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Finally a safe place to stay.... or atleast... a place that seemed to be safe...
They had left the forest a few days ago, had followed an empty street until they reached a small village.
Jane had been affraid of entering this place, fearing they could wait there for them, police could be there... feared people could recognizes their faces....
But Jack had simply dragged her with him.
They avoided the streets at day... stayed away from crowded places...
Jack even managed to get his hands on some Newspapers.
They had studied them carefully...
Not one word about them... about their escape...
Propably, because their very existence was a secret... because they should have stayed hidden from the world.
Eventually they found this empty, old house. Warning signs on the intimidateing fence round it...
They decided it was save enough to stay for a few days.... to rest...
Bot of them where exhaused, tired, hungry...
Jane sighed, looked down at the sleeping one next to her.
It was dark in here, in this dark, old and duty room. Some abandonded furniture lay on the ground... propably it had been a cupboard some years ago. The wallpapers where torn, impossible to identify the texture it hat carried once...
Jack laid curled up on some old mattress...
... he was on the other side again.... in the forest...
A look of worry was on the woman's face....
He had been there a lot these past days. And each time he returned his mental state seemed worse than before.
And he had been unusual silent... had talked only once with her about it... only briefly..
She knew there was something with Illrose...
... she just hoped that the Dragon Lady was all right.
Jane was still a bit affraid of the Lady... but she also understood that she grew important to her 'brother'.
She had no idea how the lady had managed this... but she made it behind his barrier.
Jane was happy about this. A proof for her that he wasn't lost. That there was still hope...
... a sign of slow, slow recovery.
Oh, how she hoped that the Dragon Lady was all right....
... for Jack's... and for her own, Jane's sake...
She had no idea what would happen if...
The woman sighed, put her arms around herself. It was a cold day... rainy...
Suddenly she noticed a movement in the corner of her eye.
Jack winced...
... she blinked... was he wakeing up now...?
... yes... he woke up.
With a scream that let her blood froze...
... she had heart this kind of scream from him before...
Jane hurried to get away from him, out of his reach...
The man next to her got up, jumped on his feet, blindly running into the dark room, stopped a few steps in front of the wall on the other side.
She could see him trembling...
Suddenly his arm shoot forward, hitting the wall, leavint a hole in the crumbling plaster...
He screamed again, this time in pain.
Jane crawled backwards, wanted to get as far away as possible from him... the madman...
"Ja habs gewusst.... hab es gewusst..."
('Yes I knew it.... knew it...')
She could hear his whispers.
"Es gibt sie nicht.... es gibt sie nicht.... PAH! Freundschaft.... Freundschaft... Ich glaube nicht an Freundschaft... nein... Ich hatte recht! Von Anfang an recht!"
('It doesn't exist.... it doesn't exist.... PAH! Friendship.... friendship... I don't believe in friendship ... no... I was right! Was right from beginning on!')
Jane swallowed... she didn't dare to say a word.
Suddenly the man in front of her grasped his head... another scream... also in pain.
Though... a different kind of pain.
He sunk down on his knees, his fists tormenting the dirty floor in front of him.
He had literally lost his mind for the moment...
It... had happened again...
This kind of pain...
Oh, he couldn't bear it, no...
How could he ever let her close enough... close enough to caus this terrible kind of pain...
He had done so well all the years, yes? No one close... no one close...
He had been the one, who hurt, who invaded...
Unable to bond... therefore invincible... impossible to be hurt...
And then... this dragondoe...
Jack burst into laughter... a horrible, shakeing laughter...
"Deine Schuld, Soldat.... deine Schuld.... Dummkopf...he, he , he... Du bist darauf hereingefallen... ja?... Ja...? ... ha ha ha!"
('Your fault, soldier... your fault... dumbass... he, he, he... You fell for it... yes?...Yes...?... ha ha ha!')
He grabbed his head again... thoughts, memories, feelings hunting each other... unable to controll them... to sort them out...
And then this pain...
This pain...
And the shame...
... the rage...
Another scream burst out of the insane's chest.
Get rid of this get rid of this get rid... KILL IT kill it this feeling CUT IT OUT kill it kill it get rid of it it HURTS
Janes eyes widened as she saw her 'brother' rocking himself back and forth, holding his head... mumbling words she couldn't understand...
She opened her mouth...
He didn't hear her voice anymore...
... didn't know where he was...
Tangled up in his own, breaking mind, trying to deal with this feelings, this disappointment... the shame... and the anger about himself...
That's what you get when you let them close...
Haven't you learned anything?!
You can't trust, you mustn't trust...
And I told her... and I told her...
You mustn't care, soldier mustn't care... be strong, be strong...
All these things I told her all these things...
Strong, kill off those feelings... this pain... without mercy... be merciless soldier...
And I told her... and I told her all those secrets... all those secrets...
Break it, soldier, break it... break this mind, break this feeling, you don't want it, don't need it.
Nothing happened, remember?
Yes.
There is only one, just one...
All those secrets...[i]
He started to giggle...
Hate is the truth.
Yes.
Rage is the truth.
Yes.
Hope is a lie.
Yes.
Trust is a lie.
Yes.
Never trust again.
Never.
Never care again.
[i]Never.
A croocked, distorted grin on his face.
Let them pay....
...they shall feel what you feel, yes?
Yes. Yes, yes...
Suddenly he realized someone next to him...
An arm around his neck..
A voice...
"Alles ist gut... ist gut... beruhige dich... es ist gut..."
('Everything is fine... is fine... calm down... it's okay...')
With a growl his arm shoot forward again, hit Jane right in the face... the women fell over... letting out a silent scream...
Her yes widened again when she looked in his face...
Hastily she crawled backwards... wanted to get away from him... out of his reach again...
"Nein, nein... bleib... bleib... ich... he, he, he..."
('No, no... stay... stay.... I... he, he, he...')
Jack grasped for her leg... an iron grip...
Jane froze in place, couldn't look away from his face... his eyes...
Those eyes... this face...
... this look...
As if something was broken...
... as if something had vanished...
Something that had slowly returned during the months... the year... they had been in this strange forest.
Her eyes filled with tears...
Something inside him... that had slowly started to recover... was broken again...
Another part of this man he had been... she wished him to be again... lost to insanity once more.
Jack grasped her shoulder now, pulled her closer towards him, still staring at her with those horrible, broken, piercin eyes...
"Keine Angst... nein, nein... du... he, he... du bist doch jetzt die Einzige, ja? Die Einzige... he, he.... mein Herz... meine Liebe... "
('Don't be affraid... no, no... you... he, he... you are the only one now, yes? The only one... he, he... my heart.... my love...')
He lay his arm around her, put his forehead against hers, closed his eyes.
His next word sounded like a treat...
"Du wirst mich nie verlassen, ja?"
('You will never leave me, yes?')
Jane swallowed, forced herself to embrace him as well.
"Niemals..."
('Never...')
She couldn't stop her tears from falling...
What ever had happened on the other side... in the forest... the past days...
It had left another scar on him...
She knew it.
He would never admit this... will cover it with hate and rage now...
But it was there, this scar...
She put her hand on his chest, felt his unsteady heartbeat.
She could feel it...
... invisible but deep...
Thanks again, snow <3
Awh, Jack. :c Thank you too.
Whoaaaa...-mindblown- Everyt
Everything you write is just...amazing. The power and feeling in it. I love it. 8D
thanks a lot wetterhound :D
:3 Aww. Yet waaaah T-T