the bee does quickly sting

The One
mPhysical--%
⌈ --  ⌋
oMental--%
⌈ --  ⌋
jEmotional--%
⌈ --  ⌋

"..."

Accendare
aksendaer
deriv. of accendi; to kindle

Dare, Sen, Sgàile, Kaira
OneOnewun
⌈ God-given; the name of her pictogram.  ⌋
,
AceAceeis
⌈ 'of Spades', 'of Hearts'; given by Silence.  ⌋
,
SandpiperSandpipersændpaipur
⌈ (Solitary); a small shorebird known for depositing eggs in the tree-dwelling nests of other birds.  ⌋
, {the}

Her flesh was a
   garden of mourning

            – Hélène Cixous
An-Diugh
June 8 2021
Updates and info done on her Toyhouse for now; link


















Fhéin
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Header artwork by Shimmyshimmy, bottom left artwork by myself (Pan), Cycle tab art by myself (Pan).

This blog may be subject to various mature themes, which may include but are not limited to: Violence, sexually explicit content, gore, psychological and emotional trauma, foul language. View at your own discretion. Any and all representations of earthly maladies, religions or otherwise are used with no intent to offend or misrepresent in any way, and are regarded with care. This character is and always will be IC, and though each one of my characters is a part of me in some way, all actions, beliefs and thoughts are their own, and as such do not represent me in any way, shape or form. That being said, I do take responsibility as her player and am open to discussion if ever necessary.

If you're looking for a means of roleplay or contact, you can either post here on the biography or add me on Discord at Pandalanda#7922.














Juncture

  Breach
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  Whim
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Cycle
  Manifest
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Seasons
  Bonds
A roster of those who have, in one way or another, had an impact on the One. Note that these are entirely from Dare's perspective, meaning not everything is mutual, and impressions may not reflect accurately on the character in question. Listed in alphabetical order.


  Aleksandr †
Deceased. Biological son; firstborn and stillborn. Considered one of her darkest secrets and as such has disclosed his existence to few; a child conceived through rape and carried to term. Despised the babe while he was still in the womb, and several times considered drastic measures to rid herself of the living reminder of the attack, however could never stomach actually doing anything. In the end, prepared for motherhood and came to find some comfort in the idea of a child of her own, as non-maternal as she is, only to be met with the sick irony of a stillbirth the day he arrived. With the help of North, the only soul present to witness both her shame and her agony, buried the child right where he'd been born, naming him posthumously. A wound that has never- and may never- fully heal; inexplicable sorrow and longing.


  Braithe
Adoptive grandson.


  Circe
Recognized. Finds her mannerisms calming if not endearing, and her appearance enthralling. At ease when near, though a part of her remains wary purely out of an instinctive reservation around felines and the like. Known to be a part of a larger family.


  Dajhi
An old friend, a face that brings back memories of the past. Considered lost to the winds, but wished fondly well.


  Eli
An old friend. A friendship that budded soon after a chance meeting, and the Blue coaxed the Ace from her detached lifestyle. One of the few reasons the doe began properly socializing with anyone at all, rather than being a background feature as she always had been; brought into a circle of friends including Eli, North and Sianna, and found a sense of belonging in them. What followed then were years of turmoil, a tumultuous mixture of polar extremes: happiness, heartbreak, betrayal, jealousy, despair, all of which would frequently settle into bouts of quiet peace in what became almost ritual intervals. Came to resent and avoid her friends over time, particularly Eli and Sianna, while standing on the sidelines of a never-ending fallout between her trio of friends- constantly felt caught in the centre of a selfish tug-of-war and became bitter and cold once more, apathy triggered ultimately after having a questionable tryst with North.

Over the months, distance became absence, wounds became scars, and while their friends have gone separate ways, the One and the Blue eventually, by some trick of fate, were reunited. No longer considers him close nor trusted, for too much has been passed and broken between them, however cares for him greatly and continues to be willing to help him where she can. Thought of much like an unspoken brother.


  Esll
Former mate. Loved, longed for. A bond first discovered when both were coasting aimlessly through life and looking for solid ground; of innocent beginnings. Repeatedly awed by his zealous loyalty and unbreakable convictions, even the times when they happen to be contrary to her own, and respects his choices regardless of whether she finds them questionable or downright wrong. Has been saved both in mind and body by the Monarch time and time again, though at earlier times didn't have the heart to show recognition or appreciation for this as she knows she should have. Knows the bull sacrificed more for her than she ever did for him, whether at her behest or not, and still longs to make up for it, though with their break, finds the task impossible. Feels she failed him in every way she could have. Haunted by what could have been, if only fate had been kind.


