January 24th
So uhh I almost died last Saturday. Couldn't breathe, flatlined and everything I think. I think I literally came back frim the dead. The cancer got into my brain ventricles and wouldn't let any of the fluid drain so the pressure p much ballooned. Had to get a shunt put in, still recovering from that surgery. Needless to say I am no longer in school and I guess the fight's still on, I'm just on borrowed time rn
We'll see what happens now. This cancer really wants me dead, but I really don't want to let it take me yet. Don't wanna be morbid, but I just want to say that in case anything still happens, you guys are amazing and supportive and I love you all. I'm sure you'll hear from Tuo or my sister if anything were to happen at this point ♥
keep it up, you're goin'
i'm keeping my fingers
): Keeping you close in my
Keeping you close in my thoughts.
I'm thinking of you ... hang
Fin I love you and I haven't
You're strong. I know you can do this. Kick this shit's ass.
♥ know you can beat
know you can beat this, Jay. we love you
is there any way we can help? somewhere we can send money?
what echo said, i'd love to
and you can do this, you're an incredible fuckin' fighter and you'll overcome, seen you do it countless times before ♥
YUO CAN DO IT This video
This video always makes me smile, so I hope it makes you smile too.
With the help of your
I was able to eleminate my cancer too ...it is inactiv at the moment .
You can do it
Jay, you've got this. Let us
ugh i love you guys gonna see
gonna see about restarting the campaign, or getting a new one goin' but please don't feel obligated to give anything. your thoughts and well wishes are what matter the most to me, above everything else ♥
We got you, Jay. Don't you
Even if you don't have hearing on your left side, that ain't nuthin', yea? We're "hear" for you. Ha. ... I'm not that funny. But still, one more battle. Just a little more stress and it'll be all good then. You got this. Prove us right, k? Much love and admiration, alright? That's what's here for you- from all of us.
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♥ ♥
not here anymore really but
thinking of you regularly, and sending love often.
urgh. Jay. ♥ I'm so
Gloves back on, back in the ring. I'll be thinking of you on the 22nd (and in between, you're in my thoughts often). I wish you so much luck in that 3rd round of surgery and anything you need out the other side we got you.
Sending you strenght and all
I know how you are feeling right now .
Stay strong !
God the little thing just
I'll be thinking of you on the 22nd and my heart goes out to you. Stay strong, you'll conquer this!
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you're all incredible, each
i'll be in surgery first thing tomorrow morning, so i'll be seein' you
thinking of you, jay, you can
My paycheck hits tomorrow. I
I hope you are recovering
Sending you lots of positive vibes !!
Check in when you can.
'eyy! had a couple
back home now anyway, with too much energy and
not a whole lot i'm about to do atmand not a lot.. i can do about it atm. ?? hopped up on steroids again, so i'm feeling a little crazy, but everything went well and i'm super glad to be home ughhGood to hear such good news
welcome home
WE NEED THOSE DEETS BECAUSE WE WORRY
and we're nosy af.
It must suck so bad.. well,
Wish I could loan you some strength. Try to hang in there. ;; ♥
Keep fighting !! We are with
We are with you
Sending lots of strenght towards you .
Jay. Take a breath. And
A week is out of the way, which is good.
You can do this, just allow yourself to realize that you're human and this crap is tough.
You are tough, too, because you've dealt with shit up till now, k?
Like. You're still here, and you've made some big choices, so make sure that you take it easy on yourself and don't let the circumstances weigh you down.
About a month more. You got this.
Make sure to come here and vent and complain it out of your system.
We'll support you, if you need it.
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I believe in you. So much.
Wonder n Clare both stole the
you've got so much amazing shit to do in your life yet, and if i know your stubborn ass, this won't stop you from gettin' there ♥
Sending love and well-wishes
Vili i sflipflappin
Good on your for treating yourself to such a precious babbin!
Also, rock that 'do, no matter what!
So proud of you for getting so far! For puttin' up with all this! So proud
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xoxoxoxo
Jay, dear, how are you doing?
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heyy. sweet of you to check
well. radiation's over with, and the MRI came back clear. cancer's gone. started chemo.. a little over a week ago now, but it's given me a pretty severe body rash that burns and itches and overall just looks hella nasty. s'got me pretty bummed out. :[ was ordered to stop the chemo to work on resolving it with an antibiotic and topical ointments, but so far it hasn't responded to anything and they want me to have restarted chemo by monday which.. m'thinkin' i might have to refuse bc i def can't live with this so i might have to fight with the doctors..
we'll see. appreciate you thinkin' about me hnn
Oh god ....you are in the
Fighting with your health and the docs ....
Hang in there too ♥
fly! hey, don't mind me- i've
you've been with me, encouraging me through every step of my medical journey even when sometimes i haven't wanted to go any further. i'll never forget any of it. you're such a light around this place.
so start getting better, y'hear. you're gonna get through this.
Thinking of you. Hoping
lacie.. ♥ doin' as
♥ Thinking of you.
Formerly ocean.
thinkin of you.
Ugh, I'm really sorry to hear
Keeping you in my thoughts as always, and happy early birthday.
Why the hell is everyone here younger than me, I don't understand this and it's mildly frightening.Why haven't I seen this yet.
know i've been MIA the last
Hey, ily a lot
mauv.. 3: ♥ poppin' in
tysm for your kind words- everyone's kind words, even. i know i'm so terrible at replying to every one of you individually like i should for all the sweet sentiments you've all thrown my way, but i read and appreciate all of them sm. been wanting to put this off for a bit longer but i think it's time for another life update, so m'glad you stopped by for the reminder mauv hhnn. ily too and ily all
i've been wondering but
and it's rly sad to hear about how your mom handled everything, but it's thrilling that you've got support from other important people, doctors and ofc the community here eue do what you gotta to feel comfortable. it's your body, after all~
i'm extremely happy to hear
but i'm incredibly sad for what you have to deal with- i can't pretend to know how hard it is and my heart hurts that you have to deal with what you are dealing with, especially from someone who is supposed to love you unconditionally. I'm glad you DO have support from others, and know you also have support here, although it may be from afar.
you know my thoughts already
Literally jumped when I read
I'm sorry your mother didn't take things well. Worst come to worst, you could probably couch hop between TEFers. My couch folds out!
Only partly jokingWishing you all the best, Fin.
Very good news that the
I'm sending you strength and stay strong!