here, now

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here, now





11/4


I move across the country to California in 6 hours and tbh I dont even know how the hell I got this far and Im having trouble fully processing what Im doing my brain is a scrambled egg but it feels right so Im gonna do it and basically thats the story of my life


about




"spool of twine & nail"

warm, fluid, adaptive, intuitive, intense, atheist, elusive, genuine, resilient, raw

misplaced alien with an insatiable sweet tooth
living a minimalist lifestyle backed by an anxiety-ridden, stimulation-addicted, maximizer extremist mentality
daydreamer stargazer perpetually unsatisfied perfectionist, with the soul of a sage and the heart of a child I am hopeful for the future, fueled by my own impermanence

Wait, wait. Let me try this again.

Hi, my name is Ravyn. I like anime, Disney, and having my dessert before dinner.

In the game, Im an antlerless doe, wearing a real deer mask, and real deer pelt. Sometimes when Im feeling small, Im a fawn. I like company, so come join me in the forest whenever you like if you see me on the map. We can lounge in the forest while we chat on Discord or go for a stroll, have a romp, eat some blueberries, admire the koi fish, cuddle, chase the birds, pick some poppies, count the clouds, you know, all the good stuff.

face, build, plain, pupiless, dewy-eyed, neutral ash brown.
no markings, spots, trinkets, or embellishments.
scent is washed out, subtly sweet, and inviting.


contact


discord Ravyn#6261



characters


Lucille
Thorn King
Fig Tree Child
The Black Swan





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♥!!

♥!!

By Leuvr
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♥! ok but your 'about'

♥!
ok but your 'about' section is adorable
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Hello

Hello <3
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Hello...&hearts;

Hello...♥
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

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hurr.

hurr.
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OkamiLugia's picture

sits

sits
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Don't mind if I do

Don't mind if I do
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&hearts;

h-hewwo wavyn!! Account

h-hewwo wavyn!!

Account cleaning sounds like a good idea, but oh man, the effort required.

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<3
Starling's picture

This page looks really

This page looks really aesthetically pleasing <3
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Trackin' this c:

Trackin' this c:
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<3
Kaoori's picture

i'm so here for this

i'm so here for this
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&hearts;

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&hearts;

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thanks for the tracks

thanks for the tracks everyone!

fishyfish-
Its so refreshing and worth it.

starling,
thanks. Smiling Im actually pretty satisfied with it!


...by the way Im online!
anyone that wants to come roll around in the poppies while I paint my nails are welcome.
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&hearts;

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&hearts;

I super fucking believe in

I super fucking believe in you!!!
Ravyn's picture

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ty fish

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

ty fish<3

That made me smile. Glad it

That made me smile. Glad it all worked out in the end. <3

I'm glad it worked out, but

I'm glad it worked out, but man that could have been a costly mistake that they made!
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Being a functional adult is

Being a functional adult is much harder than it should be oFL
Thank goodness the manager figured out they F'd up and called you back!
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Ravyn's picture

lmao im losing my mindddd

lmao im losing my mindddd
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I think that means you're

I think that means you're doing it right?
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OkamiLugia's picture

glad you're getting some

glad you're getting some assistance ♥

my mom takes clonazepam, I have a script for it to take if anxiety ever gets really bad, but my main meds (duloxetine) work well enough that I don't need to. Finally being on a medication that worked for me made a night and day difference, and I try to convince my other friends with bad anxiety to keep trying because finally finding a medication that works for you is such a game changer. The depression is still pretty bad but that's what happens when you're our age in this political climate :/
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i hope things work out for

i hope things work out for you, Ravyn. Thinking of you.

