, almost bittersweet. Protect or play, or be a very soft pillow to cuddle up to for naps, he is very much a “mother hen”, whether to family, friends, or even strangers. Always concerned for those he cares about and will put their needs above his.

★SOUL★

Atiq is a very old soul, philosophical in his thinking and is very inward-looking, he spends a lot of time in his own mind. He is brave when he needs to be but upon first meeting him he can appear a little anxious, it quickly disappears however when he turns on his charm and introduces himself with a low bow and a lopsided smile. Being roused into a playful mood is when this stag truly shines, he's walked this forest for FAR longer than many ever guess and knows it intimately, he uses this to his advantage in games as he can race amongst the trees unhindered and hide out of sight of any prying eyes. He can be mischievous when he wants, but it’s always with harmless intent.

Tries to see the best in others, though he is not naive or easily fooled.











History


Awoke in the Forest long, long ago. It was vast, quiet, and nearly empty. Came to be with no memory of anything, and did not question it. Neither did he question his form and how easily he took to it, nor how he had no recollection of a childhood and appeared in full adult form immediately. He spent many a day and night swaddled in a carefree existence, nothing mattered outside of these impossibly tall trees. The fact that he could never quite tell if he knew there was a sky or not never seemed to bother him.
Years passed and the stag faded in and out. He'd walk from places known to unknown in a fog and return to a changed forest. Over time his ignorant bliss turned to silent melancholy and distant observation.
Questions he should have asked years and years ago finally surfaced as the stag's full awareness began to shake itself free. The nights went from being dreamless to threads here and there of subconscious
thought or perhaps a history.

He found he felt just a little bit Haunted. Even Hunted.

His fears were confirmed after being abducted by an unknown force that stole his time and his memories until it spat him back out.
Atiq remains vigilant and slowly falling into paranoia while trying to keep himself and his family afloat.





Bonds

★Family★

☀Nawfar☀

"Little Firebrand"

Adopted Daughter. Deeply bonded. Loves and Cherishes more than anything in the world. His lifeline. Has paid with his own blood to save her on multiple occasions and would do so again without hesitation. Dotes on her but does not indulge her sass. Admires her fiery spirit and underlying warmth and her playful side. Extremely proud of. Felt a distance after his abduction and return and desperately wants to reforge the bond properly, hoping he's doing his best in that regard.

❅Pagan❅

"Starlight"

Co-parent and cherished friend, budding confidant. After his sudden appearance covered in ash and nightmares, was invited into her home to recover.Stayed with for the support and blessed company. Enjoys her insights, her playfulness and kindness, her genuine care and her unyielding courage in the face of danger. Forged a fierce and deep bond with and feels familial protection and loyalty to.

★Close★

Neirin‣Close friend and confidant. Enjoys his wisdom and his eccentric nature.

Lemon‣Close friend. One of the kindest and gentlest souls he ever had the pleasure to meet.

TOG‣Dear friend. Bright forest spirit that always brightened his day, one of the first souls he met after a long and foggy road. Misses seeing her work in the plant life around the woods.

Jude‣Dear friend. A kind and friendly face to sit and pass the time with. Sat with him through injury and low spirits.

Thais‣Dear friend and lovely neighbor. Pleasant companion and gentle soul, her warm nature reminds him of summer sunlight.

Kaoori‣Dear friend from a distant past. Saw her beginning and growth in the forest from a small distance. Every time he's met with her since has been smiles and joy. Enjoys her presence.

Graceanne‣Dear friend, indebted merchant. Bought a cinnamon broom from one fall season, caught her eye and started a friendship. Endearing company with plenty of laughter and joy.
Healed his daughter after an encounter with her mother, would do anything to repay the sphinx.

"Lil Babu"‣Co-hatched little wonder. Cute, adored, and fleeting presence.

★Known★

Tan, Cu, Feofan, Sabel, Fritillaria, Sub Rosa, Culzean, Maeve, Snow, The Reverend, Damaris, Kinsha, Levant, Cydae, Baldur,

★Seen★

Maritus, Vidal, Joha, Shanaz, Ceryn, Noelani, Mio, Cennétig, Sindelle, Doitsu, Ciel, Uy, Easca, Leovys, Takato, Husami, Galene, Sage, Rossamund, Salem, Crescent, Llyr, Vrasa, Z'ress, Nishi, Sasuda, Cavallo, Shelly, Ashley, Grimoire, Shiva, Walter, X, Maab, Echo

★Enemies★

Marella‣Nawfar's biological mother. Twice attempted murderer of her own daughter. Gave him the scar on his back. Unhinged and hated.

☠‣Unknown, abductor. Branded him with a strange sigil.