  Ma'ao
Secondborn biological son by Lucchaine. Longs for contact, loves from afar. Hates for the irreparable damage he and his influence caused through she and Esll's lives during his childhood and adolescence. Believes he was destined for ruin, and blames herself entirely for it- and curses that she brought him into the world at all, at times. Weirdly enough, proud of the fact that the Gaboon survived into adulthood, achieving what Aleksandr could not, even if his path there left her perpetually heartbroken.


  North
An old friend.


  The Red †
...


  'River Stone'
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  Roanen
...


  Ross
:/


  Ryff
Daughter figure. Beloved, but distant from.


  Saosin
Former friend.


  Shye
An old friend.


  Sianna
An old friend.


  Silence
...


  Umay
Friend?


  Walter
Rapist. Biological father of her first and stillborn son, Aleksandr.


  The Wolf
Tormentor, undoer, the devil on her shoulder. Broken from. Loathed, craved. After too long suffering by the Wolf's hand, became magnetized to him and the foul treatment he never failed to give, developing deeper, complex and warped feelings for her captor born out of self-preservation and terror. Slowly grew conditioned over time, adjusting speech patterns, behaviours and adopting uncharacteristic mentalities whilst in his presence, all in a subconscious attempt to appease him, and avoid his wrath- or, if it would be felt, to cope with his wrath. Even came to long for his affections, focusing on the comfort of the fleeting and rare positives to better survive the dreadful lows. Changed who she was, the One still feeling the residual effects today.

Made efforts to sever their tie multiple times, many of which The Wolf mocked or even manipulatively convinced the One to reconsider; eventually, however, his presence became inexplicably more scarce, allowing her the time and coherence to try ever more to break from him. Never seemed to succeed, but her efforts seemed to only anger The Wolf, whom one day finally snapped. Despite having had her flesh torn away by the beast, had fervently forced herself to believe that he would never try to kill her- and this would be her downfall. Murdered violently by the Wolf in cold blood for having attempted to have a life without him in it, fracturing the absurd sense of safety she'd defensively been able to foster whilst with him for years. In the months since, took greater measures to ensure his influence over her is weakened, both magically and emotionally, having her scars 'redone' in an act of freedom.


  Wollunka
Enigma. A profound bond, unspoken and complex. Began with little more than distant visits and sparing words, though after a series of heartbreaking events in the Sandpiper's life, discovered sanctuary in and aid from the Ouroboros when she believed she had been forsaken. Even so, embodies many of her deeper fears, and rarely fails to inspire inklings of terror in her chest. Still, over time has seen compassion and fairness in the Cobra, scarce and fleeting as it may be, allowing her hope that there is a heart beneath the venom, and though their 'friendship' has been tumultuous and confusing at best, has grown to trust him- for the most part. As compelled to appease him as much as she is to defy him, emboldened by the possibly misguided belief that he would never truly turn on her. Recent underlying feelings have slowly begun to surface, the One coming to pine after what may never be, though out of trepidation and pride keeps these sentiments to herself. Longs to mend his damage, despite knowing it isn't something she can heal.


  Yumi
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Easca, Uy, Hirouji, Arcturus, Isiel, Pandora, Mirah, Brent, Vivek, Aapelli, iknowthere'smore just remind me sobs















Epoch
  Almanac
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  Collection
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Eon
  Musing
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Disclaimer
Codes constructed and (or) gathered by Pan, with the exception of the Javascript (courtesy of Hraeth and Unplugged respectively), font implementation and filed css styling courtesy of Cissy, and fading tabs courtesy of WDA. Please do not harvest from, thank you! eve
Header artwork by Shimmyshimmy, bottom left artwork by myself (Pan), Cycle tab art by myself (Pan).

This blog may be subject to various mature themes, which may include but is not limited to: Violence, sexually explicit content, gore, psychological and emotional trauma, foul language. View at your own discretion. Any and all representations of earthly maladies, religions or otherwise are used with no intent to offend or misrepresent in any way, and are regarded with care. This character is and always will be IC, and though each one of my characters is a part of me in some way, all actions, beliefs and thoughts are their own, and as such do not represent me in any way, shape or form. That being said, I do take responsibility as her player and am open to discussion if ever necessary.