That's good to hear, but,

That's good to hear, but, man.. I'm sorry you had such an adverse reaction to taking them at the same time!! Damn.
Keep on working on yourself, ok? Don't stop and don't be an idiot like me and try to tough things out because it's so hard. I believe in you!
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OkamiL, is dulozetine

OkamiL,
is dulozetine something you take long term like lamotrigine (mood stabilizer)? what is it?
I was actually thinking of pairing my adderall with clonazepam for ADD but didnt know how well it would mesh. I was worried about the depressant making me tired. .5 zones me out even though its such a low dose. :/ gonna try .25 instead.
youre so right. idk why i didnt do this sooner. I can be so stubborn lol.
the one and only thing that has benefited me from the most recent election is that they decided to stop penalizing people that didnt have health insurance. i had to pay a $600 fine because i didnt have (couldnt get access to) coverage in 2017. Sad

Kao,
things are definitely looking up, and im hopeful. thanks so much. <3

Fish,
omg I was so scared lol.
thats usually me, but I just couldnt even make it through a work day anymore... Im so, so happy I got help.
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jfc. wish they'd just fine

jfc. wish they'd just fine ppl who decide not to buy it instead of people who CAN'T buy it even when they clearly want to. i wish they hadn't killed the public option before passing ACA.

duloxetine is a generic of cymbalta and is indeed a long-term medication. it's commonly used to treat bipolar disorder as well as general anxiety disorder and major depression (which is what I have). having to adjust to life with normal anxiety levels was difficult because my anxiety kept me alert and active. now there's not much balancing out my inherent lack of motivation and executive dysfunction xP

i was on/off different meds for 10 years before i found something that actually worked. and that was 10 years of having the means to try! i can't imagine how hard it is for people who don't have the support/ability.

Thinking of you Ravyn.

Thinking of you Ravyn.
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okami, medication is an

okami,
medication is an exhausting process but i feel im closer and closer to what i need and making the progress thats been long-overdue. and damn, do i mean long over-due.

L,
hey, sorry I havent replied sooner. Im usually mobile, will read comments, go about my day, and completely forget to reply until weeks later. Sad you are so good to me, thank you.

w.s,
nothing, I was just clearing out an old update. Smiling
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We were and are hyped and

We were and are hyped and will continue to be so! Life is inconvenient, but you got this!
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T&hearts; Now that I've got

T♥
Now that I've got some time on my hands, I hope to finally retreat to the forest again.
Hope to see you in there~
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Track This is very warm place

Track
This is very warm place to take a seat and watch (:
Icon © Sluggs
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w.s, thank you thank

w.s,
thank you thank youuu

bayleen,
!! hey it’s good to see you. I play mostly ooc now and i’d love some deer cuddles whenever we get together!

hau,
welcome. Smiling chat w/ me anytime.

Life so often manages to find

Life so often manages to find a way to worm itself into our plans. Hopefully everything works out for you for the better!
Starling's picture

I really hope that either the

I really hope that either the group-meetings or phone sessions will help you. I'm so glad you have got a nice working-environment, at least.
Always good hearing from you/seeing you here. <3
Panda's picture

i always read everything,

i always read everything, even if i don't comment
keep strong, cliche as the saying is. you've got a backbone of steel, don't forget it even when your heart feels lost. it ebbs and flows, those feelings- i've got diagnosed BPD and it's a daily battle, but one you learn to understand, to navigate. that goes for all emotional turmoil tho, rly, just need to figure out your own idiosyncrasies and how to work around them or through them or with them
glad to hear you've landed a positive job too, that's a perfect bonus for stability in at least one area of life
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Hang in there, Rav. I know

Hang in there, Rav. I know how you feel when it comes to depression. I find I've been struggling with it in different ways as I age, too. Health insurance is a joke in this country..
I'm glad some things are looking up for you though, and I really hope they continue to. You know where to find me if you'd like to talk or just someone to bounce off a vent to and I'll reply when I can.
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holy moly. I hope all your

holy moly.
I hope all your dreams aren't that terrifying.
Really glad you made it out of that particular forest, you know?
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Spirituelle's picture

here's some swan for you


here's some swan for you
Starling's picture

^ that is incredible

^ that is incredible
Ravyn's picture

skye, this has made me so

skye,
this has made me so happy. thank you.
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Lovely vibe in here.

Lovely vibe in here.
Ravyn's picture

hi bunny

hi bunny<3
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just letting you know that i

just letting you know that i love this new color scheme
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