We didn't talk nearly enough, especially last year, and for that I will always regret.

Our characters didn't interact much but I felt a bond form between us at some point, especially when we got to talking about transition things. You confided a lot in me in the past few years or so, and that made my affection for you grow exponentially. It broke my heart that you didn't feel 100% supported by certain family at the time. I can only hope things got better. I remember we wanted to meet out West someday.

All I can think about is how, at the end, you wanted to talk about the good things.

November 1, 2019
"but dude you should tell me more about your transition! what's changed since we talked last?"

You wanted to know how I was doing, what changes were happening that I was pleased with, and you were happy for me.

Such a surreal feeling. You've had and have my utmost respect. To me you've never been anything but a great goddamn person and that's how I'll remember you.

Tuo, I'm so happy he had you. Wishing all the strength to you and Possessed.

i love you so fucking much..

i'll never forget everything you've done for me, my dear friend. years of memories are so much more precious to me than they ever have been. i so badly wish i could have been there with you in your last moments..

thank you, tuo, for being there for him. i'm feeling such an unbearable amount of pain, i can't imagine how strong this is for you. please reach out if you need anything..

I haven't made one of these in years...



Still doesn't feel real.

The post on discord made me come here and see what I'd miss and wow... I was not expecting this. I admit I didn't know Fin very well, but reading about his passing still felt like a punch to the stomach. May you rest in peace Fin, what interactions we had were always positive and even though I rarely play her anymore I will never forget that you were the one who gave me Illrose's picto all those years back and helped me bring her to life ♥

Tuo and Possessed, I am so so sorry for your loss, you and everyone else affected by this are in my thoughts ♥

I've struggled with what I was going to write here, to be honest I still do.

I can't put the grief into words that'd do it justice, I don't know if I should. It aches so, so much - these past days I kept retracing our journey through my small part of Germany together. All the things we did, we've seen, the laughs we shared. How much fun Jay had with Labee, riding her - now you're getting to see her again, man. I hope so. When he left at the airport to fly to England, I was crying because I had enjoyed the time so much. We so badly wanted to see each other again - we did, when I visited California. Man, those were some wild three days ...

Jay, I am so sorry we never made it to Hawaii nor to south Germany to see those palaces you so loved. It breaks my heart to think of all the things you never got to do. I love you man, you were one of the warmest and kindest people I ever had the pleasure of getting to know. To know I'll never speak with you again, never see you again nor roleplay with you or anything - it just fucking hurts.

Thank you for everything, rest easy now. To you, Tuo and Poss', mine and my family's deepest condolences. My heart goes out to you.

I'm having a hard time finding what to say, yet I feel the need to say something here.
Honestly, I'm in shock to learn about this today and my heart has been heavy ever since.
I've never talked to you much but you've always left kind comments. I'll always remember the times playing together in the forest waaaaay back in the old times. Q and Stel looked cute together, haha. Like some high school sweethearts. So innocent.

It's unfair you had to go. And it's even more unfair that you had to suffer pain. You certainly didn't deserve it. I hope you've found peace and that your life was one hell of a ride, in a good way.
I'll make sure to try appreciating my own life more, because there are always people, like you, who have to go way too early.
Safe travels, Fin.

Please join us for an in-game memorial gathering for Jay (Fincayra). We will be at the hill with fern trees near the Ruins on Saturday. All are welcome, but please respect the others who have gathered. Come and go as you wish and are able; we will be there all day.

The coordinates for the hill: 80 x 57
Fern Hill is on the side of the Ename Ruins opposite of Dandelion Hill, past Run's Sunspot and the Crossed Logs.