If you're looking for a means of roleplay or contact, you can either post here on the biography or add me on Discord at Pandalanda#7922.














Juncture   Cycle   Seasons   Epoch   Eon

What moon’ll gather up your pain

of whitewash and oleander?
— Federico García Lorca

Age
Centurial
⌈ Born December 31, 1834. In her prime. Perpetually youthful, trapped at the age she first died as. Has lived and died several times over, however she has not aged since her first death. ⌋


Gender
Female; doe

Species
Red Deer
melanistic ⌋


Tendency
Monogamous
Abroromantic demisexual
Fluid romantic inclinations which are ever-changing, and a need for a strong emotional bond before feeling any sexual attraction. ⌋


Status
Single

Haunts
Birch, First
Scent
Frosted pine

Diet
Herbivorous
⌈ Obligate herbivore while in the forest, however as a human and in other forms is able to adopt an omnivorous lifestyle. ⌋


Signs
⌈ Capricorn. ⌋
, Rabbit
⌈ Fire. ⌋


Vocals
#373920

Build
~ one meter

Set
Mask, antler, pelt

Excess
Tumblr [NSFW], Pins, Spotify, Toyhouse






























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AHH &hearts;

AHH ♥

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c: &hearts;

c: ♥
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ouo

ouo
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think i know who. &hearts;

think i know who. ♥
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-lay-

-lay-

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-waits-

-waits-

Thanks everyone &hearts; Not

Thanks everyone ♥
Not sure when I'll actually put stuff up on here but it'll come.
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Breathtaking picture.

Breathtaking picture.
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Damn.

Damn.
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ooo

ooo

Discord:Nazzard#9068 ||Click for bios.
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Brief but sweet... Good to

Brief but sweet... Good to see her again.

&hearts; all jin -- was such

♥ all

jin -- was such a throwback to see her again for the both of us, really loved the romp.
'dare's glad to see shye's still around and well~
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Oh man I had no idea you even

Oh man I had no idea you even moved this. Tracking. <3

Track, simply beautiful

Track, simply beautiful

Thank youuuu uvu

Thank youuuu uvu
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? Track.

❄ Track.
Siggy by awesome Sypris

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Vasla is going to be so

Vasla is going to be so pissed.
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:prayer circle for 'dare

:prayer circle for 'dare baby:
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SCREAMS

SCREAMS

LOL SHIT don't doubt it for a

LOL SHIT don't doubt it for a moment
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u better care for dat baby

u better care for dat baby momma 'dare
or lacie is gonna have to come over 'dere and play daddy >:[
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gfhgfkl but it's hard :[

gfhgfkl
but it's hard :[
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Omfg 'Dare istg

Omfg
'Dare istg
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look i already messed up tOO

look i already messed up tOO MUCH PRESSURE
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i was rooting for you WE WERE

i was rooting for you
WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU
>:'[
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yEAH WE WERE

yEAH WE WERE

sTOP YELLING AT ME

sTOP YELLING AT ME
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nO nEVER

nO
nEVER
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edit: nvm it wasn't you

edit: nvm it wasn't you sigh

But have a track for the pretty lady regardless omg
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ooh track of interest!

ooh track of interest! ♥

eue thank you~

eue thank you~

Awwww yissss. &hearts;

Awwww yissss. ♥

oh she's so pretty

oh she's so pretty

&hearts;!!!

♥!!!

swore i was tracking

swore i was tracking ;;


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I think she did a number on

I think she did a number on 'Koba's pride just by not being impressed by him.

(:

(:

ems -- &hearts;!! amary --

ems -- ♥!!
amary -- ajhgfj the poor guy, he sure did try his best
basen -- (';

fans self

fans self
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i may be two years late in

i may be two years late in tracking this but i assure you i was under the impression that i was tracking and you just never updated and am i not h a l f r i g h t?Question??Question??Question

LOLsobs def more than half

LOLsobs def more than half right
someone give me the juice to write more updates for my neglected babies pls thank
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sits

sits
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everything about this layout,

everything about this layout, and that art.... its so good.

Oki - &hearts;! R - aahh

Oki - ♥!
R - aahh thank you, took a long time to let it be fully realized but i'm glad with how it turned out~
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hello

hello