★Past★

💔 Lacey 💔

"We bloomed for too short a while"

An old flame, a young love. Felt at home in her presence and was in awe of how sweet and gentle she was. Still holds some grief for.

☙ Darcy ❧

"Faded Monarch"

First friend, best friend, held in high regard even now. Looks fondly on their early days and distant laughter.

Kumiko, Reetno, Skokey, Quad, Rowan, Rutilus, Martisol, Emiva, Isis, The Twin Dancers, Fledermaus, Vipin, Aspen, Xylia, Mystress, Cavalier, Shyla




Inventory




A hip bag given by Pagan. Uses mostly in Forest for holding interesting items or gathering herbs.

An old pipe made of wood and brass, with a small symbol carved on the stem, matching the one found on Atiq's shoulder. Found discarded in the woods.


A scrap of blue and gold cloth found snagged on a branch on the path home.

Ominous sigil branded between his shoulders, recent, burns occasionally. Neirin copied it to paper for further study.


Purple jasmine flowers, grown in Forest, likes to decorate his antlers with.






























Haunts












Den in the Birch. Still visits occasionally.








Has a second favorite spot, one that was a frequent haunt of his ex-mate, Lacey. Accidentally planted a garden of jasmine there, tends to it frequently. Likes to share the blooms that grow there.






Gjokstad
Pagan's farm in the far north. It's cold, but it sparks the burning sense of adventure in him, and...it's starting to feel like a real home. Reluctant to see it go.


































pumpkinseed's picture

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Smiling
phantomhelsing's picture

well hello there, new

well hello there, new travelers to Atiq's neck of the woods~<3 Eye
fushrah's picture

Oh my goodness, what a

Oh my goodness, what a pleasant surprise to find my name under In Passing! Thank you for my big ol smile right now. <3

And since you made me smile - I'll tell you my little fawn's name before I post it all official-like! She's called Shelley right now - but when she grows up, she'll also have a 'title' like the good Reverend. That part gets to stay a secret for now though! Eye
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<3 your fawn is so cute and patient I can't get over it

-gasp- how dare you tease me so lol Shelly is such a nice name~ I'll keep quiet until it's official, I wouldn't want to ruin the dramatic reveal haha can't wait to see what you do with her c:

&hearts;

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<3

yessssssss

yessssssss
phantomhelsing's picture

aaaa thanks guys~! C:

aaaa thanks guys~! C:
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sits

sits
Display pic by crabbycrown ♥

Yaas

Yaas <3

hEY!

hEY!
phantomhelsing's picture

EYYYY =D and thanks for the

EYYYY =D

and thanks for the tracks guys <3

&hearts;

yES FINALLY

yES FINALLY
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One of my all time faves

One of my all time faves right here, better find a place to get comfy on this page before I forget
phantomhelsing's picture

@ Emote & Leotie -

@ Emote & Leotie - <333 hello~!

@Sycamorre - here's your complimentary pillow for making yourself at home ;p
thanks <3


one day I'll update this, but not this day |D

Loooove his bio and art so

Loooove his bio and art so much!

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love him and his design so

love him and his design so much ♥
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@ 11 & Silver - aaa thank you

@ 11 & Silver - aaa thank you both for the compliments, I'm flattered! <3

@ Leotie -

;p

trying to clean this up and update it but I might have just made it messier |D

we both appreciate the

we both appreciate the company, thank you.
phantomhelsing's picture

-swoons- I'm so

-swoons-

I'm so flabbergasted and also touched ;u; lol
really thankyousomuch <3!!!

you're welcome here anytime ? ? ?
Atiq loves seeing her cuddle up next to him c:
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After Pagan leaves Nawfar's

After Pagan leaves Nawfar's gift at the base of their tree, she twists to work at the buckle holding the satchel around her barrel in place. It hits the snow-covered ground with a muffled plop, and she freezes, terrified for a moment that Atiq and Nawfar might wake up and catch her in the act. She stands stock still for a few beats, ears flat as she listens for any irregularities in their breathing; when she is sure they're still fast asleep, she picks up the satchel and places it at the base of the tree next to Nawfar's cape. The satchel was made of dark brown leather, tough to the touch and fragrant. She'd packed several bundles of herbs and flowers into the bag for Atiq to use should they ever need it, and while it wasn't all together, it isn't much, she hopes it will ease some of his burdens.

She casts him a long, thoughtful look before she leaves, tempted to stay so that she can be there to say I'm sorry when he wakes. In the end, she squashes the urge, knowing it to be selfish, and pushes onward into the night.
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:leaves a acid drop here:


:leaves a acid drop here:

HOW Did I forget to retract

HOW Did I forget to retract this sweet boy… ;;
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